22 July to 31 July

A very sincerer apology for not updating this blog for a week plus.Really lose the motivation to update each day.But anyway i don think i have much reader anyway.

Meet up with different ex-classmates a few time during the past week and it really make me realize something.I really need to know who are my acquaintances, friends and bros,so that I can treat them better.I am really tired of always giving my best to help other and always end up in a tired state.Sometime I would drift away from my friends and bros to accompany my new acquaintances.I should be more pro-active in taking the initiative to plan for meet up.Sometime when I give so much to someone and realize you are never a friend to them really make me feel like shit.

Tuesday takwondo make me realize how weak I am especially my arms.Have not been to the gym since school reopen and I guess I have gain some weight due to my unhealthy eating habits.

Had a phase test this Wednesday and I think I might not did well,because other classmate did write informations down during the test,while I did not write anything and when the lecture told me to rub away whatever I wrote on the material,I proudly say "I also never write anything".then I kinda saw his face change abit and I only realize I need to write the necessary information on the material when I got home. -.-

Quite a few of my friends 20 birthday have pass and in a few months,i will be celebrating mine too.Looking back,i cannot say i am a mature kid.I have made bad decision and actions that led to consequences.But i am glad i have learn something through the incident each time.

I really need to be more of a "logical thinker" than a "emotional thinker",when things happen,i tend to lost my logical thinking and let my emotions take control of me.

To be honest,i am afraid of the uncertainty in the upcoming months.I hope i can preserve through,knowing that i need to have the determination and motivation to carry on each day and i might not be able to have regular sleep and i have to juggle with school study,cca and a few more.But what is worth is worth the fighting.

Shall end here now.Will try to update more regularly.Stay tune.

Sleepy Monday

My mood today was really sleepy after the first lesson.I guess i am kind of influence by other easily.

Had a quick breakfast at 10am before heading to the library to do some notes.While doing my own notes alone,I feel a bit more energetic and motivate,perhaps of the less distractions around.

Kinda agree with some of the things in the book I am reading now ."We can change our mood easily by ownself if we want to."

After finishing my notes,there is still some spare time,so I decided to go to the field area for a while,as I intend to take a short nap there as it is quiet.But when I reach there,there is already students around so I just find a empty area and just take a short rest.

Went to entrepreneur module lesson and the lecturer briefly talk about the requirements for project 3.Wanted to go to gym after lesson,but one of my ex-classmate ask me if I want to go back with him.
Had a short dinner and talk some rubbish before take the train home.

Fragile Sunday

Life is really so fragile.One moment the person is still alive,the next moment the person is gone.Perhaps i had been near to the "crossroad of life and death",that why i am always sensitive to this topic.Recent MH17 accident and the "wars" really make me feel that we should treasure each day.

Heard from the module lecture that the entrepreneur fund is still pending and will only know the result next month.So I am consider to just borrow money from my parents and just start the whole project by myself.But i still need to find out more information about some stuffs before making the decision.Not having enough information before start a entrepreneur  project would be like throwing money into a dark hole.

Phase tests,CCA grading test and Course events are around the corner.Really don know how to prioritize those events.

Lots of stuffs is running through my mind now.Somehow I just wish that I have this group of "inner circle people",which is something like a clique,but the only different things is that we are social and business related.People that you can talk all sorts of nonsense and serious things to.

I know people who have their own personal inner circle group,and when it come to serious talk,they can really camp at someone house and chat until morning and rest a while before heading to work later.This kind of commitment and bond is something that I will never see in school.I guess the reason why they have this kind of bond and trust is that they have a common financial goal that they need to work together to achieve it.

But the problem is I don like to smile and shy when meet new people and I tend to keep quiet when I feel shy and my actions to other seem like I am a anti-social or proud person.My actions kind of limit me from know potential people who I might want to include in my inner circle.Guess I need to change.

