When I intent to restart blogging,I say that I would want to post everyday,but now,I have been posting weekly only.I must say I have become more and more lazy as time goes by and along the way I really lost a lot "stuffs" like the motivation and the positive attitude to start an entrepreneur project,the discipline to at least read a chapter each day,lost the interest to go to the bookstore to buy a self help book weekly.
Not going to give excuses such as I have no time because of attachment work or etc because really need to be honest with my self and start planing for my life ahead.In a few month time,I am going to hit "20" and I am still not done with my study and NS.
During this week in my workplace,it become more obvious that I am not really suitable in the hotel industry or more specifically the "front office".My personality and interest is more of doing those "back support stuffs" because I can be really shy and I sometime find it hard to get my message across to people and i don't like to deal with lots of guests unless needed,because I have been in "service industry" long enough to see the flaws and beauty of it.And the most valuable lesson I learn is
"your best cannot please all guest,but you cannot stop trying your best to please the guests"
To be honest I don really care if guest recognize my name or give me tips(unless it a 3 digits tips,I might consider take my words back),but to me what I really want is that satisfaction of guest and letting them leave happy from my workplace,be it a random act of kindness or a "wow" moment for them.
Then again there will alway be those "cheapo" or "nasty" guest that will really spoilt your mood and day with their nonsense.
Ok shall not continue talking about my job for now.
On a happy note,Sunday church outing was fun but we lose the game.haha...but we definitely give our best in trying to beat the other teams despite being outnumber.
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Sunday, October 19, 2014
Sick week
Finally the 2 week of orientations plus training is finally over.And tomorrow will be the day i officially start my attachment with live guest.Though i have been there to do part time,but somehow i will still feel excited and nervous.
Despite having "work" till 6 pm from Monday to Friday, still i am happy that i can still can fill my day with meeting people and doing stuffs.
But i am kind of happy for the meet up on Monday with some people.Been through lots of things with them during the secondary school years.Guess it was when we went to different path after secondary school,things began to change i guess.To be honest,i did really want to let this friendship drift away at first because of stuffs that happen during the past 2 years and even deleting them from my social media.Then suddenly your called for a meetup and i decided to just turn up.
Yup,i still keep all those letters and picture.During the meetup,those feeling was different from when we were all in secondary school.Somehow i feel so distance from your,even if there was lots of laughter from our conversation.When your talk about the topic of "social media",somehow i just blabber out that i delete your from social media,in hoping that we can really have a heart to heart talk together but then,the more i talk,the more distance i feel from your.Don't ask me why i feel like that because i myself have no idea.
On a lighter note,Saturday church service was awesome i would say.Been to about 4 different church for some time in 11 years and yet ,i am still not wanting to be a christian.Somehow this seen to be the fourth calling and yet,my answer still remain the same.
Been having headaches,flu and ulcer for the whole week and i guess it because of the weather...hais
Despite having "work" till 6 pm from Monday to Friday, still i am happy that i can still can fill my day with meeting people and doing stuffs.
But i am kind of happy for the meet up on Monday with some people.Been through lots of things with them during the secondary school years.Guess it was when we went to different path after secondary school,things began to change i guess.To be honest,i did really want to let this friendship drift away at first because of stuffs that happen during the past 2 years and even deleting them from my social media.Then suddenly your called for a meetup and i decided to just turn up.
Yup,i still keep all those letters and picture.During the meetup,those feeling was different from when we were all in secondary school.Somehow i feel so distance from your,even if there was lots of laughter from our conversation.When your talk about the topic of "social media",somehow i just blabber out that i delete your from social media,in hoping that we can really have a heart to heart talk together but then,the more i talk,the more distance i feel from your.Don't ask me why i feel like that because i myself have no idea.
On a lighter note,Saturday church service was awesome i would say.Been to about 4 different church for some time in 11 years and yet ,i am still not wanting to be a christian.Somehow this seen to be the fourth calling and yet,my answer still remain the same.
Been having headaches,flu and ulcer for the whole week and i guess it because of the weather...hais
Sunday, October 12, 2014
Guidence week
Yup,lots of outings and stuffs happen this 2 week.
Getting to know new people through a friend of my and somehow I would say it not a coincident that all this happen when I need a new directions.
Somehow during the sharing on the topic of self forgiveness,I somehow felt happy that I manage to have some time to think about past events and really ponder on those past events.Even though it all in the past,to be honest I never really let myself go after all these time.Pretending to not really care but deep down,some of those events and memories are still so clear in my mind.
Call me stupid or what,why bother remember stuffs that can hurt you so much...
Few days back I was at a place and receive an unexpected call from someone.I never really hear what was the call about and I was kinda waiting for the SMS but it never came and I was really to afraid to call back.
Industry attachment was kinda alright as the first week was training.Lots of notes to do but I really gain a lot from the training.hopefully the next week training will be more fun
Getting to know new people through a friend of my and somehow I would say it not a coincident that all this happen when I need a new directions.
Somehow during the sharing on the topic of self forgiveness,I somehow felt happy that I manage to have some time to think about past events and really ponder on those past events.Even though it all in the past,to be honest I never really let myself go after all these time.Pretending to not really care but deep down,some of those events and memories are still so clear in my mind.
Call me stupid or what,why bother remember stuffs that can hurt you so much...
Few days back I was at a place and receive an unexpected call from someone.I never really hear what was the call about and I was kinda waiting for the SMS but it never came and I was really to afraid to call back.
Industry attachment was kinda alright as the first week was training.Lots of notes to do but I really gain a lot from the training.hopefully the next week training will be more fun
Friday, September 26, 2014
Wonder-less Friday
Somehow, i loss the excitement of working part time already. Perhaps i know that what i want in my life,is more that having a stable jobs and live a mediocre life. Not saying mediocre life is bad or looking down at people who wish to have a mediocre life. I guess,it because i am still young and i want to try different jobs and wish i can be find something that i really interested in and try to start a business in that area.To be honest,i am interested in quite a number of stuffs and i really want to try all of them.
I have personally have some working experience and meet people who are in their jobs for more that a few decade.When i hear that they stay in their jobs is because of passion and i never quite agree with that statement.Personally i believe that that so-called "Passion" is only something that lass for 5 years at most.Most likely after 5 years,people tend to get bored of what they are doing and stay on because on the money.
Example, When a chef have been cooking for more than 10 years,won't they want to open they own restaurant rather than working for others who are making money off their cooking skills?
Sometime we often chose to "self-denial" the facts and regret later in life why we did not take the opportunities when we are young.Sometimes we are so afraid of what we can achieve because of our surrounding and background.
Guess the reason why i like to take risk is because i have nothing to lose except for my life and i can really give my best shot at the things i want to achieve if i want to and ignoring those that believe i will fail.Rather than say i am unrealistic,i guess i am more of wanting to prove myself to others.Or should i say i am a "好高骛远( Chinese idiom that describe someone who bite off more than one can chew)" person.
One of my goals in life is to one day be one stage and give talks about the economic and the future.I really get excited when successful people are invited to give a talk about the economic and the future. I am amaze at how some people can have so much visions for the future.Found this video yesterday and watch it and i really like some of the answer that they reply.
Or even better,speaking to thousands of people about your experiences and the journey to success.
This few week,i have been wondering around the towns area alone and kinda have lots of thoughts about lots of stuffs as usual.I am not the kind of person that will plan outings and ask people along because i hate it when a group cannot compromise on a certain things and in the end,no one end up happy.I rather spend time along being carefree and do as i like.But at times,i got to admit,it can be quite bored and lonely.
Or even better,speaking to thousands of people about your experiences and the journey to success.
This few week,i have been wondering around the towns area alone and kinda have lots of thoughts about lots of stuffs as usual.I am not the kind of person that will plan outings and ask people along because i hate it when a group cannot compromise on a certain things and in the end,no one end up happy.I rather spend time along being carefree and do as i like.But at times,i got to admit,it can be quite bored and lonely.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Personal sharing post.
Kinda want to do post about personal sharing about myself.100% facts.I am challenging myself to face my problems head on.
"READ IT AT YOUR OWN RISK"
I am really afraid of "taking the first step" to talk to people.Reasons being i like to "joke" or "play" without limits and sometime people can be angry at me because of it and i don really like to talk to people who keep swearing things about people parents.To me it kind of a taboo because it just show that you don respect your elders and yourself.I have to admit i rarely do it unless i am really really pissed off by that person and the words just "fly out" from my mouth.
I seldom acknowledge people as my friends because i think that the word "Friends" kinda lose it original meaning nowadays.I prefer to called those "hi, bye people" as acquaintance.People nowadays call someone their "friends" when they only just met the other person for a few time.Guess everyone definition of "friends" are different.
To me,personally,a "friends" is someone who you can comfortably have a very personal chat with,people who you are willing to help them when they need help and you can just show your true personally in front of them,friendship that can last even without years of not seeing each other.That's the reasons why i don really have much people or almost non, I called "friends" because people tend to "come and go" and when conflicts tend to arise,I can confidently say that I have already tried to compromise and when i see there is no meaning to haggle anymore,i will just walked away from that friendship because if that friendship is still worth something,the person will then come and try to salvage it.No point try to salvage the friendship alone when the opposite party don't even care anymore right??
