Bored Saturday

Really nothing to do except for studying for the 2 upcoming test but I really cannot study at home.Really need to find a study buddy soon.

Ended up watching movie and tv the whole day.

Realisation Friday

For once i am begining to wonder if it was the right choice to come into the course that i am studying now.Only 6 people in the same class literally.

Sometime i just don feel like going with the group and there are so many thoughts running in my mind,it not that they are not good,i guess the problems lie with me.I just feel like having a heart to heart talk with them,but i already know what would happen if i did that.I guess not all words are meant to be spoken.And i just feel that is pointless anyway.

I think i might not get good mark for my test today as it was really a hard paper,so that means i have to try harder for the rest for my test and exam.

Check my bank balance yesterday and it was not really that good.I am only left with a few hundreds bucks.I have not been taking any money from my parents since last year November and i have been using my work attachment as my allowance.The feeling of not having to have a single cent from my parent was awesome,having to work like mad and tolerate nonsense from your work place,just to have extra money in your pocket.Working is tough but when you get your pay,it worth it,i guess.

Heartfelt Thursday

Wondering Wednesday

Excited Tuesday

Test are around the corner and I still haven finish studying.

It really no joke having 6 hours of physical activity.(PE for 2 hours,Gym for 1 hour,Taekwondo for 3 hours).Having muscle ache for the next few days.But i must say it fun though.Train my body to be fit before NS.

But today Taekwondo end darm late.Left school at almost 10pm,because the coach ask us to see the senior pattern for the upcoming competition.

Hopefully i can participate in the next upcoming competition.

Normal Monday

Sometime I would wonder if giving up my old personality is it a right choice.

-The childish attitude that alway like to have fun even if I ended up seriously hurt.
-The dominance control over the group.
-The lack back attitude toward everything.
-The ability to start a "riot" in school.
-The ability to get away from consequences when shit happen.
-Having the "connection" to solve problems.

But after seeing so much incidents that happen within this few years,I am "force" to grow up and take responsibility of my life.Changing is a painful journey,making sacrifice along the way,not able to play till very wild.

Will the reward be worth after all that i have done,I always wonder

Mundane Sunday

My etp project have come to a stop as I need to wait till my proposal get approve and fund to be release to me before I can really start,so currently I have to focus on my upcoming test that I starting next week.

 Week to bishan library to study instead of going to hideout as my mom have cook dinner and I have to go back to eat dinner,so I don want to rush so I go to the nearest place that I can think of

My mind seem to be to flooded with thought that I cannot focus and after 1.5 hours,I leave the library and went to V-land to play.

Went home around 8pm to have dinner and watch tv the whole night.  

Anticipated Saturday

Wake up early just to prepare for the Hilton hotel trips.But reach school about 5 mins late.

The events was great I would say,get to learn things thought the short workshops conducted.Also get to view their back of house and their presidential suit.did get to talk to some classmate that I normally don get a chance to talk to and we even took a group pic.The whole thing ended around 3pm.Something that I thought was lacking was the opportunities to talk to the panel and the panel discussion was so short and did not really hear much as he speaker was really soft.

Went home after that as it family day.Did try to study but my bed and tv prove to be to much temptation that I end up watching tv the whole night.

Wonderful friday

Housekeeping lesson was still the same,teach kept give examples and the test in on next Friday and she still haven teach finish the chapter.

Next was housekeeping practical,did some arrangement of the storeroom and practice our bed making skill.Was glad that extra practice help me to the the fastest time between my classmate,but the bed and not really presentable as I use the wrong side of the bed sheet to cover the bed and the pillow was darm ugly.So that mean I am going to practice more.My target was actually 7mins flat with the bed presentable.

After lesson,I went to the gym for an hour as I am really hungry and I need to get an haircut.

Kind of excited for tomorrow hilton hotel trips.

Fail Thurday

Was suppose to be my study day but there is this project that we need to do,so i have to meet up with my classmate to do the project.

After we have finish the project,i was intending to go back to study after that but one of my friend ask me if i want to go watch movie.Since it still early so i agree to go.The movie X-Men day of future past was really awesome.Movie end around 8pm so i went home after that.

Saw my mom with my grandmother when i was on my way to takeaway some food and my mom suggest we should eat at the kopitiam,so i have no choice but to eat at kopitiam.We we finish eating,it was already 10pm.