Pondering Saturday

Was suppose to meet with some classmate for dinner at 6pm,but i took a nap and woke up at 6.10pm.had to cab down and i was about one hour late.Had some food at Watami before heading to texas chicken for part 2 dinner and then marble slab.Only one of them had ice cream because some of us was already to full.

Did some chatting and i was really surprise to know things that i did not know.

I wonder what is the definition of "friends" now??looking back I help so many people when they are still a underdog,and when they had new friends and become more popular,I am always the first one to be left out.It then struck me hard,why putting myself out there to help people knowing that I will be the first one that they will forget when they have new friends.

If your have been reading my post,I often address people as classmate but not friends.Reason being I am not afraid to say this but I just feel that we are only together for the sake of it and not really have the intention to really contact each other outside school.Everyone have their own clique and etc.

Sometime we are so blinded by our emotions that we do stuffs that we regret.But life still have to move on.

Wanted to have some drink/dessert but most of the shop are about to close,go I walk to holland villiage,hoping to get some cheap ice cream from the fast food outlets there.But when I reach there,I am still quite full and decided to take mrt home instead.Wanting to walk around the bar area,but was to lazy and tired.

Kinda have this feeling of going to drink every fortnight.Sometime I just need to take a break from everything and just get drunk so that I can sleep properly and stop thinking about so many things.

T.G.I.F

Was early for the project presentation but that some group member was late.Got a bit piss off by someone remark,but still i mange to control my self from flaring up.But overall the presentation was ok i guess.Saw the lecture keep nodding her head and the question she pose to us is quite easy.

Had plan to go back to secondary school with my ex-classmate/bros because i saw the timetable wrongly and miss a lesson.

Went back to secondary school and it really bring back lots of memory.To bad lots of teacher have left and there are lots of new young teacher around.Talk to some teacher and slack around in the school for a while before taking a cab back to ITE.

Housekeeping was tired but kinda expected that there is lots of rooms to clean cos i saw a group of exchange student leaving the campus in the morning.But what i did not expected is that all of the room have a "roll-away-bed".I kinda have a RAB phobia because the last time i work at a hotel,the RAB is long,heavy and hard to control,but the school RAB was not that bad.Still it is still tiring to clear away the RAB and the extra pillow and etc alone.

Had lunch with classmate and did some chatting and left school at around 6.30pm.

Lethargic Thursday

No school today,but there is also nothing to do today.My home has really become a place where it really make me feel sleepy even after 8 hours of sleep.Really need to go out everyday,if not I will be like sleeping the whole day,where I wake up to bath and then I will feel sleepy and go back to sleep again.

Went to esplanade library to study but after less than 1 hour,my mind was too distracted and I cannot focus so went to the nearby shopping center and have lunch.

Went home after that and watch tv all the way to 11pm.Really need to do stuffs that benefit me in the long run,rather that doing useless stuff and wasting time.Really need to change my lifestyle after this week.My dateline is closer and closer each day but i still haven done anything much yet and there are still a lot of things that need to be done and I haven started doing yet.

Looking for a study buddy to "chiong study with me for 3 months",test result is not that good so i have to work double hard from now onwards.

Having expectation of myself is not to stress myself but rather,it motivate me to try harder each time and achieve my goals.After all,why getting average when you can achieve the best??

Reminiscent Wednesday

Finally get my contract sign with iblis.Kinda afraid cos I will be alone with no classmate  in the same hotel.The front office manager seem friendly but I am not sure how will she be like if  I were to make a mistake.Pray hard this attachment will be good,but I am abit uncomfortable with this attachment because I will be doing front office for 6 months and i need to do daily grooming like shaving my mustache and gel my hair everyday which I hate to do.

But on the bright side,I don have to clean rooms and toilet.The uniform is quite comfortable and casual looking.As there is no staff canteen,which means I can eat different food eat day as there is a hawker centre behind the hotel,rather that eating the same canteen food each day.Seem like the pros outweighs the cons.I guess it's time for me to be more independent rather than alway depend on people.

