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Been quite a while since I updated due to my laziness. As usual things happen and some decisions are made.

Cambodia OCIP

The good
I was one of the group leader and I kinda have some control over some of the activities and the stuffs that we do over there. I also have a good co-leader and team members that I can depend on with some of the activities and some last minutes tasks. I also made some new friends and learn a lot of this trip in term of logistic and planing as well.I also kinda get some ideas and inspiration from there as well.

The bad

For this trip, almost everyone was assign a "donation items lugguge" that we are in charge of. There is about 13 lugguges & duffel bags and about 7 big paper bags recorded in a "donation lugguge list" And this is how a logistic nightmare happen.

On the first day of the trip,I was already kinda of pissed off even before we board the plane at Changi Airport. I was tasked to re-tag the "donation items luggages" so I was doing it by myself then I was told that I should delegate some jobs to my team members which i did not want to because some of the "donation paper bags" was mixed up and I have no ideas where they went and i don really know most of the people in my group. Then reluctantly i get some of my team member to help out.

Then when was being ask for the number of "check in lugguges" after we check in all the lugguges, I was not really able to give a actual number because I cannot locate the "missing bags",so I just say the number that is on the list.

At Phnom Penh airport,I was the first few to reach the lugguge belt,so I went to the toilet. The lugguge belt was quite short and it was in a corner.When I came out from the toilet, I saw the whole group standing around the lugguge belt along with all the rest of the passengers from our flight and it was quite chaotic because the lugguge belt was quite short,so there is no point all of us crowding around it and blocking other people from getting their lugguges and the best part is all of us are wearing the same shirts with Temasek poly name on our sleeve,which make it more obvious that we are a big group.So I told all the guys to take the lugguges out from the belt and the ladies to put all the lugguges on the trolley.But due to the differences in thinking and method of doing things, I was kinda being "told off" that my method might cause unnecessary jobs as we would later still find back the lugguges we are in charge of.

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During Day 2 afternoon,there was a big rain that kinda affect our activity plan and some of us were quite drench.I really felt very bad for the guide that went to buy ponchos in the rain.

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Due to a communication problem on the 4 day, most of the guys were being scolded. So this is what happened from my point.

During Day 3 night,the guides have help us to buy quite a number of donation items that the teachers have ask them to buy on our behalf and they sent to the guesthouse that we are staying. If I did not heard wrong or understand wrongly, the guides will arrange people to deliver the items over the next day (Day 4).

So on Day 4 morning, some of the guys did not want to eat breakfast so we went down a bit later than usual. The moment we went down, one of the teacher scold us for coming down late and that most of the ladies and the guesthouse staffs help to load the foods on the van. At that moment I was like "stun" when the teacher say the ladies and the guesthouse staffs help to load the food items to the van because that was not our job in the first place

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Semester 2.2

I am quite happy with my new projects mate based on the past few week of class discussion and etc.

I am also quite excited for Service Skill Methodology (SSM). It kinda bring back memories from my days back in NITEC doing service operation for Amber @ West (training restaurant) from having no breaks to having 1 hour break.

Since SSM does not require us to iron table cloth, I was really aiming to get at least 30mins break during the first service operation..But at the same time I also do not want to spoil other people chance of learning so I will just take action only when require.

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Regarding why i leave HCC

The reasons why I leave HCC is because of my personal reason which is I am actually busy with some stuffs that I am doing. I decided to leave on my own accord and not because people is judging me or whatever. I was kinda stun when i decided to look at my blog and I notice a message left by someone in August. I do not know what your past experience in HCC but my was quite a pleasant  one.

What's next ??

I mean seriously what's next??
I mean, I also don really understand myself.

I used to think that I really change the world,
Acting on the impulse thoughts

As time goes by,
the more mask I "wear",
the more confuse I get..

Sometime I am not sure i am acting on "goodwill" or "selfish through",
I mean I am so used to do things on that fine "gray lines",
"Good" or "Wrong" sometime really does not matter to me as long at things are done.

Still remember than incident whereby I went Zouk on Saturday till early Sunday morning,
then went rest somewhere for a few hours,
then went to church with a semi hangover face,
Is this what people meant by "假 holy" ??