Intended to study today for the test next week,but end up not study anything Really have to chiong during weekend liao.

Graduating wednesday

Woot finally complete my NITEC F&B course.Two years seem to pass in a flash and now i am graduating already.Learn a lot and experience different things during this two years.

 
Had lunch with some classmate but have some disagreement during the lunch.

We to lessons after that lunch and again i manage to interact with other different classmate in class.

Skip the normal routine gym session today as i was to tired because of insomnia.

Tiring Tuesday

Reach school at around 8.20am,which is darm rare as I am alway late for the first class of the day.But that give me a chance to interact with the other classmate.

Had a quick lunch outside school,as I hate to go to the school cafeteria during lunch time as it so hard to find a place and it darm noisy.

Did 2.4 running today and I was surprise to pass.Thankfully I don have to retake again..went to gym after that for 1.5 hours before having a quick meal and went for CCA.

Did the basic kick and it got to say my leg muscle are too stiff.got to train even harder as i want to get double promotion during the upcoming grading.

Bored Monday

Start to pay more attention during classes after having target goals.

Though I have to say it really challenging to pay attension in class as some lesson are bound to be noisy.

Considering to change my gym scheduling because today gym was totally crowded as there were two CCA groups using the gym at the same timing and did not really train much today I would say.

Peacefull Saturday

Just want to relax today,but ended up walking around town to look for some idea to earn money.My saving is going to deplete soon,so I really have to do something about it.

Somehow after months of surveying, the only way entrepreneur can make money in Singapore,is to be in f&b or retail industry.The other industry are almost monopolize by big TNC or MNC company.So the only way to really make some money in the competitive market is really by creativity and the stubborn gut of the entrepreneur.

Everything I need for my first project is nearly done and the only things I need now is the funds that the school is offering.But still I still have to come out with $600 and the school will "give" me $3000 to play with.Not a bad deal though...

Hopefully the school the faster approve my proposal,so I can start my project..

Adventurous Sunday

Went to wild wild wet with some ex -F1 stewarding friends,but not all are free to go so ended up only 2 person plus me went.

Perhaps  after reading the two books,I am much more confident in stepping out of my conform zone and I really become much more sociable.

Went at the wrong time as when we wanted to go into the pool,it begin to rain for 1 hour plus.Manage to try the new slide "torpedo",it was really scary and fun.Scary in the sense you know when they will drop you as there is a speaker that will do the countdown and you cannot backout so the fun begin as the drop was really fast and you really cannot see anything as the water was splashing all around in the tube.Saw some pretty Taiwan babes at the tsunami pool and my friend went to hold one of the babe hand when the "tsunami"came

Went to tampines to had dinner at Penang culture.

Energetic Friday

"Attitude determine your altitude".i did not understand the meaning then,but now I do...

Most lesson was cancel and the only lesson start at 2pm.so went to gym around 12pm.Somehow despite going to gym more frequently,I still feel very weak,so that mean I need to go some more,hopefully I can get into form for my final NAFA test.

Housekeeping practical was a bit more relaxing as the boys only need to move stuffs around the block and we don need to do the cleaning of the room.

Was so engross with the book "I am gifted,so are you" that I went to the library after lesson to read,rather than going home and read.Initial plan to stay till 9pm,but there is this group of roundly students that spoilt my plans,so went back at around 7pm.

On the way back,saw two classmate which I did not really interact in class and somehow,I took the challenge of trying to continue the conversation till we reach our destination and I manage to did it.I like to interact with people,but at the same time I am shy. So I guess god make us imperfect for a reason,which is to outdo ourself to be a greater self...

Surprise Thursday

I got to admit that sometime I get frighten by the things I do.But I know that the reward at the ending line is worth the fight.

Went to JB central and walk around.Then went I pass by the popular bookstore,I decided to went in to take a look.Ended up buy 2 books which is "Rich dad poop dad" and "Secrets of successful teens".Book there are definitely much more cheap than in Singapore.

After that,i  went to KSL mall.Somehow i was coughing non-stop,so i went to CBTL to have a drink,then i found a nice cushion seat there,so i decided to read the book that i bought.

Wavering Wednesday

The mind is strong,but the temptations is even stronger,especially when you don have a team and everything are your concerns.

Was twisting and turning around in my bed yesterday as i was about to sleep and a though that came to my mind as to why I have this "fck up" personalities.