I always have this dream to start my own entrepreneur business,but then i know that i cannot do it alone.I did try to get people to help but i always get turned down.No mater how hard I tried to stay possitive,it's really very demoralizing when you are faced with rejection every time.But i always have this favorite phase that i say to myself which is "But no one say it's going to be easy"
People say i have no fashion sense and i agree.To me i like to wear oversize jeans and shirt.I don't like to wear tight and uncomfortable,just to look good.I don really have any expensive shirt, pants, watch and etc.The most expensive item that i normally wear is my baby G watch which i bought at $150.I always dream that one day,i am so successful that i can just wear my oversize jeans and shirt and travel around the world looking like a broke guy.
Always wanted to get into a relationship,but then which girl in the right mind will like a guy with no look, no money, no talents, unable to sweet talk, super stubborn and low self confident?Kinda stuck when talking about this topic.I just think if any girl were to get into a relationship with me,i will definitely be a burden and embarrassment to her.I mean i am kinda shock and jealous when people around me are in a relationship and i am "forever alone".Not saying i am finding a person to feel "less lonely" but then i just really want to find a soul mate.
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Always wanted to get into a relationship,but then which girl in the right mind will like a guy with no look, no money, no talents, unable to sweet talk, super stubborn and low self confident?Kinda stuck when talking about this topic.I just think if any girl were to get into a relationship with me,i will definitely be a burden and embarrassment to her.I mean i am kinda shock and jealous when people around me are in a relationship and i am "forever alone".Not saying i am finding a person to feel "less lonely" but then i just really want to find a soul mate.
Hard to believe right??My confidence level is so low that i often have serious sweaty palm and legs problems.Can you believe that all my flip flop actually turn partially black because of my foot sweat?Yup that how bad my sweaty foot is... ;(.
Shall end here.(photos used in this blog are taken from Google Search and are not mine.) :).
Friday, September 19, 2014
Rainy Friday
Time now is 12.56am and i am still not sleep because IT HOLIDAY. WOOT..
Basically did nothing much for the past 1 week.except the Sunday and Tuesday dinner and Wednesday movie.
Sunday dinner was at Swee Choon. The food was awesome or perhaps i was too hungry that day,as i eat the most i guess.After dinner,we went to "subway" and it was bored and awkward.The rest went back at around 10.30pm.I was kind of bored and i really need to have some quiet time,so i went to took the MRT and went down to Marina Bay Sand.
To me MBS is a special place.It kinda evoke different emotions in me. Excited, sad, happy, angry, relive, naive, childish and a lots more.I guess it also a hideout place for me when i need some quiet time and inspiration.Somehow i find it hard to really describe my love and hate for this place also.
Tuesday dinner was also not really that nice though.The food really take quite a while to cook and i was already staving when i was waiting for the rest.After the dinner,went to McDonald for ice cream and did some "crap talking" with the rest.
To be honest,when we was about to go home,i kinda hesitate for a while because i don want to take the long MRT route home but then i also don want to cause unnecessary trouble so i kinda took the bus back.Then also along the journey,i passed by a bus stop which kinda brought back some memories of my previous business associate,where we used to catch the last bus home after the Friday business meeting and we used to talk about lots of stuffs about dreams and etc.
Wednesday movie was kinda an improtu one."Maze runner" was really a nice show.Dinner after that with dad at chomp chomp.
Kinda excited for no reasons for the upcoming GEP trip.Hopefully everything can go smoothly.haha
Basically did nothing much for the past 1 week.except the Sunday and Tuesday dinner and Wednesday movie.
Sunday dinner was at Swee Choon. The food was awesome or perhaps i was too hungry that day,as i eat the most i guess.After dinner,we went to "subway" and it was bored and awkward.The rest went back at around 10.30pm.I was kind of bored and i really need to have some quiet time,so i went to took the MRT and went down to Marina Bay Sand.
To me MBS is a special place.It kinda evoke different emotions in me. Excited, sad, happy, angry, relive, naive, childish and a lots more.I guess it also a hideout place for me when i need some quiet time and inspiration.Somehow i find it hard to really describe my love and hate for this place also.
Tuesday dinner was also not really that nice though.The food really take quite a while to cook and i was already staving when i was waiting for the rest.After the dinner,went to McDonald for ice cream and did some "crap talking" with the rest.
To be honest,when we was about to go home,i kinda hesitate for a while because i don want to take the long MRT route home but then i also don want to cause unnecessary trouble so i kinda took the bus back.Then also along the journey,i passed by a bus stop which kinda brought back some memories of my previous business associate,where we used to catch the last bus home after the Friday business meeting and we used to talk about lots of stuffs about dreams and etc.
Wednesday movie was kinda an improtu one."Maze runner" was really a nice show.Dinner after that with dad at chomp chomp.
Kinda excited for no reasons for the upcoming GEP trip.Hopefully everything can go smoothly.haha
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Freedom Finally
Feel so relive that the exam are over.One week before the exam,i was so stress up because i only study last minutes and i still aiming to get A for the 3 subjects.
After the exam,i don think that i will get A's but more to getting B's and C' because of careless mistake.Gosh...But still i am glad that i have a aim before the exam as i really get motivate to study and not giving up..
Still i am still happy as i did give my best shot for this course exam.And hopefully the upcoming industry attachment will pass very fast.
No mood to work part time during this 1 month break.1 year back at around this timing,i was doing stewarding for the F1 event with one of my classmate and i must say it was a really a fun and unique experience.But this year the hotel that i used to work for decided not to re-contract for the F1 again.
Hopefully i can find stuffs to do during the holiday.I really hate boredom.
Monday, September 8, 2014
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
"disillusioned" week
Kinda have lots of stuffs to blog about but did not really have much time to really write it down because exam are next week and I am trying my best to revise.
Time now is 7.27pm and I am now on the train,going home.
Time really past really fast and soon it will be another 6 months of dreaded industrial attachment and I am kinda afraid to be honest.
I am kinda excited and I am also having second thoughts about the upcoming trip.
After reading a fews book about businesses and mindset,I am really make me more excited and motivated by the idea of becoming a entrepreneur. Terms like "financial freedom", "rats-race" "401k" and etc.,really broaden my view about certain stuffs that normally people of my ages would not want to think about.Not bragging anything but all I can say is that when you really understand the "value of money",your thinking will start to change.
For me,I had a goal this year which was to set up a small entrepreneur project to fund my upcoming poly fee,but along the way,things does not go according to what I planned and I kinda lose the initial motivation to really start the whole project.Up till recently,when my mom told me about the stuffs that I bought from Malaysia,I kinda regain some of the initial excitement and maybe after my exam,I would really want to try to set up this project.
School seem to be much of a burden as for this few week,I only have to go to school for 1 lesson only.Want to skip the lesson but,the lectures is giving important tips on the exam.So I ended slacking with some classmate after school having lunch,talk craps and stuff.
Sometime,one harmless and unintentional action could mean a different thing to different people.Guess I am kinda sensitive when people talk this "topic" to me because I really wonder what are some of the stuff that people talk about me behind my back? "I am not really concern what my classmate talk about me but I am more curious what are the stuffs the people I call "friends" talk about when I am not around.I mean we have "different sides" I front of different people but I am really curious those friends that I have are showing me their "true side" or "fake side" in front of me.
Why I am suddenly talking about this topic is because today when I went back to my ex-secondary school.The school did not change much.Some of those teacher that though me have left.Somehow I got a weird chilling feeling in my heart.Walk past those corridor and memory of those secondary school just seem like yesterday.Those "bros" and "friends" that I used to play,joke,disturb,goes to recess,smoke,go LAN and stuffs,seem like they have vanish now.
I can still remember the bros that help me out during the sec 4 toilet incident,the friend that always went to esplanade library to study with.The once close clique in sec 4.
Perhaps is because I don normally show my feeling or tell anyone my intension that make people feel that I don really treasure the friendship.But trust me I really treasure it.
Or should I say "或许友情是要经过时间的考验才能知道那东西的价值"
Why my emotion is like a never ending roller coster??Why is it when it reach a high point,it will definitely drop to a bottomless pit??
To me now I am really afraid of interacting with new people.I don want to feel happy and then sad the next moment.I have to admit I am weaker than other guys because i am alway emotional.
Time now is 7.27pm and I am now on the train,going home.
Time really past really fast and soon it will be another 6 months of dreaded industrial attachment and I am kinda afraid to be honest.
I am kinda excited and I am also having second thoughts about the upcoming trip.
After reading a fews book about businesses and mindset,I am really make me more excited and motivated by the idea of becoming a entrepreneur. Terms like "financial freedom", "rats-race" "401k" and etc.,really broaden my view about certain stuffs that normally people of my ages would not want to think about.Not bragging anything but all I can say is that when you really understand the "value of money",your thinking will start to change.
For me,I had a goal this year which was to set up a small entrepreneur project to fund my upcoming poly fee,but along the way,things does not go according to what I planned and I kinda lose the initial motivation to really start the whole project.Up till recently,when my mom told me about the stuffs that I bought from Malaysia,I kinda regain some of the initial excitement and maybe after my exam,I would really want to try to set up this project.
School seem to be much of a burden as for this few week,I only have to go to school for 1 lesson only.Want to skip the lesson but,the lectures is giving important tips on the exam.So I ended slacking with some classmate after school having lunch,talk craps and stuff.
Sometime,one harmless and unintentional action could mean a different thing to different people.Guess I am kinda sensitive when people talk this "topic" to me because I really wonder what are some of the stuff that people talk about me behind my back? "I am not really concern what my classmate talk about me but I am more curious what are the stuffs the people I call "friends" talk about when I am not around.I mean we have "different sides" I front of different people but I am really curious those friends that I have are showing me their "true side" or "fake side" in front of me.