Manage to skip school because of this.haha.But decided to go to the hotel visit to Fullerton hotel in the afternoon.The hotel visit was quite good,but the presentation slide really make people sleepy because to the font,number of slides and the informations.Did not went to visit the rooms due to the occupancy rate,but when to visit the f&b outlets instead.along the way they want to take a photo at a outdoor area,but after taking 1 photo,I really cannot take the heat and started sweating heavily and run to the indoor,but some of the classmate saw me and ask me what happen and ask me to go out to take another photo.Kinda reluctant because of heat,but still went out to take that group photo.

Been quite some time visiting this area.Used to walk around Fullerton area to MBS and work at Fullerton hotel staff canteen before.Wonder how much this area have change since I has been here last time,so I decided to walk around the area again as I don want to take the trains during the peak hour.

Sat down at benches along the Singapore river and just relax and let time pass.Felt a bit better after the rest.Then went to MBS to clean myself up a bit as I am quite sweaty before heading back home.

Really need to control my spending,as I spend quite a lot today and I still don have a part time job yet.

Shall upload some picture later on,

Exhausted tuesday

Was not really have a good sleep last night, flipping and turning around in my bed and I just cannot fall asleep.Wake up feeling tired,especially knowing that Tuesday will alway be a long day.

Lessons resume today and I realize I have been answering lots of questions in class today,so from now onward I will keep my mouth shut and only open when I got questions.

Had lunch alone,but halfway some classmate saw me and they decided to join me.But did not really talk much to them as I don really know of any common topic and i am too shy i guess.

Sometime I wonder if my decision or choices I made are right??Never expect myself  would be a "low key underdog"Karma i guess,for bullying people in the past.But I learn to see the "problems" and "situation" when I start to shut up and listen.Finally understand why there is a saying "words are deadly that guns and the wise listen,while the fool argue."

Kinda like the current PE lecturer.The things that he share with us is some of my favorite topic,eg his experience with different people.

It really make me feel bless that the things I learn during in Amway really help me a lot in life.Life skills and financial intelligent informations that school will never teach.In my opinion,school only teach us to be a better "worker" and live on the safe side.Not saying this is bad but rather,it kind of limit our belief and guts to try/start new things.I don want to have regrets of not trying to break out of the "life rat race" when I am older.I rather live on the dangerous side and fight for options in life.

"Somethings in life are worth fighting"

CCA was tiring today,did more PT than usual and it was my first time wearing a dobok which belong to my brother and instead of the usual white color my brother dobok top was white with obvious faint pink color and the coach call me "pinky" :((. Don know what my brother did to the top,but who care what people call me,the top is unique and awesome.End late than usual and reach home at 11.30pm.

But anyway,I got to adjust my body clock today because I get to sleep till 9am,while the rest of my classmate start school at 8am because of some talks.woot.Shall sleep now,TIMECHECK 12am.

Disappointed Monday

Kinda excited that school is starting today.But somehow all the things look unfamiliar to me.Those classmates and lecture.Perhaps I am did not really socialize with them during he first term and after a long holiday,and now when I see everyone,they looks very unfamiliar.

I really want to try socializing with them but,I would say they have their own group and I am not very comfortable in showing my "true self" to them.Something might be funny to me,but to some of them,they might not like it.

I am like a wondering soul in the class,unless someone come over to talk to me,I will not really take the initiative to talk to them.Rather that saying I am a loner,I would think myself as a carefree person looking for like mind people whom we can really "play,joke and work hard in study together". I mean life is about the way you live.Play harder,work smarter.

Lost the motivation to go for gym and etc.Perhaps my body still need time for adjustment.Phase test is nearby and haven really revise anything during the holiday.

I really feel happy when the lecture announce the I have the highest score among my class group,but I was disappointed that I cannot get the highest in class.Not saying I am greedy but I really want to get a good GPA for this course and I want to try to score the highest each time.Because of this aim and challenge,it motivate me to go to school and pay attention in class,if not I will be just going to class each day to waste time.

