Mixed emotion

It one of those day in the raining and cold season that I just wake up and don feel like talking to anyone and feel very down.

So today I just went for lecture which is the first lesson of the day at 11am. So.So I just walk into the lecture hall and my classmate saw me.I just pretend that I never saw them and I just walk to the front of the lecture theater to sit down and do my own stuffs.

Somehow i just feel my mood can be affected by the weather and I am not joking.When its sunny,I would tend to talk more and when its raining and cold,I will really don't feel like talking to anyone. Guess this is just the weird me..

This weekend will be quite busy for me as i already have so much thing that i am looking forward to.But then again i predict that i will be late for some appointment as well.hahaha

Photo of my weekend will be upload as well so stay tune.



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**我也不知道我到底是要什么??如果真的不知道,那么我是不是应该潇洒的走,而不是像一个“虫”

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Why time past so fast

Somehow even though there is not much events this week, time seem to past to fast also.

Cannot seem to figure out what is happening in my body.Being to have blood in my saliva,daily stomachache in the morning and frequent headaches as well.

School work seem never ending and i really cannot think of way to squeeze out time to work as well.My finance is already quite tight and i really want to work.

Thursday cell outing was great,or should i say the dinner was awesome. Want to eat Malaxiangguo but ended up playing "angel & mortal" food edition and we need to buy food for each other.So CL pick my name and know I want to eat that so she bought the food for $20+ and we share the food.Felt so bad about it cos it was kinda expansive. So after than went to the CC nearby and play some game before heading home.

Sunday,was kinda rush and tired for me.Wake up early for LTS class and then went back home to change then went to orchard to meet someone before heading down to SM birthday chalet at NSRCC. Someone the way we meet and know each other was kinda interesting...Did chat with the rest of the "stewarding people" as well.

Kinda give a thought if I want to celebrate my 21 a not.But in the end I decided not to really celebrate it as my schedule will be quite pack for December as well...

Tiring week

Quite a happing week for me...I kinda hate it when I am totally free one week then suddenly all appointment and stuff all happening the following week... Why can't all my appointment and stuff spread evenly throughout...i really hate it when i hate to rush from one place to another as i sweat very easy and i hate my sweat amell cos it's really smelly...hahahahhahahahah

So during one of the lecture this week,i was listening to the lecture,then i notice the rostrum which is on the stage bearing the TP logo,then something kinda stuck me."i ccanot belive i am studying in TP for about 7 months already",somehow TP does not give me a sence of belong at all,perhaps is my character..Can you belive that if people ask me where i am studying how,i still need to think for like 1-2second before answering and sometime i can accidently say i am from RP..

Really miss those time and experience in ITE, where i got a really good CA and "annoying classmate"...Unlike in poly where the classmates are really like those "hi-bye" people you meet in life.I really try to lower my pride and really try to "communicate" with them but then after so many attempt,i really give up...I mean if they treat me a friend/classmate/class rep or whatever,i don't really seem to care so much like i used to.

Friday was kinda busy for me.Having class at 9am seem like a "mission impossible to reach on time" because i am gettin more and more lazy. Follow by group project meeting and we haven really start anything yet. Follow by meeting some people for some "stuff". Then have to rush down to ICA before 4 to do my IC,then after that have to go home to shower then meet some people for "dinner".

Sometime i try to "drown" myself with so much stuff is because i don't want to overthink about certain stuffs,especially during this period of time.I just want to really find sometime for me to really take some time to reflect and rejuvinate before really start doing anyrhing,i don have much time left already.

2 parallel...

Some modules need to form group and I was kinda the "few last pick". Kinda disappointed by then after a while, I kinda feel better when I tell myself that at least i am in a group with different classmates and I hope that this semester project will be better than last semester.


So this few week,there are quite a few acquaintances birthday and for a moment I feel that I am kinda old.Mine birthday is also another 1 month plus from now and I still haven achieve much in my life.I kinda have a goal in my life and yet I still don have the motivation to start anything yet. Kinda have finding the ideal people that i can work with.


Sunday dinner was kinda good and it really bring back memories to when i was interning at banquet.Kinda miss those workaholic days where I can work for more than 13 hours a day and claim OT.Got the thought of going back but then this mean that i need to back my weekend. Hais..


Was checking my phone calendar and i was quite puzzle as to why my phone have this "birthday thing" and till now i was still figuring where it came from. So who is this person??

1.Someone that really help me alot in the previous semester.

2.Some one that kind caught my attention when i first saw her.

3. I still own her a "favor"

4. Someone who like the same color as me. (I guess)

5. and I still can list more thing but i don want to expose the identity. Happy guessing ;).

I kinda hate it when I own someone a "favor" and all of a sudden,the person is just like a "complete stranger to me".If given another chance will I "act" differently??