Why I am suddenly talking about this topic is because today when I went back to my ex-secondary school.The school did not change much.Some of those teacher that though me have left.Somehow I got a weird chilling feeling in my heart.Walk past those corridor and memory of those secondary school just seem like yesterday.Those "bros" and "friends" that I used to play,joke,disturb,goes to recess,smoke,go LAN and stuffs,seem like they have vanish now.
I can still remember the bros that help me out during the sec 4 toilet incident,the friend that always went to esplanade library to study with.The once close clique in sec 4.
Perhaps is because I don normally show my feeling or tell anyone my intension that make people feel that I don really treasure the friendship.But trust me I really treasure it.
Or should I say "或许友情是要经过时间的考验才能知道那东西的价值"
Why my emotion is like a never ending roller coster??Why is it when it reach a high point,it will definitely drop to a bottomless pit??
To me now I am really afraid of interacting with new people.I don want to feel happy and then sad the next moment.I have to admit I am weaker than other guys because i am alway emotional.
Thursday, August 28, 2014
"Circles" week (25 to 28 August)
Kinda lost the excitement in blogging already.When i first start blogging again few months back,i want to keep a dairy of what are the events and stuffs that happen within this one year.And most importantly to remind me of the goals that i have set,"4.0 GPA".
Right now,to be honest,I still want to start that entrepreneur idea that i have thought of but i don really have that finance right now.Wanted to lent from mum but she already lent me some money for the upcoming trip and she kinda not wanting me to go on this trip also.And also when my attachment start,i might not be able to handle both task at the same time.Did find some people to join me,but was rejected immediately.But still i will not give up on this idea,for i will definitely work some things out.
Keep having this thought that i am a "stubborn" person with a tendency on making "rash" decisions and end up making the "wrong" choice.Perhaps being an "emotional" person is my weakness.I am always affect by other people feelings and my own feelings that when it come to making a choice or a decisions,i am blinding by emotions that i cannot make a logical decisions or actions.
About 2 week till the final 2 exam paper and it will be the end of the 6 months school lesson and the start of 6 months attachment program.Still a bit nerve wracking about it.Hopefully this attachment would pass very fast.I guess perhaps i would miss the class a bit.Did not really bond with them much but there are times which i really had a lots of fun with them.Will miss a few of them when i leave.
Not to sure what i am going to do during the upcoming holiday...haha...Not intending to work part time but i am low on cash.What to do??
Somehow this is how i am feeling now.
Guess one day i will find my own happiness,but till then i will patiently wait for her to come into my life.
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Moody week (18 to 24 Aug)
Guess I have been numbing myself by trying to keep a busy schedule except Sunday.But I am kinda tired by the busy schedule.Even after work,I would find some activities,so that I will not start to "over-think" some issues.
Don really have the initial motivation to study already and I am forcing myself to study.Lesson now are all about revision and I really cannot answer most of the questions.
To be honest I used to think I have passion in the service industry but as time goes by,I am being to doubt myself.I really like the "human interactions" and creating the "wow factors" for guests but I really get stress up when things don go according to plan.Perhaps the "f&b" and the "hotels" industry is not really suitable for me.I always have lots of funny and weird ideas that I want to try out but I am not really in any position to try it out.
Shows like "hotel hell" and "undercover boss" always inspire me to become a entrepreneur in the service industry.Competitions from well known brands kinda make it hard to start a business and compete with them,but I beg to differ.There is a saying "the bigger it is the easier it fall".
Just want to get good grade for my current course so that I can go to "events management course" in poly and hopefully after NS I have the capital to start my own business venture.
But right now I am kinda afraid of the upcoming industry attachment.I have no idea why also.
Don really have the initial motivation to study already and I am forcing myself to study.Lesson now are all about revision and I really cannot answer most of the questions.
To be honest I used to think I have passion in the service industry but as time goes by,I am being to doubt myself.I really like the "human interactions" and creating the "wow factors" for guests but I really get stress up when things don go according to plan.Perhaps the "f&b" and the "hotels" industry is not really suitable for me.I always have lots of funny and weird ideas that I want to try out but I am not really in any position to try it out.
Shows like "hotel hell" and "undercover boss" always inspire me to become a entrepreneur in the service industry.Competitions from well known brands kinda make it hard to start a business and compete with them,but I beg to differ.There is a saying "the bigger it is the easier it fall".
Just want to get good grade for my current course so that I can go to "events management course" in poly and hopefully after NS I have the capital to start my own business venture.
But right now I am kinda afraid of the upcoming industry attachment.I have no idea why also.
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Sleepy Sunday
As usual,i will definitely sleep like a pig on Sunday because i have no where to go...Wanted to do some revision but then i am so sleepy.Really need a study partner so that i can really revise for the upcoming exam.Kinda lose the enthusiasm about studying.But then i really want to do well for this course because i want to go poly before NS.
Got to go now...My bed is calling me again..
Got to go now...My bed is calling me again..
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Sick Saturday
Kinda learn quite a lot at work today and i made quite a lot of mistake today as well.But then it all part of the learning process,especially if you are working in a place where there is no "SOP" and you just have to learn everything the hard way.
For no reason when i was bathing after my work,my nose suddenly bleed and i don know why.It has been quite a while since my nose bleed.
Wanted to meet with some classmate for dinner because i am darm hungry but then i end work too late and they are already about to go back.So end up having Burger king for dinner..
For no reason when i was bathing after my work,my nose suddenly bleed and i don know why.It has been quite a while since my nose bleed.
Wanted to meet with some classmate for dinner because i am darm hungry but then i end work too late and they are already about to go back.So end up having Burger king for dinner..
Friday, August 15, 2014
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Work Thurday
Beginning to think if the place i chose for attachment is the right place a not.Somehow the "Cons" outweigh the "pros".But then again sometime you have to be place in an uncomfortable place so that you are challenging yourself to do better.
Some incident happen at work today and i was kinda pissed off by some people but then i was kinda at fault also.Hais..Just got to endure the upcoming attachment...
"Sometime the more i seek,the more i felt lost in this unforgiving world"
Some incident happen at work today and i was kinda pissed off by some people but then i was kinda at fault also.Hais..Just got to endure the upcoming attachment...
"Sometime the more i seek,the more i felt lost in this unforgiving world"
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Irritated Wednesday
Just hope to finish the Entrepreneur module project.I really feel like ranting things about the project, but then i remember something that i read about.It about Abraham Lincoln life story and here is a part of that story from the book "How to win friends and influence people".
"In the autumn of 1842 he ridiculed a vain, pugnacious politician by the name of James Shields. Lincoln lampooned him through an anonymous letter published in the Springfield Journal. The town roared with laughter. Shields, sensitive and proud, boiled with indignation. He found out who wrote the letter, leaped on his horse, started after Lincoln, and challenged him to fight a duel. Lincoln didn't want to fight. He was opposed to dueling, but he couldn't get out of it and save his honor. He was given the choice of weapons. Since he had very long arms, he chose cavalry broadswords and took lessons in sword fighting from a West Point graduate; and, on the appointed day, he and Shields met on a sandbar in the Mississippi River, prepared to fight to the death; but, at the last minute, their seconds interrupted and stopped the duel.
That was the most lurid personal incident in Lincoln's life. It taught him an invaluable lesson in the art of dealing with people. Never again did he write an insulting letter. Never again did he ridicule anyone. And from that time on, he almost never criticized anybody for anything. "
Perhaps sometime we are so blinded with emotions that we go tell everyone about it or rant everything on the internet.But then i realize something,somethings are really not worth my time and be upset the whole day.In group projects,there will definitely be the "doer" and the "slacker",and you just have to deal with it.
Gosh exam are coming and i really need to do something about it.ARRRRRRRRRRR
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Tiring Tuesday
All the module lecture are trying to clear all the chapter by this week and I realizes that I seem to lost motivating to study.
Finally went to gym for a short while after so long and I think I am gain quite a lot of weight.
CCA was really a full physical training and also the grading result was out...felt abit disappointed but at the same time I know what my weakness was.
Finally went to gym for a short while after so long and I think I am gain quite a lot of weight.
CCA was really a full physical training and also the grading result was out...felt abit disappointed but at the same time I know what my weakness was.
Monday, August 11, 2014
Suckish Monday
As alway monday is alway so bored and suckish.All 3 lesson are a total waste of time.I try to be possitive every monday,but it not working.Really need to do lots of revision from now on.
I seriously hate to do group projects.Reason being I really hate people who talk and throw the "shits" to people and people that just don care about the project.Not saying that the other people are not contributing but i really hate the fact that when i was doing the projects stuff,people are just doing stuff to annoy you like asking when can they go home.Do you think i like staying back to do all those.I have so much stuffs to do rather that staying in school to all those??
1)I have tons of revisons to do
2)Books to read
3)Go to gym
4)Trying to reseach and remember my part time work stuffs.
5)Errands to do
and much more.
After school went down to The Cathay to buy some stuff but was told to come back on friday as there are no stocks.
MRT back to AMK hub and went to buy a new wallet as my mom is nagging at me for alway losing my ez-link card.
Wanted to do a new student ez-link card as i broke my card and now i am using an adult ez-link card and it is really "burning money fast".
是我太笨,过于关心不值得的东西.或许这是我致命的弱点.
Ending the day and post with a stupid picture of me.haha..