I really love challenge and I am that kind of person that alway like to win and wanting to push myself each time.I alway have this idea of push my body and mind to its limit and just collapse(fainting).

Excited Sunday

Finally school is starting tomorrow.Body clock kinda screw up.

After reading so much book,i found that those "core ideas and the "know how"" has alway been the same since the start of  20 century and many people have been sharing it but in a different ways.I alway want to try doing things differently and always ended up failing in every attempt.

"Don't try to reinvent the wheel"

Finally understand why people alway told me this.But I guess it is a blessing that I can experiment with ideas at a age and mistake don come with a hefty price.

As I continue reading the book "Master your mind,design your destiny",found some of the content is same as some books I read before.Not to boast anything but rather I was kinda surprise the core ideas were  so similar is like the a summery of  my experience so far.Found some answers I am looking for.To be honest,I actually already have the answer but I am to wishy-washy.

Sometime we need to get go off certain things,not because you want to but you need to.Not sure if I am able to so,or long long it will take,but one day I will.

Reflect Saturday

Wow finally holidays are ending.I guess I will be the only one that is happy that school are starting soon.Finally got some stuffs to do so that I will not be bored.Really hope that I get the funds I need for my project,if not I will borrow from my parents I guess.Dead serious in getting stuff done.

Yesterday was kind of drowsy and sleepy.I think is due to the after effect of the alcohol.But after 1 day of sobering,I kind of  apperception lots of things.I once heard people say,it only when you are drunk,you will know your true self.

And I would say I get a different perceptions of things after reading so much book and after yesterday incident.Without realization,it been almost 3 years.I am still the same stubborn me.Loss more that I gain. Trying to be nice and people tend to take advantage.Wondering if the choices I made have turn me into someone who is weak.Sometime I would wonder why is it those "f**k up bros" in my past have so much things in common that people I am with.No matter what happen,they will still help you even if you don need as long as it not illegal.Those "brotherhood shit" in the movie are the kind of bond we have.Perhaps maybe we are all guys and "pride" and "face" meant so much more.

As we move along in life,we kind of drift and got new "bros" but I wonder how many will still remember those time we share.   

Eating Friday

Woke up at 12pm to prepare to go out to have brunch with my mom and my grandmom at Bugis.

The bunch was great and the place was really not crowded despite being Friday.Had lot of cheap slich beefs.I really like to have slice beef what is being "grill" till dried and the taste of the beef is like barbecue meat.

Went home after that and continue watching anime for the whole day.

Yup i know,my life is boring.

Irritated Thursday

Went for another interview today.Was not really feel well and was a bit sleepy and the place is at Sentosa.So in summary of the interview for today,was not really feeling comfortable with talking to the staff and i was like giving crappy answer to annoy her also,i guess.Was kinda irritated by her way of answering when i was ask her a situation based question and she kinda explain to me how that will never happen...She told me to wait for a week and she will notify the interview result,which i already know the result of the interview.She was kind enough to sent me to the shutter bus area,but then i was kinda bored so I went to take the tram instead.

Had plan to meet up with some classmate to do some project stuffs at 6pm and not wanting to go back home,I just roam around and finally I just went to Bugis instead.Went to arcade to play before heading to McDonald to have a drink and read my book.

Head to The Cathay next and the mac was a bit too noisy and i know that popeye at Cathay would be a better place as not much people would go there during weekday and it is also near to the place where i will be meet my classmate later on.

Had dinner at Plaza Sing.and to cut short about what happen,we did not have the motivation to do the project so they decided to go Planet Paradise,a thai disco.Was kinda early so we went to shop around orchard before cabbing down to disco.

First time been to disco.Was not really crowded as it was Thursday i guess.Then we order a tower of beer and after a while,some thai lady approach our table and talk to us and one of my classmate decided to tell them i was first time there and they start to talk to me.Was kinda uncomfortable a they was like try to "touch" you so that you can "buy flower" for them.Did not really want to spend extra money so I did not buy for them.Mom did call me and I told her i will be back home late.