1.)I hate branded and expensive stuff because I grow up in an environment where adult will always try to show off and competing with each and other and for no reason,the kids also get involve.

2.)I understand the value of money at a young age.Here is the story.10 year ago,there was this men who was quite rich and to him,if you were to ask him for $1000 each day,he would just give without any questions.8 years later,that men lost his fortune due to this fail business and $1000 seem like a big amount which could feed the family for the whole month.

 3.)I dislike people who are fake.Trying to be someone you are not,really make me feel disgusted,especially people who just follow the crowd in order not to get "aim" by them.

4.)I like to be alone most of the time because I like to reflect on my life,I never want my life to be a  mediocre one.I want to think of ways to push myself to greater height and I don want to be affected by negative people during my thoughts.

5.)I am a introvert person.我会在乎,但是我不会表现出来

6.)I act differently with different person,I can just keep quiet in front of a person or I can literally start  a "riot of  fun" with people I trust.

7.)I will always have a crazy idea,but when I share out,no one would want to be a part of it.

8.)I won go the the flow if I don like it,I will just rebel or walk off

9.)I have been,on a few occasions been on the brink of death,and from that on i really learn that life can be the most fragile thing and i always want to do the thing i fear because i like to overcome rather than hiding

Anyway I am kind of afraid and excited for the JB trip tomorrow.Hopefully I can find the things I want.

*photo taken from Google search.

Holiday Tuesday

Vesak day today,so no school.had already plan to study today,so wake up early afternoon to go to hideout(T3) to study.

As predicted my usual place at T3 was filled with people,so I had to find another place at T3 to study,walked around the 3 terminal and ended up back at T3 again as the airport is so croweded due to holiday.Found a place at B1 and there are lot of people studying there also,so I find a place and begin to study.Manage to study for 2 hours then I intend to rest for for a while,but end up playing at zone x for 2 hours..

After that I went to changi city mall to hunt for food for my dinner.While eating,my mind suddenly have lots of thought running through my mind.then after eating,went to expo and found a suitable place for studying and after an hour of studying,I went home.I would say today study day was still decent one.

Decided to have a weekly time table and decided to really put action to by entrepreneur idea,i know the people that I want in my team will appear along the way,but I have to really start doing something or I will get nothing.Holding the faith that god have everything planned for me.

*photo taken from Google search.

Blues Monday

Manage to wake up on time despite yesterday.School was the same,quite boring and the test are around the corner,and in class I am like only 30% studying in class,30% playing iPad in class,20% sleeping in class and 20% staring at space in class.

Went to gym after school with classmate and I realize that I am still too weak,which mean I still have to train some more.Had dinner at school after gym session as I was too hungry.

Finally I had 想通了 and sent the massage out.but to be honest,I haven 100% 放得下

I got to admit that I can fall for a girl darm easy,but I don really show it and I can say I really 很用心 but then,I would say it alway not the right one.I am a person with lots of flaws and I really don know how to chio someone that I like.But then i cannot blame anyone because I believe 或许在爱情没有谁对谁错,不是时间对不对,而是谁愿意尝试,谁愿意妥协,谁愿意付出.

*photo taken from Google search.

Wild sunday

Went to watch the amazing spider man 2 with classmate at cine.The movie was quite nice,especially the female lead emma stone was quite pretty. Then went to golden mile to have dinner.Walk around golden mile to look around at the Thai disco for a while then went to esplanade to had some beer.

I was still ok after the third bottle.As I was listening to the band that was playing near by,they suddenly play the song "simply the best by Tina Turner",then lot of memory begin flashing through my mind and some memory hit me darm hard,especially those major function in Malaysia memory.Suddenly felt so emotional because those 1 years plus memory with the BWW group was totally amazing and life changing,but someway along the way,I lose my faith in myself and left the group.

Then as I having my fourth bottle,the vomiting feeling suddenly appear,then I immediately rush to the toilet,but it was too late.On my way to the toilet I vomited at an area near the escalator.Super embarrassing then faster rush to the toilet,but end up vomiting again outside the toilet and the toilet aunty was kind enough not to scold me and block the toilet and not let anyone go in.Vomit for like a few minutes before my classmate came in the toilet and check on me.My shirt was totally gone case and had to throw away.luckly I brought my jacket out today.Went back to the bar after cleaning up and had some water and rest a while before taking a bus home.

Missing the last bus at the interchange,so had to walk home.