I seriously hate to do group projects.Reason being I really hate people who talk and throw the "shits" to people and people that just don care about the project.Not saying that the other people are not contributing but i really hate the fact that when i was doing the projects stuff,people are just doing stuff to annoy you like asking when can they go home.Do you think i like staying back to do all those.I have so much stuffs to do rather that staying in school to all those??
1)I have tons of revisons to do
2)Books to read
3)Go to gym
4)Trying to reseach and remember my part time work stuffs.
5)Errands to do
and much more.
After school went down to The Cathay to buy some stuff but was told to come back on friday as there are no stocks.
MRT back to AMK hub and went to buy a new wallet as my mom is nagging at me for alway losing my ez-link card.
Wanted to do a new student ez-link card as i broke my card and now i am using an adult ez-link card and it is really "burning money fast".
是我太笨,过于关心不值得的东西.或许这是我致命的弱点.
Ending the day and post with a stupid picture of me.haha..
Sunday, August 10, 2014
4 to 10 August 2014
Awesome week spend.Almost reach home at 9pm for the whole week,but I can i enjoy each day except Monday and Thursday.
Monday kinda start on a bad note.The first lesson was cancel and the "sub group" was not informed.so wasted 2 hours in school doing nothing.The second lesson was also kinda bored as there are some fault in the system.So basically did almost nothing in school today.
Tuesday and Wednesday was the most awesome as we get to skip lesson and help the seniors with the haunted house.It really bring back memories when I participate in the Sentosa haunted house event 2 years back.Some students reaction are epic and funny.I guess that mean that the haunted house was really a success.Did manage to really bond a lot with the rest of the class when I begin to talk a lot.Dinner with them for the both day and talk lots of craps.
Thursday was not really fun I would say.Went to work from 10am to 8pm and when to meet some people for dinner.Did not really enjoy the dinner though.I hate it when people don inform me who is coming and when i reach there,people i don know pop out of nowhere.I don really like to drink with people i don know because you don know them well.
Friday was kinda hectic.Went for the captain ball events in the morning.Did not really play much of the games though and I am the only one that turn up for the housekeeping practical as the rest have some stuff to do.Luckily that there is help from some senior and some lecturer.Meet some classmate for dinner at lot 1.
Saturday was good I guess.work from 10am to 8pm.and then have steamboat dinner went the sub group classmate at bugis. Kinda like the idea of having "part 2" after work.But then I guess it the people who you spend the night with that make it worth it,unlike the Thursday dinner....
Sunday was kinda drowsy.Plan to study but ended up watch tv and taking long naps...
Hope each week will be fun like this.
School seem much more interesting each day when I begin to show my "mischief and childlike side".
Monday kinda start on a bad note.The first lesson was cancel and the "sub group" was not informed.so wasted 2 hours in school doing nothing.The second lesson was also kinda bored as there are some fault in the system.So basically did almost nothing in school today.
Tuesday and Wednesday was the most awesome as we get to skip lesson and help the seniors with the haunted house.It really bring back memories when I participate in the Sentosa haunted house event 2 years back.Some students reaction are epic and funny.I guess that mean that the haunted house was really a success.Did manage to really bond a lot with the rest of the class when I begin to talk a lot.Dinner with them for the both day and talk lots of craps.
Thursday was not really fun I would say.Went to work from 10am to 8pm and when to meet some people for dinner.Did not really enjoy the dinner though.I hate it when people don inform me who is coming and when i reach there,people i don know pop out of nowhere.I don really like to drink with people i don know because you don know them well.
Friday was kinda hectic.Went for the captain ball events in the morning.Did not really play much of the games though and I am the only one that turn up for the housekeeping practical as the rest have some stuff to do.Luckily that there is help from some senior and some lecturer.Meet some classmate for dinner at lot 1.
Saturday was good I guess.work from 10am to 8pm.and then have steamboat dinner went the sub group classmate at bugis. Kinda like the idea of having "part 2" after work.But then I guess it the people who you spend the night with that make it worth it,unlike the Thursday dinner....
Sunday was kinda drowsy.Plan to study but ended up watch tv and taking long naps...
Hope each week will be fun like this.
School seem much more interesting each day when I begin to show my "mischief and childlike side".
Sunday, August 3, 2014
Relive Sunday
Finally CCA grading test are over.My mind totally went blank when I was doing my test and I guess I did not did so well as my kicks are kind of low.But anyway I am glad all the school test and CCA test are over.
Was kind of bored so I just took a bus to Toa Payoh and halfway,someone called and ask me out for a movie.
Watch guardian of the galaxy and like most people I find that groot is so funny and cute.
Went to LAN to play with the group and I have to admit computer games are not something I am good at.I do play those online game but I am really noob at it.haha...
Some of them left after the Lan games around 8pm,while the remaining few and I continue to play pool.Did not expect to lost all the games...hais...
Had a quick dinner before heading home.
Was kind of bored so I just took a bus to Toa Payoh and halfway,someone called and ask me out for a movie.
Watch guardian of the galaxy and like most people I find that groot is so funny and cute.
Went to LAN to play with the group and I have to admit computer games are not something I am good at.I do play those online game but I am really noob at it.haha...
Some of them left after the Lan games around 8pm,while the remaining few and I continue to play pool.Did not expect to lost all the games...hais...
Had a quick dinner before heading home.
Saturday, August 2, 2014
insightful Saturday
Part time job was good except for the fact that a manager decided to be a a**hole and it kinda dampen my mood a bit.I guess it good that I get to know some stuff about the hotel before my attachment start is not a bad idea.
I never understand the "concept ideas of new trends and downfall of corporations" when I was first expose to that.But as I increase my working experience in big company,I slowly begin to understand bit and pieces of that concept.Perhaps the saying of "those who don't change with the tides,will get smash dead on the shore".
Went to meet with some classmates after work and had dinner.And went to slack at the fast food outlets.
I kind of like the idea of having "part 2" everyday.having fun with different people at different place.But I reliase that it am be quite tiring,especially if you need to wake up early the next day.But I kind of miss those day when I was still with my "ex-business accociatse",having late discussion and impromtu supper.
I guess sometime we just need to enjoy those fun moment because we don know when it will last until.
I never understand the "concept ideas of new trends and downfall of corporations" when I was first expose to that.But as I increase my working experience in big company,I slowly begin to understand bit and pieces of that concept.Perhaps the saying of "those who don't change with the tides,will get smash dead on the shore".
Went to meet with some classmates after work and had dinner.And went to slack at the fast food outlets.
I kind of like the idea of having "part 2" everyday.having fun with different people at different place.But I reliase that it am be quite tiring,especially if you need to wake up early the next day.But I kind of miss those day when I was still with my "ex-business accociatse",having late discussion and impromtu supper.
I guess sometime we just need to enjoy those fun moment because we don know when it will last until.
Friday, August 1, 2014
Uncertain Friday
Lessons seem weird today due to some reasons.
Was a bit hyper in school and one of the lecturer say I was like a total different person because she alway though that I was a quiet kid.I guess to many people are very confuse.Why sometime and I am quiet and anti-social then all of a sudden,I become very hyper and friendly.To be honest,I really don know myself either.I guess my actions and are depend on the current mood of the day.
Glad that school tests are all over except for the CCA test on Sunday.
Days seem to pass so fast nowadays,not really sure if it a good thing or a bad thing.Good in the sense that I am a day closer to graduating the course which I don really like or have any passion in it,just study for the sake of going poly.Bad in a sense that I am always wasting the days by not doing any productive things
Not really sure if I am ready to take on the responsibility of a young adult.Kinda miss those day when people would call me 小弟弟(little boy).Guess along the journey of growing up,we will defiantly lose something and gain something.
Thursday, July 31, 2014
22 July to 31 July
A very sincerer apology for not updating this blog for a week plus.Really lose the motivation to update each day.But anyway i don think i have much reader anyway.
Meet up with different ex-classmates a few time during the past week and it really make me realize something.I really need to know who are my acquaintances, friends and bros,so that I can treat them better.I am really tired of always giving my best to help other and always end up in a tired state.Sometime I would drift away from my friends and bros to accompany my new acquaintances.I should be more pro-active in taking the initiative to plan for meet up.Sometime when I give so much to someone and realize you are never a friend to them really make me feel like shit.
Tuesday takwondo make me realize how weak I am especially my arms.Have not been to the gym since school reopen and I guess I have gain some weight due to my unhealthy eating habits.
Had a phase test this Wednesday and I think I might not did well,because other classmate did write informations down during the test,while I did not write anything and when the lecture told me to rub away whatever I wrote on the material,I proudly say "I also never write anything".then I kinda saw his face change abit and I only realize I need to write the necessary information on the material when I got home. -.-
Quite a few of my friends 20 birthday have pass and in a few months,i will be celebrating mine too.Looking back,i cannot say i am a mature kid.I have made bad decision and actions that led to consequences.But i am glad i have learn something through the incident each time.
I really need to be more of a "logical thinker" than a "emotional thinker",when things happen,i tend to lost my logical thinking and let my emotions take control of me.
To be honest,i am afraid of the uncertainty in the upcoming months.I hope i can preserve through,knowing that i need to have the determination and motivation to carry on each day and i might not be able to have regular sleep and i have to juggle with school study,cca and a few more.But what is worth is worth the fighting.
Shall end here now.Will try to update more regularly.Stay tune.
Meet up with different ex-classmates a few time during the past week and it really make me realize something.I really need to know who are my acquaintances, friends and bros,so that I can treat them better.I am really tired of always giving my best to help other and always end up in a tired state.Sometime I would drift away from my friends and bros to accompany my new acquaintances.I should be more pro-active in taking the initiative to plan for meet up.Sometime when I give so much to someone and realize you are never a friend to them really make me feel like shit.