In total i vomited 3 times at the disco toilet.I kinda like the feeling after you vomit and you feel your blood pumping faster and your mind start to see thing more clearer and instead of feeling drunk,i felt much sober.Weird me I guess.Cab home at around 2am and after alighting the cab I vomit again.

Surprise to see mom still awake and she ask me where i been to.She did not really nag but she just say don go there often. Being a guy is not a bad thing after all.

Try to sleep but i could not.Keep turning around in bed and around 5am,had a stomachache.Was kinda surprise that my body still can shit out something out of my body after vomiting so much time.



 

Interview Wednesday

Wake up 10am in the morning to get myself prepare for the interview what is at 2pm.I know i am being a bit "kiasu",but i need time to find all my certificates and etc which i need for the interview.The hotel that i am going for this interview is located at Bugis which is the area I want to work for my attachment,But this hotel  is not the first choice,but the second choice.Reason was that i am afraid of working in a big coporate company because of my past internship experience.Things may look glamour on the outside but what happen on the inside is unknown to the outside.

Went out at around 12pm to take a bus.Was kinda afraid and at the same time,i have this mentality of "it ok if i am not accepted cos this is not the hotel I want."In summary I would say the whole interview experience was the best,I was able to feel comfortable taking to both the staff and they are all very candid and was impress by the way i answer their question.I was kinda shock that they accept my internship request on the spot and give me until Friday to think about it.They did ask a question that i feel quite surprise which is what other hotel did I sent my internship request to and they did give me a choice if I want to answer the question a not.But I just answer it anyway.

Went to Bugis junction and bought another book by Adam Khoo again..."Master your mind design your destiny" was kind of hesitant because the book is really thick,but bought it anyway.

Went to hideout again to finish reading the previous book.Stay till 7pm plus before taking a train back home

Workout Tuesday

Hi guys,if your have been reading my blog,you will notice the way i upload each post is every inconsistent.Reasons being is that i am always to lazy to write each day post and i want to recall what are the things I done and reflect on that day.

Really nothing much to each day,wasting each day doing some boring and useless stuff and getting lazier and lazier each day plus irregular eating diet.Really feel like a pig.

Went for CCA in the evening.Should not have miss last lesson as grading exam are like 3-4 week from now and i miss the basic that they learn last week.Really need to do some research about it. Seem like getting a double promotions is really not that easy and my legs are not helping me either.

Did some basic kick for like 2 hours plus and my lower body is aching.Should not have been such a lazy bum and not really excise in my secondary school day.So i guess,i need to work hard so that i can get what aim to get.

Thinking Monday

Thought of going to The Star today cos I thought that there might be a library nearby or a quiet cafe nearby so as to finish reading the book that i bough.But when i was there,I cannot find a library nearby,so I just did some window shopping.

Kinda bored after that and not knowing what to do,so i walk down to Singapore poly to take a bus to Ang Mo kio.Went to Zone X to play as i don want to go  home as my home is literally a place that can make me feel very bored and really make me feel like not doing anything.

Went home after that,and bath and continue watching anime.Then suddenly i got the feel go browsing YouTube to listen to song and as i was looking for song,i come across this video about entrepreneur and i was like so curious so i decided to watch it.It was a hour plus video about Nicholas Tse.This video Kinda get lots of ideas from him and i really wish that i can be invited to this kind of talk and listen to Gen Y entrepreneur share their story and insight about business.

One thing that i really learn from this video is to do the things you like,things that you have passion about.This society,to me,have kinda f**k things up,by decided what area we should be studying base on our grade and not on our interest and passion.If you are a top student,you should be generally studying in laws,medical field and those top paying jobs,while those not that are not able to  get good grade,you will generally study things that don get a good pay job.One good example is how our education system.If we were an O level student and we did not score well,student would tend to chose the lease favorite course rather that going ITE because of certain issue.

