Overview of my SATM

SATM= Status at the moment :).

School

Kinda started school for a week now and i kinda "hate it" at the moment.Class was not those "enthusiastic" kind and was kinda "sabo" to the the class rep because I was the oldest in class. Not really talking to the classmate because i was kinda shy and i tend to sweat a lot in school because the weather is so darm hot and to make matter worst,when my sweat dry up in aircon,it tend to smell.

School schedule was kinda fck up because i still don know how to use the "complicated multiple online platform" and was kinda hard to actually find the up to date timetable.Lots of holiday are coming up soon and guess what??I have to go back school on a Saturday for make up lesson.

Just hoping and praying that school might become better in time to come because once i can settle my school stuff,i can move on to planning my "entrepreneur stuff".Always wanted to challenge myself to become an "all rounder student and a bit more" because i know how hash the world can be and school will be the last place "where we can make mistake and get no consequences"

Weekends

So on Saturday was the BEACH MANIA event which i was part of planing but guess what??It was sunny on the morning when we are setting up and in the afternoon,when we was about to start,it rain and we have to "abort the event" and went to play captain ball in some multi purpose void deck area.Was kinda surprise i did not even have any cramps because i really cannot remember when was the last time i exercise already.

Dessert after dinner was kinda embarrassing because 2 person from our group was queuing for LLAO LLAO and when it their turn we kinda "cut queen" and order 9 cups and i can felt that people are cursing and swearing at us and to make it more embarrassing,all of us are wear yellow t-shit.

What next??

I am also not sure what is next in myself. But.But i would say i would want to put my faith in God again.Because i know through challenges i would learn and bring "force" out of my comfort zone each time.But stay tune guys,will update soon.

Mixed feeling on Back To School

Yup like what the title say.MIXED FEELING...

(Negative feeling)

• Got into TP which was my 3 and last choice when i apply for school.Reasons being it far from my home and from what i hear from other RP seem to be a more "relax" poly compare to other poly in SG. But since i am already in TP,i guess i just have to get over with it as school is starting on MONDAY!!

• As what i expect,i am the oldest in class or perhaps the entire business school students while most of them are 17&18.Hopefully there will not be much "generation gap". 

• During orientation,the lecture say that if we were to late for 3 time,we will only get borderline pass only,so kinda scare i will be late.Taxi fare from my house to school is about $14++ and if on peak hour,most properly is about $20++

• As i haven being official being matriculated into the student database yet,i cannot access to any of the school portal and to make matter worse,everything information can only be search on the student portal.I don really like to say this but "F*** MY LIFE SERIOUSLY"

• Kinda stuck between if i want to be a very "siao on" or a "very relax student", because i kinda wanting to join 2 "Interest group/IG" as both are kinda related to my course and hopefully can get to know more people from there.

• Might not get used to poly as somehow the thing that i learn in ITE might be very different form poly and one example would be presentation skills.One trick that i learn from ITE was to put keyword in the PowerPoint and based on that we can use our own word to present,which i always manage to "smoke my way through".

(Positive feeling)

• AFTER SO LONG,I FINALLY GET INTO POLY. WOOOOOOO

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If people were to ask me if i regret not studying hard in sec 5,my answer would kinda be a YES & NO. Back then in sec 5 i was really clueless and afraid about my future.

It was only in ITE, i found out what i really want and i was even more afraid about my future because i dare to dream bigger, learned not to blindly follow the crowd and was given chance to go oversea to Canada  and that was really something that was the "key changing point".To summarize the trip it would be

 "stepping out of my comfort zone and experience the "ever-changing world" 

So i am kinda curious what would poly be like for me??

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Back Again.(Hopefully can still keep that motivation)

Current status update

.Working (PT/FT)?? --Ended internship about 1 month back and might consider getting a PT job.

(A photo of internship place and my job scope is basically reservation staff, operator, receptionist, kopi kia.)






.Whats next (Poly/NS)??-- Hopefully can defer NS but my poly still haven sent me my enroll pack :(

(Not really the course i wanted and my deferment is still pending )

.Doing what now?? Slacking and lazying around at home and play Maplestory. (yar i know it lame)

(Yar i know its a lame game but i still find the characters cute and there are also new jobs and skills)











.Travel to anywhere during holiday?? Nope,just been to Malaysia twice with my bother and his friends and with my mom and her friends.

7 April
(Impromptu went to Malaysia with my brother and his friend after their dental appointment and by coincident i met a lady that never thought i would meet again.In fact this is not the first time i met her after so long.I still remember i once meet her on an MRT and she was playing with her phone so i guess she never saw me. But somehow whenever I met her again,i would want to go up and apologize to her but then i don have the guts to do what i suppose to done a long time back.

9 April
(Took this photo while having ba ku teh lunch near Malaysia,Sentosa plaza. This was kinda memorable because the last time i  been to the restaurant,something happen and somehow, i regretted a bit.)


So ya those are the few update since i last post.So wanted to restart blogging back after internship but then i have always been lazy and i cannot continue what i started.

Somehow this weekend have been kinda "weird" for me.For those who don know,i have now been to church more often then i used to. Not wanting to say anything to religious here by somehow i believe God have answer my prayer in some part of my life problems and reminding me of some stuffs that i might have "forgotten".

Sometimes i really wonder if I have put up so many "fake masks" that i am beginning to forget who i really am and it kinda felt that i am have some "identity crisis" problems.I am not trying to get attention or sympathy but honestly some part of me want to be like "famous influencer" , " teenage entrepreneur", "excelling in sports", "awesome drummer" and much  much more.

Have to admit i will feel jealous when people can do the things that i want do.I don really want the "fame and glamour" because when you are famous,you don really know who are your really friends and who are just trying to take advantage of you. I admit that i have low self stem and i need something to fill that empty void.

Will update again.so stay tune. 

Disclamer !! Photo are taken from Google!!