Tuesday takwondo make me realize how weak I am especially my arms.Have not been to the gym since school reopen and I guess I have gain some weight due to my unhealthy eating habits.
Had a phase test this Wednesday and I think I might not did well,because other classmate did write informations down during the test,while I did not write anything and when the lecture told me to rub away whatever I wrote on the material,I proudly say "I also never write anything".then I kinda saw his face change abit and I only realize I need to write the necessary information on the material when I got home. -.-
Quite a few of my friends 20 birthday have pass and in a few months,i will be celebrating mine too.Looking back,i cannot say i am a mature kid.I have made bad decision and actions that led to consequences.But i am glad i have learn something through the incident each time.
I really need to be more of a "logical thinker" than a "emotional thinker",when things happen,i tend to lost my logical thinking and let my emotions take control of me.
To be honest,i am afraid of the uncertainty in the upcoming months.I hope i can preserve through,knowing that i need to have the determination and motivation to carry on each day and i might not be able to have regular sleep and i have to juggle with school study,cca and a few more.But what is worth is worth the fighting.
Shall end here now.Will try to update more regularly.Stay tune.
Monday, July 21, 2014
Sleepy Monday
My mood today was really sleepy after the first lesson.I guess i am kind of influence by other easily.
Had a quick breakfast at 10am before heading to the library to do some notes.While doing my own notes alone,I feel a bit more energetic and motivate,perhaps of the less distractions around.
Kinda agree with some of the things in the book I am reading now ."We can change our mood easily by ownself if we want to."
After finishing my notes,there is still some spare time,so I decided to go to the field area for a while,as I intend to take a short nap there as it is quiet.But when I reach there,there is already students around so I just find a empty area and just take a short rest.
Went to entrepreneur module lesson and the lecturer briefly talk about the requirements for project 3.Wanted to go to gym after lesson,but one of my ex-classmate ask me if I want to go back with him.
Had a short dinner and talk some rubbish before take the train home.
Had a quick breakfast at 10am before heading to the library to do some notes.While doing my own notes alone,I feel a bit more energetic and motivate,perhaps of the less distractions around.
Kinda agree with some of the things in the book I am reading now ."We can change our mood easily by ownself if we want to."
After finishing my notes,there is still some spare time,so I decided to go to the field area for a while,as I intend to take a short nap there as it is quiet.But when I reach there,there is already students around so I just find a empty area and just take a short rest.
Went to entrepreneur module lesson and the lecturer briefly talk about the requirements for project 3.Wanted to go to gym after lesson,but one of my ex-classmate ask me if I want to go back with him.
Had a short dinner and talk some rubbish before take the train home.
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Fragile Sunday
Life is really so fragile.One moment the person is still alive,the next moment the person is gone.Perhaps i had been near to the "crossroad of life and death",that why i am always sensitive to this topic.Recent MH17 accident and the "wars" really make me feel that we should treasure each day.
Heard from the module lecture that the entrepreneur fund is still pending and will only know the result next month.So I am consider to just borrow money from my parents and just start the whole project by myself.But i still need to find out more information about some stuffs before making the decision.Not having enough information before start a entrepreneur project would be like throwing money into a dark hole.
Phase tests,CCA grading test and Course events are around the corner.Really don know how to prioritize those events.
Lots of stuffs is running through my mind now.Somehow I just wish that I have this group of "inner circle people",which is something like a clique,but the only different things is that we are social and business related.People that you can talk all sorts of nonsense and serious things to.
I know people who have their own personal inner circle group,and when it come to serious talk,they can really camp at someone house and chat until morning and rest a while before heading to work later.This kind of commitment and bond is something that I will never see in school.I guess the reason why they have this kind of bond and trust is that they have a common financial goal that they need to work together to achieve it.
But the problem is I don like to smile and shy when meet new people and I tend to keep quiet when I feel shy and my actions to other seem like I am a anti-social or proud person.My actions kind of limit me from know potential people who I might want to include in my inner circle.Guess I need to change.
Heard from the module lecture that the entrepreneur fund is still pending and will only know the result next month.So I am consider to just borrow money from my parents and just start the whole project by myself.But i still need to find out more information about some stuffs before making the decision.Not having enough information before start a entrepreneur project would be like throwing money into a dark hole.
Phase tests,CCA grading test and Course events are around the corner.Really don know how to prioritize those events.
Lots of stuffs is running through my mind now.Somehow I just wish that I have this group of "inner circle people",which is something like a clique,but the only different things is that we are social and business related.People that you can talk all sorts of nonsense and serious things to.
I know people who have their own personal inner circle group,and when it come to serious talk,they can really camp at someone house and chat until morning and rest a while before heading to work later.This kind of commitment and bond is something that I will never see in school.I guess the reason why they have this kind of bond and trust is that they have a common financial goal that they need to work together to achieve it.
But the problem is I don like to smile and shy when meet new people and I tend to keep quiet when I feel shy and my actions to other seem like I am a anti-social or proud person.My actions kind of limit me from know potential people who I might want to include in my inner circle.Guess I need to change.
Saturday, July 19, 2014
Pondering Saturday
Was suppose to meet with some classmate for dinner at 6pm,but i took a nap and woke up at 6.10pm.had to cab down and i was about one hour late.Had some food at Watami before heading to texas chicken for part 2 dinner and then marble slab.Only one of them had ice cream because some of us was already to full.
Did some chatting and i was really surprise to know things that i did not know.
I wonder what is the definition of "friends" now??looking back I help so many people when they are still a underdog,and when they had new friends and become more popular,I am always the first one to be left out.It then struck me hard,why putting myself out there to help people knowing that I will be the first one that they will forget when they have new friends.
If your have been reading my post,I often address people as classmate but not friends.Reason being I am not afraid to say this but I just feel that we are only together for the sake of it and not really have the intention to really contact each other outside school.Everyone have their own clique and etc.
Sometime we are so blinded by our emotions that we do stuffs that we regret.But life still have to move on.
Wanted to have some drink/dessert but most of the shop are about to close,go I walk to holland villiage,hoping to get some cheap ice cream from the fast food outlets there.But when I reach there,I am still quite full and decided to take mrt home instead.Wanting to walk around the bar area,but was to lazy and tired.
Kinda have this feeling of going to drink every fortnight.Sometime I just need to take a break from everything and just get drunk so that I can sleep properly and stop thinking about so many things.
Did some chatting and i was really surprise to know things that i did not know.
I wonder what is the definition of "friends" now??looking back I help so many people when they are still a underdog,and when they had new friends and become more popular,I am always the first one to be left out.It then struck me hard,why putting myself out there to help people knowing that I will be the first one that they will forget when they have new friends.
If your have been reading my post,I often address people as classmate but not friends.Reason being I am not afraid to say this but I just feel that we are only together for the sake of it and not really have the intention to really contact each other outside school.Everyone have their own clique and etc.
Sometime we are so blinded by our emotions that we do stuffs that we regret.But life still have to move on.
Wanted to have some drink/dessert but most of the shop are about to close,go I walk to holland villiage,hoping to get some cheap ice cream from the fast food outlets there.But when I reach there,I am still quite full and decided to take mrt home instead.Wanting to walk around the bar area,but was to lazy and tired.
Kinda have this feeling of going to drink every fortnight.Sometime I just need to take a break from everything and just get drunk so that I can sleep properly and stop thinking about so many things.
Friday, July 18, 2014
T.G.I.F
Was early for the project presentation but that some group member was late.Got a bit piss off by someone remark,but still i mange to control my self from flaring up.But overall the presentation was ok i guess.Saw the lecture keep nodding her head and the question she pose to us is quite easy.
Had plan to go back to secondary school with my ex-classmate/bros because i saw the timetable wrongly and miss a lesson.
Went back to secondary school and it really bring back lots of memory.To bad lots of teacher have left and there are lots of new young teacher around.Talk to some teacher and slack around in the school for a while before taking a cab back to ITE.
Housekeeping was tired but kinda expected that there is lots of rooms to clean cos i saw a group of exchange student leaving the campus in the morning.But what i did not expected is that all of the room have a "roll-away-bed".I kinda have a RAB phobia because the last time i work at a hotel,the RAB is long,heavy and hard to control,but the school RAB was not that bad.Still it is still tiring to clear away the RAB and the extra pillow and etc alone.
Had lunch with classmate and did some chatting and left school at around 6.30pm.
Had plan to go back to secondary school with my ex-classmate/bros because i saw the timetable wrongly and miss a lesson.
Went back to secondary school and it really bring back lots of memory.To bad lots of teacher have left and there are lots of new young teacher around.Talk to some teacher and slack around in the school for a while before taking a cab back to ITE.
Housekeeping was tired but kinda expected that there is lots of rooms to clean cos i saw a group of exchange student leaving the campus in the morning.But what i did not expected is that all of the room have a "roll-away-bed".I kinda have a RAB phobia because the last time i work at a hotel,the RAB is long,heavy and hard to control,but the school RAB was not that bad.Still it is still tiring to clear away the RAB and the extra pillow and etc alone.
Had lunch with classmate and did some chatting and left school at around 6.30pm.
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Lethargic Thursday
No school today,but there is also nothing to do today.My home has really become a place where it really make me feel sleepy even after 8 hours of sleep.Really need to go out everyday,if not I will be like sleeping the whole day,where I wake up to bath and then I will feel sleepy and go back to sleep again.