I am not trying to blame the society for this because we also have to part to play,if we don study well enough,it is oblivious that we will not get good result.But what I am trying to say is that is our education system fair??

lifeless Sunday

Did not did anything much today.Did some social media hopping and found some "interesting" one i would say.In a sense that i saw my past shadow in someone,trying to use smoking as a way of numbing oneself from the reality of the world.

I remember when i start smoking at the age of 16,is because it was then "cool" for students to be smoking and look like a bad ass.So i began to steal my mom cigarette and bring it to school to smoke.Back then i was this group of students that will find different places in school to smoke.Guys will go girls toilet to smoke together,girls will go guys toilet to smoke together and lots of funny places that we have been to,just for the sake of smoking.I was lucky,many of those people always get caught and I was only caught once.

I still remember why i was caught..Back then the school have this dual recess system where by the sec 1,2,3 would go for the first recess and after they have finish,the sec 4 and 5 would go for the second recess.When i was in sec 5,most of the school gangster would already have graduated at N level and i was lucky to make it in to O level.So i was like the "so-call senior gangster" in the school and if i am not wrong I was the only guy in the upper sec that would dare and always have cigarettes cos i always steal from my mom to smoke.

Back to story,it was stressful for me in sec 5 cos i really suck at every subjects and i barely make it to sec 5,so I was kinda like wasting time in school and when common test come,i would then rush everything.
So during one day,I had maths lesson before recess and it was like 2 week before the common test and i was so stress up that i did not really have appetite that i went to toilet to smoke alone,so i went to the toilet behind the canteen as there as benches inside the toilet.I was so stress that i smoke another stick after finishing my first stick and halfway through,suddenly,someone open the toilet door and i saw my maths teacher outside the toilet and he saw me with a cigarette in my hand and in my mind, i was like "Oh SHIT*",but i guess he knew that i was very stress up,so he ask me to throw away the cigarette and did not report anything to the school.

Did continue to smoke after that incident but the thought of quit smoking come when I was coughing very badly and went to hospital for 3 day during the mid term exam and i mange to skip 2 papers.It was the second time i was admitted to hospital because of smoking and i thought to myself,if i were to continue,i might not be lucky again.So that was when i decided to quit smoking for good.

Looking back I realize the reason for me to smoke was to look cool in the first place but as i continue,it become a way of numbing myself from the stress.It was a stupid way I would say now,there are lots of ways to numb our self from stress and smoking or any way of hurting oneself is definitely NOT the way.You could do things you like,sports,shopping,talking to someone and etc. We might be young now to not the consequences but I can confidently say that you will regret when you grow up if you were to do stuffs that harm yourself.

Bored Saturday

Did the same shit again.Wake up,bath,eat,watch anime,eat,watch anime,eat,watch anime and sleep.Really bored.Short holidays are good but long holidays are really bored if you have nothing to do but to waste time doing boring stuff.

This long holiday really drain my motivation for etp project.But I can only wait as I need the money to start and find people to make it work.And I am kinda starting to wonder if i am able to successfully get the funds I need.All this waiting is really making me thinking to much.

Somehow i just wish i can have some money,so that i can get a nice DSLR camera and do some shoots to kill time.

Animated Friday

Did nothing much except watching the anime "Attack On Titians".Always wonders why adults think that watch anime is a waste of time??I always see lots of knowledge and life value can be learn through anime.

Somehow the holiday is getting boring as i have run out of ideas to do and i am just wasting my time rotting at home doing nothings.Arrr.......

Aimless Thursday

Went to Bugis to take a look at the different boutique hotels for my upcoming 6 months attachment.Hope that the boutique hotels would reply me as soon as possible.Need to secure a place soon.Hopefully the upcoming industry attachment will be nice and i will be able to learn how small hotel operate,reasons being that I hope that one day I can open my own unique chains of boutique hotel that is able to be of comparable standard with the international brand.