*photo taken from Google search.

Inspiring Saturday

Went to the warehouse with my friend early afternoon to get some stuff,as I had some order to settle.

Then we went to one of my business accociate wedding at St Matthew church at tiong bahru.Had a hard time finding the place cos the google map show us a different place and my friend and I end up walking around 20 minutes and our shirt was literally soaking wet when we reach the church,as we are both wearing long sleeve shirt.I really like the design of the church,especially the worship hall.

During the wedding matrimony,the vicar share two verse from "Genesis"  and "proverbs"which really "enlighten"me.Had to rush of after the ceremony to deliver the order to my another friend at kovan.

Had buffet dinner at heartland mall,the shop staffs is annoying,but the manager is friendly. Then end up at one of my friend house to play dota 2 for a while.Really have not really play LAN game like I used to during my secondary school days.

*photo taken from Google search.

Excited Friday

After yesterday and today quiet thinking,I think I 想通了很多东西.

1.)我没有想像中那么喜欢你,因为我不可能是你喜欢的人而我不可能因为你而改变.

2.)你和他应该patch back.

3.)我不需要很多朋友,有几个就够了.

4.)我要的是兄弟不是朋友因为友情可散,兄弟情难散.

5.)If people laugh at my mistake,laugh with them as well because no point get sad or hurt,live life like a joke and enjoy life.

6.)想懂的自己的未来想要的目标.

7.)God give what you need and not what you want.You will get what you want if you are ready.

8.)I am really very excited about my entrepreneur project.

"Mugging" Thursday

Favorite day of the week,no classes today,get a chance to sleep more.

Went to my favorite hideout to study.Somehow,I just cannot study at home.All the distractions from my beds,tv and etc just make me feel like sleeping.

On the way to hideout,another businesses idea suddenly pop out in my mind and I really got the urge to really take actions because I am quite broke now and there is an ITE entrepreneur fund which I intend to apply cos for every $1 I fork out the school will give me $5 and I don need to return anything to school.But the catch is that the idea must last for 6 months.Thought of some people that I think can help me in this project.

Did some study note and some quiet thinking.hopefully can do more study note on the next study day.

Realization Wednesday

Perhaps each beautiful mistake,will have to end one day.

It time for me to move on in life.The harder I fall the stronger I become.

Shall end this post by a quote ""God give what you need and not what you want,guess I am not ready yet."

*photo taken from Google search.

Training Tuesday

Gonna be a short post today.

Days still seem mundane.Just feel like a waste of time going to school.

Did all the NAFA test except 2.4.fail my pull ups.really need to train or going for extra training in NS.

Went for takewondo training for the first time,did some basic kicks and learn how to "bounce".Quite a good way to train the lower part of your legs,but went home limping.

*Photo taken from Google search

Sickish monday

Somehow I should really go see a doctor soon.The cough and flu seem to be getting strong and I am getting weak and sweating profusely.

I am not use to not having the "dominance" and "eagerness to win everything" and the "fear of losing" nature.It like I have become more and more laid-back each day till the point of really not  really giving a darm about anything.Everything i do seem so wrong even though it was right.

Looking back,it hard not to admit that we have to live by the bad decisions we made ,things might be hard to continue,but the only road is to just keep move forward.

*Photo taken from Google search.

kindda fck up my life really good

Even if my life is quite fck up now,i am still glad i am still surviving.Learning thought the hard way is the only way i can learn to be tough fast.It not easy,but i am still trying.

Just picked up a habit few months back,which i learn when i was in my primary school CCA,which is to "give thanks" for the first meal i eat each day even though i am not a 100% percent christian.Reason for doing this is that sometime as time goes by we forget to be humble and grateful for the things that we have and experiences in life,be it good or bad.

 I realize that the reason why my life is fck up is because of my character and personality.I am not the person that will stick with people who i cannot accept their personality,i will just simply walk away,but even if i had to stick with that person,i will not really talk or have fun with them.I know that i have not right to comment about people,but sometime i just feel that it really tiring compromising especially when there is a group of peoples.

I am a introvert person.When i am in a new surrounding,i prefer people who approach me and start a conversation because i believe that if people are "open" to you and start a conversation with you,it easier to continue the conversation.Another reason for me not to take the initiative to talk to people is that i have poor social skills and i tend to get nervous when meeting new people  :(.

Shall end my post now...

*photo taken from Google search.