Went to esplanade library to study but after less than 1 hour,my mind was too distracted and I cannot focus so went to the nearby shopping center and have lunch.
Went home after that and watch tv all the way to 11pm.Really need to do stuffs that benefit me in the long run,rather that doing useless stuff and wasting time.Really need to change my lifestyle after this week.My dateline is closer and closer each day but i still haven done anything much yet and there are still a lot of things that need to be done and I haven started doing yet.
Looking for a study buddy to "chiong study with me for 3 months",test result is not that good so i have to work double hard from now onwards.
Having expectation of myself is not to stress myself but rather,it motivate me to try harder each time and achieve my goals.After all,why getting average when you can achieve the best??
Went to esplanade library to study but after less than 1 hour,my mind was too distracted and I cannot focus so went to the nearby shopping center and have lunch.
Went home after that and watch tv all the way to 11pm.Really need to do stuffs that benefit me in the long run,rather that doing useless stuff and wasting time.Really need to change my lifestyle after this week.My dateline is closer and closer each day but i still haven done anything much yet and there are still a lot of things that need to be done and I haven started doing yet.
Looking for a study buddy to "chiong study with me for 3 months",test result is not that good so i have to work double hard from now onwards.
Having expectation of myself is not to stress myself but rather,it motivate me to try harder each time and achieve my goals.After all,why getting average when you can achieve the best??
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Reminiscent Wednesday
Finally get my contract sign with iblis.Kinda afraid cos I will be alone with no classmate in the same hotel.The front office manager seem friendly but I am not sure how will she be like if I were to make a mistake.Pray hard this attachment will be good,but I am abit uncomfortable with this attachment because I will be doing front office for 6 months and i need to do daily grooming like shaving my mustache and gel my hair everyday which I hate to do.
But on the bright side,I don have to clean rooms and toilet.The uniform is quite comfortable and casual looking.As there is no staff canteen,which means I can eat different food eat day as there is a hawker centre behind the hotel,rather that eating the same canteen food each day.Seem like the pros outweighs the cons.I guess it's time for me to be more independent rather than alway depend on people.
Manage to skip school because of this.haha.But decided to go to the hotel visit to Fullerton hotel in the afternoon.The hotel visit was quite good,but the presentation slide really make people sleepy because to the font,number of slides and the informations.Did not went to visit the rooms due to the occupancy rate,but when to visit the f&b outlets instead.along the way they want to take a photo at a outdoor area,but after taking 1 photo,I really cannot take the heat and started sweating heavily and run to the indoor,but some of the classmate saw me and ask me what happen and ask me to go out to take another photo.Kinda reluctant because of heat,but still went out to take that group photo.
Been quite some time visiting this area.Used to walk around Fullerton area to MBS and work at Fullerton hotel staff canteen before.Wonder how much this area have change since I has been here last time,so I decided to walk around the area again as I don want to take the trains during the peak hour.
Sat down at benches along the Singapore river and just relax and let time pass.Felt a bit better after the rest.Then went to MBS to clean myself up a bit as I am quite sweaty before heading back home.
Really need to control my spending,as I spend quite a lot today and I still don have a part time job yet.
Shall upload some picture later on,
But on the bright side,I don have to clean rooms and toilet.The uniform is quite comfortable and casual looking.As there is no staff canteen,which means I can eat different food eat day as there is a hawker centre behind the hotel,rather that eating the same canteen food each day.Seem like the pros outweighs the cons.I guess it's time for me to be more independent rather than alway depend on people.
Manage to skip school because of this.haha.But decided to go to the hotel visit to Fullerton hotel in the afternoon.The hotel visit was quite good,but the presentation slide really make people sleepy because to the font,number of slides and the informations.Did not went to visit the rooms due to the occupancy rate,but when to visit the f&b outlets instead.along the way they want to take a photo at a outdoor area,but after taking 1 photo,I really cannot take the heat and started sweating heavily and run to the indoor,but some of the classmate saw me and ask me what happen and ask me to go out to take another photo.Kinda reluctant because of heat,but still went out to take that group photo.
Been quite some time visiting this area.Used to walk around Fullerton area to MBS and work at Fullerton hotel staff canteen before.Wonder how much this area have change since I has been here last time,so I decided to walk around the area again as I don want to take the trains during the peak hour.
Sat down at benches along the Singapore river and just relax and let time pass.Felt a bit better after the rest.Then went to MBS to clean myself up a bit as I am quite sweaty before heading back home.
Really need to control my spending,as I spend quite a lot today and I still don have a part time job yet.
Shall upload some picture later on,
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Exhausted tuesday
Was not really have a good sleep last night, flipping and turning around in my bed and I just cannot fall asleep.Wake up feeling tired,especially knowing that Tuesday will alway be a long day.
Lessons resume today and I realize I have been answering lots of questions in class today,so from now onward I will keep my mouth shut and only open when I got questions.
Had lunch alone,but halfway some classmate saw me and they decided to join me.But did not really talk much to them as I don really know of any common topic and i am too shy i guess.
Sometime I wonder if my decision or choices I made are right??Never expect myself would be a "low key underdog"Karma i guess,for bullying people in the past.But I learn to see the "problems" and "situation" when I start to shut up and listen.Finally understand why there is a saying "words are deadly that guns and the wise listen,while the fool argue."
Kinda like the current PE lecturer.The things that he share with us is some of my favorite topic,eg his experience with different people.
It really make me feel bless that the things I learn during in Amway really help me a lot in life.Life skills and financial intelligent informations that school will never teach.In my opinion,school only teach us to be a better "worker" and live on the safe side.Not saying this is bad but rather,it kind of limit our belief and guts to try/start new things.I don want to have regrets of not trying to break out of the "life rat race" when I am older.I rather live on the dangerous side and fight for options in life.
"Somethings in life are worth fighting"
CCA was tiring today,did more PT than usual and it was my first time wearing a dobok which belong to my brother and instead of the usual white color my brother dobok top was white with obvious faint pink color and the coach call me "pinky" :((. Don know what my brother did to the top,but who care what people call me,the top is unique and awesome.End late than usual and reach home at 11.30pm.
But anyway,I got to adjust my body clock today because I get to sleep till 9am,while the rest of my classmate start school at 8am because of some talks.woot.Shall sleep now,TIMECHECK 12am.
Lessons resume today and I realize I have been answering lots of questions in class today,so from now onward I will keep my mouth shut and only open when I got questions.
Had lunch alone,but halfway some classmate saw me and they decided to join me.But did not really talk much to them as I don really know of any common topic and i am too shy i guess.
Sometime I wonder if my decision or choices I made are right??Never expect myself would be a "low key underdog"Karma i guess,for bullying people in the past.But I learn to see the "problems" and "situation" when I start to shut up and listen.Finally understand why there is a saying "words are deadly that guns and the wise listen,while the fool argue."
Kinda like the current PE lecturer.The things that he share with us is some of my favorite topic,eg his experience with different people.
It really make me feel bless that the things I learn during in Amway really help me a lot in life.Life skills and financial intelligent informations that school will never teach.In my opinion,school only teach us to be a better "worker" and live on the safe side.Not saying this is bad but rather,it kind of limit our belief and guts to try/start new things.I don want to have regrets of not trying to break out of the "life rat race" when I am older.I rather live on the dangerous side and fight for options in life.
"Somethings in life are worth fighting"
CCA was tiring today,did more PT than usual and it was my first time wearing a dobok which belong to my brother and instead of the usual white color my brother dobok top was white with obvious faint pink color and the coach call me "pinky" :((. Don know what my brother did to the top,but who care what people call me,the top is unique and awesome.End late than usual and reach home at 11.30pm.
But anyway,I got to adjust my body clock today because I get to sleep till 9am,while the rest of my classmate start school at 8am because of some talks.woot.Shall sleep now,TIMECHECK 12am.
Monday, July 14, 2014
Disappointed Monday
Kinda excited that school is starting today.But somehow all the things look unfamiliar to me.Those classmates and lecture.Perhaps I am did not really socialize with them during he first term and after a long holiday,and now when I see everyone,they looks very unfamiliar.
I really want to try socializing with them but,I would say they have their own group and I am not very comfortable in showing my "true self" to them.Something might be funny to me,but to some of them,they might not like it.
I am like a wondering soul in the class,unless someone come over to talk to me,I will not really take the initiative to talk to them.Rather that saying I am a loner,I would think myself as a carefree person looking for like mind people whom we can really "play,joke and work hard in study together". I mean life is about the way you live.Play harder,work smarter.
Lost the motivation to go for gym and etc.Perhaps my body still need time for adjustment.Phase test is nearby and haven really revise anything during the holiday.
I really feel happy when the lecture announce the I have the highest score among my class group,but I was disappointed that I cannot get the highest in class.Not saying I am greedy but I really want to get a good GPA for this course and I want to try to score the highest each time.Because of this aim and challenge,it motivate me to go to school and pay attention in class,if not I will be just going to class each day to waste time.
I really love challenge and I am that kind of person that alway like to win and wanting to push myself each time.I alway have this idea of push my body and mind to its limit and just collapse(fainting).
I really want to try socializing with them but,I would say they have their own group and I am not very comfortable in showing my "true self" to them.Something might be funny to me,but to some of them,they might not like it.