Bought the book "Secrets of building multi-million dollar businesses"by Adam Khoo.I am kinda interested in meeting him in person.

As funny as it might seem,I say that i want to have a simple life,but i always dream of one day,i will be able to own a boutique hotel chains,where i can live at different home every day,pretending to be like a tourist and interact with people/guests.

I also dream of owning a few night entertainment(Clubs,bars and etc.).I have never been to a club before,but i really like the feeling of getting myself drunk,enjoying loud party music and see pretty lady dancing/clubbing or etc.I mean which guy don like to see pretty babe dancing??

I also dream of owning a few theme cafe where i can work with young,innovative and creating people to find ways of managing it and making it the most popular cafe in Singapore.I have see new cafe concepts and i really like to try it in Singapore.

To be honest,I don really like to work for people as I have my own strong opinions and I would like to try and experiments new business ideas in Singapore.I always wonder why am I so into business idea and i think the reason is because I understand financial freedom at a young age and what it can do and I like to gamble with the unknown and the feeling of knowing you can win or lose in the next instant.

50 facts of me.

Decided to do this special edition post as a way to show the real me in front of everybody.So here is goes.

1-->Real name & nickname
Ans: Tan Wei Qing aka vental aka ven

2-->.Meaning of nickname
Ans: I wanted my nickname to have some meaning and the word "Ventilation" came into my my mind and subsequently the word "vental" was created and my definition of my nickname is air.

3-->3 Fears I have 
Ans:Flying insects,height and public speaking

4-->3 Things i like
Ans: Freedom,traveling and exploring new place or things

5-->Favourite songs genre
Ans:Songs that related to love

6-->Am i a smoker
Ans:Used to but quited,but sometime when i feel so numb in life,i would just smoke a few sticks.

7-->3 good habit i have
Ans:Exercise regularly,Sleep more that 8 hours per day and being real

8-->3 bad habit i have
Ans:Being emotion easily,glue to my ipad and often gamble with the unknown

9-->3 Things that i lied about
Ans: I kinda only lie to people to joke with them or just basic white lie

10-->Tattoo or piercing
Ans:Nil.

11-->Favorite quote
Ans:To many to list down

12-->Favorite Sports
Ans:All water sports.Even though i have not try all the water sport but i really like to do stuffs on water

13-->Hardest things i ever done.
Ans:Setting a goal in life and aiming to achieve it.

14-->Miss most about being a kid
Ans:Nobody tell me that "its impossible"

15-->Things that can get me excited
Ans:Financial freedom,traveling and exploring

16-->Things that can get me nervous
Ans:Public speaking and looking at pretty girl right in the eye

17-->Introvert or extrovert,why
Ans:Depend on who i am with

18-->Last time you drank
Ans:Few weeks ago during a ex class chalet

19-->Dream vacations
Ans:Places that is near the ocean,sea or beach

20-->Favorite fruits
Ans:All sour fruits

21-->Are you a sensitive person
Ans:Maybe

22->Favorite cartoon
Ans:Is One piece consider a cartoon??

23-->One scar on your body and how did you get it
Ans:Right in the middle of my forehead,my mom told me that when i was like 1 years old plus,i try to climb out of the room that is block by wooden block, and i fall right from the top of the wooden block and i hit my head on some metal thing on the door.

24-->Favorite Hideout spot
Ans:Changi Airport T3 viewing mall

25-->Favorite food
Ans:Spicy foods

26-->Favorite style of clothing
Ans:Simple,versatile and comfortable.(e.g slipper,jeans and t- shirt)

27-->Favorite color
Ans:Purple

28-->Sweet or salted popcorn
Ans:Salted popcorn cos it can make me stay awake during boring movie

29-->Things that you have steal before
Ans:Money from my mom when i was in primary school

30-->First concert that you attend
Ans:Mnet Sinagpore

31-->Things that you wanted to do but never did
Ans:Get into a romantic relationship