Sometime I do really wonder what is the "impression" that i give other??
a quiet guy?? a semi-beng?? a old uncle ?? a childish guy ?? a bossy guy ??
I do act differently with different people

I do feel afraid of the future.
People of my age are in NS/completed NS
I do really want to own a  business of my own,but i am always broke
I do really want to do stuffs that people might think its crazy
I do like the feel of "anticipation" and adrenaline rush

No i am not emotional
It's just that sometime venting out those feeling inside, somewhat make me feel better.

Breaking from the inside out

Wanted to write down some stuffs but always end up procrastinating...

Taken from what i posted on my Instagram

"Coming from a competitive family background where relative are quite well off compare to my family,but being the 2 eldest among the 3rd generation,i am glad i don have to compete with my other cousins.

But at a age I am in now,the future seem to close yet so far...2 years from now,"NS"...4 years from now "no where"...Sometime i really make jokes about myself to kind of motivate myself

The world is changing at a fast pace that things relevant now will no longer matter in 2 years later.

I like being alone and analyze business and economic trends,walking aimlessly in town just to see what global brand are doing."

I mean i do something do also think about "relationship" stuffs as well but then I realize I have "no looks,no money and no future":(. I do sometime have people that i am "interested" in,but i do not really show or tell. I mean the age gap would be like 3-4 years different and i am an weird person as well. So I guess I better keep to my own world and not harm others. ahahaha...

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Back to serious topic.So I am kinda stuck for my "entrepreneur stuff".I did try to apply for the funding but the reply i got was that my idea have no "selling point". I really need help in doing some artwork stuffs so that I can actually have a prototype that i could show.I really don mind if i have to fork out a few hundred bucks to do a small scale products testing and hopefully from there i am able to show actually result of my ideas and get the funding I needed.

over due-post that was left in my draft and forget to upload

So last week was quite fun and hectic but overall i still like it cos it kinda stop me from overthinking stuffs.

So decided to do a post about this week now,when i suppose to be studying for my upcoming MST...So some though kinda hit me again and I begin to question why am I still studying for my course when i have so many reason to stop schooling now and just go NS.Not saying that i am a 4.0 GPA student, but i am really not the kind that like to study. FYI my current GPA is only 2.9

I mean really i something begin to start thinking I am going to finish my year 1 and is it really worth quitting now?? So last semester I have already thought of quitting but my CG people actually did a card and encourage me to press on...

I am trying to gain anyone attention but really after  (1.5 year in NITEC then 6 months in attachment then 6 months in Higher Nitec then 6 months in attachment again), I begin to notice that what we learn in school is different from the workplace and we just go through all this just for the piece of paper. 

Then now i still have to study for 2 year then 6 months attachment then 6 months in school again to get another piece of paper...But is this really worth it?? Initially i thought my time at my poly will let me have some time to really think about what i want in future and to postpone my NS, but now, I kinda have enough of studying... Some lecturer are kinda fun and interesting but some lecturer kinda dampen my mood to study...

I hate to be tied down to stuffs that i don like.  Unbonded class, boring lecture, 6 or 7pm classes when I am only in year 1,no time to work part time and etc...I really hate it when I really don have any choices in life.

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But that is life right??We don have choices when we don have money.. 

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Sometime i am beginning to wondering who I really am...Kinda funny when people like me post this kinda stuff right??

So basically people who known me well enough know that I have 2 name, first is my chinese name (wei qing) and the second is my calling name (ven).

So why I have 2 name??Because i react differently to both name when being called. 

People that called me by my chinese name are people who I can do lots of silly stuffs with regardless of situation and people I am comfortable with example i can just sometime simply utter vulgarities while talking to them.  

People that called me by my calling name are people that i just have to work together with and I behave according to the situation.If the situation need me to be very well manner,I can control myself to not even utter any vulgarities no matter how angry i am. Sometime I can act/react in way that I myself was also shock. Not going hide anything but "ven" is like my alter ego.

I get very annoy when people whom i am not close call me by my chinese name because I will feel very uncomfortable.