I am like a wondering soul in the class,unless someone come over to talk to me,I will not really take the initiative to talk to them.Rather that saying I am a loner,I would think myself as a carefree person looking for like mind people whom we can really "play,joke and work hard in study together". I mean life is about the way you live.Play harder,work smarter.
Lost the motivation to go for gym and etc.Perhaps my body still need time for adjustment.Phase test is nearby and haven really revise anything during the holiday.
I really feel happy when the lecture announce the I have the highest score among my class group,but I was disappointed that I cannot get the highest in class.Not saying I am greedy but I really want to get a good GPA for this course and I want to try to score the highest each time.Because of this aim and challenge,it motivate me to go to school and pay attention in class,if not I will be just going to class each day to waste time.
I really love challenge and I am that kind of person that alway like to win and wanting to push myself each time.I alway have this idea of push my body and mind to its limit and just collapse(fainting).
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Excited Sunday
Finally school is starting tomorrow.Body clock kinda screw up.
After reading so much book,i found that those "core ideas and the "know how"" has alway been the same since the start of 20 century and many people have been sharing it but in a different ways.I alway want to try doing things differently and always ended up failing in every attempt.
"Don't try to reinvent the wheel"
Finally understand why people alway told me this.But I guess it is a blessing that I can experiment with ideas at a age and mistake don come with a hefty price.
As I continue reading the book "Master your mind,design your destiny",found some of the content is same as some books I read before.Not to boast anything but rather I was kinda surprise the core ideas were so similar is like the a summery of my experience so far.Found some answers I am looking for.To be honest,I actually already have the answer but I am to wishy-washy.
Sometime we need to get go off certain things,not because you want to but you need to.Not sure if I am able to so,or long long it will take,but one day I will.
After reading so much book,i found that those "core ideas and the "know how"" has alway been the same since the start of 20 century and many people have been sharing it but in a different ways.I alway want to try doing things differently and always ended up failing in every attempt.
"Don't try to reinvent the wheel"
Finally understand why people alway told me this.But I guess it is a blessing that I can experiment with ideas at a age and mistake don come with a hefty price.
As I continue reading the book "Master your mind,design your destiny",found some of the content is same as some books I read before.Not to boast anything but rather I was kinda surprise the core ideas were so similar is like the a summery of my experience so far.Found some answers I am looking for.To be honest,I actually already have the answer but I am to wishy-washy.
Sometime we need to get go off certain things,not because you want to but you need to.Not sure if I am able to so,or long long it will take,but one day I will.
Saturday, July 12, 2014
Reflect Saturday
Wow finally holidays are ending.I guess I will be the only one that is happy that school are starting soon.Finally got some stuffs to do so that I will not be bored.Really hope that I get the funds I need for my project,if not I will borrow from my parents I guess.Dead serious in getting stuff done.
Yesterday was kind of drowsy and sleepy.I think is due to the after effect of the alcohol.But after 1 day of sobering,I kind of apperception lots of things.I once heard people say,it only when you are drunk,you will know your true self.
And I would say I get a different perceptions of things after reading so much book and after yesterday incident.Without realization,it been almost 3 years.I am still the same stubborn me.Loss more that I gain. Trying to be nice and people tend to take advantage.Wondering if the choices I made have turn me into someone who is weak.Sometime I would wonder why is it those "f**k up bros" in my past have so much things in common that people I am with.No matter what happen,they will still help you even if you don need as long as it not illegal.Those "brotherhood shit" in the movie are the kind of bond we have.Perhaps maybe we are all guys and "pride" and "face" meant so much more.
As we move along in life,we kind of drift and got new "bros" but I wonder how many will still remember those time we share.
Friday, July 11, 2014
Eating Friday
Woke up at 12pm to prepare to go out to have brunch with my mom and my grandmom at Bugis.
The bunch was great and the place was really not crowded despite being Friday.Had lot of cheap slich beefs.I really like to have slice beef what is being "grill" till dried and the taste of the beef is like barbecue meat.
Went home after that and continue watching anime for the whole day.
Yup i know,my life is boring.
The bunch was great and the place was really not crowded despite being Friday.Had lot of cheap slich beefs.I really like to have slice beef what is being "grill" till dried and the taste of the beef is like barbecue meat.
Went home after that and continue watching anime for the whole day.
Yup i know,my life is boring.
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Irritated Thursday
Went for another interview today.Was not really feel well and was a bit sleepy and the place is at Sentosa.So in summary of the interview for today,was not really feeling comfortable with talking to the staff and i was like giving crappy answer to annoy her also,i guess.Was kinda irritated by her way of answering when i was ask her a situation based question and she kinda explain to me how that will never happen...She told me to wait for a week and she will notify the interview result,which i already know the result of the interview.She was kind enough to sent me to the shutter bus area,but then i was kinda bored so I went to take the tram instead.
Had plan to meet up with some classmate to do some project stuffs at 6pm and not wanting to go back home,I just roam around and finally I just went to Bugis instead.Went to arcade to play before heading to McDonald to have a drink and read my book.
Head to The Cathay next and the mac was a bit too noisy and i know that popeye at Cathay would be a better place as not much people would go there during weekday and it is also near to the place where i will be meet my classmate later on.
Had dinner at Plaza Sing.and to cut short about what happen,we did not have the motivation to do the project so they decided to go Planet Paradise,a thai disco.Was kinda early so we went to shop around orchard before cabbing down to disco.
First time been to disco.Was not really crowded as it was Thursday i guess.Then we order a tower of beer and after a while,some thai lady approach our table and talk to us and one of my classmate decided to tell them i was first time there and they start to talk to me.Was kinda uncomfortable a they was like try to "touch" you so that you can "buy flower" for them.Did not really want to spend extra money so I did not buy for them.Mom did call me and I told her i will be back home late.
In total i vomited 3 times at the disco toilet.I kinda like the feeling after you vomit and you feel your blood pumping faster and your mind start to see thing more clearer and instead of feeling drunk,i felt much sober.Weird me I guess.Cab home at around 2am and after alighting the cab I vomit again.
Surprise to see mom still awake and she ask me where i been to.She did not really nag but she just say don go there often. Being a guy is not a bad thing after all.
Try to sleep but i could not.Keep turning around in bed and around 5am,had a stomachache.Was kinda surprise that my body still can shit out something out of my body after vomiting so much time.
Had plan to meet up with some classmate to do some project stuffs at 6pm and not wanting to go back home,I just roam around and finally I just went to Bugis instead.Went to arcade to play before heading to McDonald to have a drink and read my book.
Head to The Cathay next and the mac was a bit too noisy and i know that popeye at Cathay would be a better place as not much people would go there during weekday and it is also near to the place where i will be meet my classmate later on.
Had dinner at Plaza Sing.and to cut short about what happen,we did not have the motivation to do the project so they decided to go Planet Paradise,a thai disco.Was kinda early so we went to shop around orchard before cabbing down to disco.
First time been to disco.Was not really crowded as it was Thursday i guess.Then we order a tower of beer and after a while,some thai lady approach our table and talk to us and one of my classmate decided to tell them i was first time there and they start to talk to me.Was kinda uncomfortable a they was like try to "touch" you so that you can "buy flower" for them.Did not really want to spend extra money so I did not buy for them.Mom did call me and I told her i will be back home late.
In total i vomited 3 times at the disco toilet.I kinda like the feeling after you vomit and you feel your blood pumping faster and your mind start to see thing more clearer and instead of feeling drunk,i felt much sober.Weird me I guess.Cab home at around 2am and after alighting the cab I vomit again.
Surprise to see mom still awake and she ask me where i been to.She did not really nag but she just say don go there often. Being a guy is not a bad thing after all.
Try to sleep but i could not.Keep turning around in bed and around 5am,had a stomachache.Was kinda surprise that my body still can shit out something out of my body after vomiting so much time.
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
Interview Wednesday
Wake up 10am in the morning to get myself prepare for the interview what is at 2pm.I know i am being a bit "kiasu",but i need time to find all my certificates and etc which i need for the interview.The hotel that i am going for this interview is located at Bugis which is the area I want to work for my attachment,But this hotel is not the first choice,but the second choice.Reason was that i am afraid of working in a big coporate company because of my past internship experience.Things may look glamour on the outside but what happen on the inside is unknown to the outside.
Went out at around 12pm to take a bus.Was kinda afraid and at the same time,i have this mentality of "it ok if i am not accepted cos this is not the hotel I want."In summary I would say the whole interview experience was the best,I was able to feel comfortable taking to both the staff and they are all very candid and was impress by the way i answer their question.I was kinda shock that they accept my internship request on the spot and give me until Friday to think about it.They did ask a question that i feel quite surprise which is what other hotel did I sent my internship request to and they did give me a choice if I want to answer the question a not.But I just answer it anyway.
Went to Bugis junction and bought another book by Adam Khoo again..."Master your mind design your destiny" was kind of hesitant because the book is really thick,but bought it anyway.
Went to hideout again to finish reading the previous book.Stay till 7pm plus before taking a train back home
Went out at around 12pm to take a bus.Was kinda afraid and at the same time,i have this mentality of "it ok if i am not accepted cos this is not the hotel I want."In summary I would say the whole interview experience was the best,I was able to feel comfortable taking to both the staff and they are all very candid and was impress by the way i answer their question.I was kinda shock that they accept my internship request on the spot and give me until Friday to think about it.They did ask a question that i feel quite surprise which is what other hotel did I sent my internship request to and they did give me a choice if I want to answer the question a not.But I just answer it anyway.