32-->One sport that you would like to learn
Ans:Wind Sailing

33-->One language that you would like to learn
Ans:Italitian

34-->One skill that you would like to acquire
Ans: Guns shooting skills

35-->Magazine that you subscibe to
Ans:Wine and Dine and Amagram

35-->Are you a social person
Ans:Depend on situations

36-->How many pillow you sleep with
Ans:3 pillows and 1 bolster

37-->Where do you think you will end up at 10 years from now
Ans:Leading a simple life in Singapore

38-->Describe your personality
Ans:Quite fck up i think

39-->Current mood
Ans:Mixed emotions

40-->A ability that you have
Ans:6 out of 10 of my dreams will happen like in real life like deja vu

41-->One mistake you keep repeating and repeating
Ans:Alway Thinking too much

42-->Would you be a lonely genius or social idiot
Ans:Lonely genius,i like to be real

43-->Can you live without internet for a week
Ans:Depend

44-->Are you a starter,implementer or finisher
Ans:A bit of all the 3

45-->What is you purpose in life
Ans:To explore the world

46-->What are the things that will made you bored
Ans:Nothing to Do

47-->One dream that you remember and why
Ans:Getting knock down by a van because i saw the whole incident in my dream before it happen

48-->Something that most people don know
Ans:I like to observe people before getting to know them them.Don be fool by my quiet appearance.I have many "Hidden-sides"

49-->Biggest regret
Ans:Getting go of some friendship during my secondary school life

50-->Anyone that read this post is allow to ask me 3 questions and i will need to answer truthfully.
       ask.fm/vental_     I will answer straight to the point,no beat about the bush answer.

Dizzy Tuesday

Woke up at around 12pm,which mean i sleep for about 11 hours and i still feel darm giddy.Saw my phone and some of my classmate is going to watch movie,so i decided to tag along.

Was on the train and i receive a message for a senior from my CCA and i then realize that today was Tuesday and not Monday.Decided to skip CCA for once.

Went to Scape to meet them and had Aston for lunch,but it was "Breakfast" for me since i did not eat anything from morning till now.Kinda surprise to receive souvenir from someone.

Went to watch the movie "Jump street 22" at Cineleisure and went down to Serangoon Garden for dinner and after that we went to Udders at my village.Halfway through the dinner at garden,i suddenly feel like puking so i decided not to continue eating anymore and keep drinking the sugar cane water.

Went back at around 10pm+

Sickish Monday

Woke up early due to stomachache and nausea.Did not know why it happen.Have no appetite for breakfast.Having this nausea feeling,stomachache,dizziness and tired all day long.Been a while since i feel so sick.I am literary falling into sleep anytime.

Dad book a cab to bring us on a tour and we went to Penang hill,some local products shop and again we spent most of the time in the car us both my parent as lazy to walk and i am like half dead in the car.

After the tour,my family went for foot massage while i was sleeping at the waiting area at the shop.Fall asleep the moment i close my eye and by the time i woke up,which is about 1 hour plus,my head was like even more dizzy than how i feel in the morning.

Took a cab to the airport.The plane took of at around 9.50pm and reach Singapore at around 11.20pm.I wanted to go back home quickly my my mom and dad was talking their sweet time walking slowly at the airport and shopping at the duty free shop and we only took the cab from the airport at 12am.Reach home about 20 minutes later.Took a bath and went to sleep straight away with my bolster.

I would say this whole "travel disappearing act" was a super fail one as right from the first day i was already stalking someone on the social media.I also on my phone to see if there any message but there was none.But during this trip,i found out the answer i am looking for.

I thought that as long as i try,perharp i would have a chance.But i failed to realize that we are two different type of people.I don know your past and you haven see the dark side of me.We totally have nothing in common and i don know how to start a conversation with you or entertain you and make you feel happy.I feel jealous when guys can make you happy just by talking to you and i will try to stalk you social media and wanting to know badly how you are doing each day.I really wish to know what you are thinking.