Went to Bugis junction and bought another book by Adam Khoo again..."Master your mind design your destiny" was kind of hesitant because the book is really thick,but bought it anyway.
Went to hideout again to finish reading the previous book.Stay till 7pm plus before taking a train back home
Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Workout Tuesday
Hi guys,if your have been reading my blog,you will notice the way i upload each post is every inconsistent.Reasons being is that i am always to lazy to write each day post and i want to recall what are the things I done and reflect on that day.
Really nothing much to each day,wasting each day doing some boring and useless stuff and getting lazier and lazier each day plus irregular eating diet.Really feel like a pig.
Went for CCA in the evening.Should not have miss last lesson as grading exam are like 3-4 week from now and i miss the basic that they learn last week.Really need to do some research about it. Seem like getting a double promotions is really not that easy and my legs are not helping me either.
Did some basic kick for like 2 hours plus and my lower body is aching.Should not have been such a lazy bum and not really excise in my secondary school day.So i guess,i need to work hard so that i can get what aim to get.
Really nothing much to each day,wasting each day doing some boring and useless stuff and getting lazier and lazier each day plus irregular eating diet.Really feel like a pig.
Went for CCA in the evening.Should not have miss last lesson as grading exam are like 3-4 week from now and i miss the basic that they learn last week.Really need to do some research about it. Seem like getting a double promotions is really not that easy and my legs are not helping me either.
Did some basic kick for like 2 hours plus and my lower body is aching.Should not have been such a lazy bum and not really excise in my secondary school day.So i guess,i need to work hard so that i can get what aim to get.
Monday, July 7, 2014
Thinking Monday
Thought of going to The Star today cos I thought that there might be a library nearby or a quiet cafe nearby so as to finish reading the book that i bough.But when i was there,I cannot find a library nearby,so I just did some window shopping.
Kinda bored after that and not knowing what to do,so i walk down to Singapore poly to take a bus to Ang Mo kio.Went to Zone X to play as i don want to go home as my home is literally a place that can make me feel very bored and really make me feel like not doing anything.
Went home after that,and bath and continue watching anime.Then suddenly i got the feel go browsing YouTube to listen to song and as i was looking for song,i come across this video about entrepreneur and i was like so curious so i decided to watch it.It was a hour plus video about Nicholas Tse.This video Kinda get lots of ideas from him and i really wish that i can be invited to this kind of talk and listen to Gen Y entrepreneur share their story and insight about business.
One thing that i really learn from this video is to do the things you like,things that you have passion about.This society,to me,have kinda f**k things up,by decided what area we should be studying base on our grade and not on our interest and passion.If you are a top student,you should be generally studying in laws,medical field and those top paying jobs,while those not that are not able to get good grade,you will generally study things that don get a good pay job.One good example is how our education system.If we were an O level student and we did not score well,student would tend to chose the lease favorite course rather that going ITE because of certain issue.
I am not trying to blame the society for this because we also have to part to play,if we don study well enough,it is oblivious that we will not get good result.But what I am trying to say is that is our education system fair??
Kinda bored after that and not knowing what to do,so i walk down to Singapore poly to take a bus to Ang Mo kio.Went to Zone X to play as i don want to go home as my home is literally a place that can make me feel very bored and really make me feel like not doing anything.
Went home after that,and bath and continue watching anime.Then suddenly i got the feel go browsing YouTube to listen to song and as i was looking for song,i come across this video about entrepreneur and i was like so curious so i decided to watch it.It was a hour plus video about Nicholas Tse.This video Kinda get lots of ideas from him and i really wish that i can be invited to this kind of talk and listen to Gen Y entrepreneur share their story and insight about business.
One thing that i really learn from this video is to do the things you like,things that you have passion about.This society,to me,have kinda f**k things up,by decided what area we should be studying base on our grade and not on our interest and passion.If you are a top student,you should be generally studying in laws,medical field and those top paying jobs,while those not that are not able to get good grade,you will generally study things that don get a good pay job.One good example is how our education system.If we were an O level student and we did not score well,student would tend to chose the lease favorite course rather that going ITE because of certain issue.
I am not trying to blame the society for this because we also have to part to play,if we don study well enough,it is oblivious that we will not get good result.But what I am trying to say is that is our education system fair??
Sunday, July 6, 2014
lifeless Sunday
Did not did anything much today.Did some social media hopping and found some "interesting" one i would say.In a sense that i saw my past shadow in someone,trying to use smoking as a way of numbing oneself from the reality of the world.
I remember when i start smoking at the age of 16,is because it was then "cool" for students to be smoking and look like a bad ass.So i began to steal my mom cigarette and bring it to school to smoke.Back then i was this group of students that will find different places in school to smoke.Guys will go girls toilet to smoke together,girls will go guys toilet to smoke together and lots of funny places that we have been to,just for the sake of smoking.I was lucky,many of those people always get caught and I was only caught once.
I still remember why i was caught..Back then the school have this dual recess system where by the sec 1,2,3 would go for the first recess and after they have finish,the sec 4 and 5 would go for the second recess.When i was in sec 5,most of the school gangster would already have graduated at N level and i was lucky to make it in to O level.So i was like the "so-call senior gangster" in the school and if i am not wrong I was the only guy in the upper sec that would dare and always have cigarettes cos i always steal from my mom to smoke.
Back to story,it was stressful for me in sec 5 cos i really suck at every subjects and i barely make it to sec 5,so I was kinda like wasting time in school and when common test come,i would then rush everything.
So during one day,I had maths lesson before recess and it was like 2 week before the common test and i was so stress up that i did not really have appetite that i went to toilet to smoke alone,so i went to the toilet behind the canteen as there as benches inside the toilet.I was so stress that i smoke another stick after finishing my first stick and halfway through,suddenly,someone open the toilet door and i saw my maths teacher outside the toilet and he saw me with a cigarette in my hand and in my mind, i was like "Oh SHIT*",but i guess he knew that i was very stress up,so he ask me to throw away the cigarette and did not report anything to the school.
Did continue to smoke after that incident but the thought of quit smoking come when I was coughing very badly and went to hospital for 3 day during the mid term exam and i mange to skip 2 papers.It was the second time i was admitted to hospital because of smoking and i thought to myself,if i were to continue,i might not be lucky again.So that was when i decided to quit smoking for good.
Looking back I realize the reason for me to smoke was to look cool in the first place but as i continue,it become a way of numbing myself from the stress.It was a stupid way I would say now,there are lots of ways to numb our self from stress and smoking or any way of hurting oneself is definitely NOT the way.You could do things you like,sports,shopping,talking to someone and etc. We might be young now to not the consequences but I can confidently say that you will regret when you grow up if you were to do stuffs that harm yourself.
I remember when i start smoking at the age of 16,is because it was then "cool" for students to be smoking and look like a bad ass.So i began to steal my mom cigarette and bring it to school to smoke.Back then i was this group of students that will find different places in school to smoke.Guys will go girls toilet to smoke together,girls will go guys toilet to smoke together and lots of funny places that we have been to,just for the sake of smoking.I was lucky,many of those people always get caught and I was only caught once.
I still remember why i was caught..Back then the school have this dual recess system where by the sec 1,2,3 would go for the first recess and after they have finish,the sec 4 and 5 would go for the second recess.When i was in sec 5,most of the school gangster would already have graduated at N level and i was lucky to make it in to O level.So i was like the "so-call senior gangster" in the school and if i am not wrong I was the only guy in the upper sec that would dare and always have cigarettes cos i always steal from my mom to smoke.
Back to story,it was stressful for me in sec 5 cos i really suck at every subjects and i barely make it to sec 5,so I was kinda like wasting time in school and when common test come,i would then rush everything.
So during one day,I had maths lesson before recess and it was like 2 week before the common test and i was so stress up that i did not really have appetite that i went to toilet to smoke alone,so i went to the toilet behind the canteen as there as benches inside the toilet.I was so stress that i smoke another stick after finishing my first stick and halfway through,suddenly,someone open the toilet door and i saw my maths teacher outside the toilet and he saw me with a cigarette in my hand and in my mind, i was like "Oh SHIT*",but i guess he knew that i was very stress up,so he ask me to throw away the cigarette and did not report anything to the school.
Did continue to smoke after that incident but the thought of quit smoking come when I was coughing very badly and went to hospital for 3 day during the mid term exam and i mange to skip 2 papers.It was the second time i was admitted to hospital because of smoking and i thought to myself,if i were to continue,i might not be lucky again.So that was when i decided to quit smoking for good.
Looking back I realize the reason for me to smoke was to look cool in the first place but as i continue,it become a way of numbing myself from the stress.It was a stupid way I would say now,there are lots of ways to numb our self from stress and smoking or any way of hurting oneself is definitely NOT the way.You could do things you like,sports,shopping,talking to someone and etc. We might be young now to not the consequences but I can confidently say that you will regret when you grow up if you were to do stuffs that harm yourself.
Saturday, July 5, 2014
Bored Saturday
Did the same shit again.Wake up,bath,eat,watch anime,eat,watch anime,eat,watch anime and sleep.Really bored.Short holidays are good but long holidays are really bored if you have nothing to do but to waste time doing boring stuff.
This long holiday really drain my motivation for etp project.But I can only wait as I need the money to start and find people to make it work.And I am kinda starting to wonder if i am able to successfully get the funds I need.All this waiting is really making me thinking to much.
Somehow i just wish i can have some money,so that i can get a nice DSLR camera and do some shoots to kill time.
This long holiday really drain my motivation for etp project.But I can only wait as I need the money to start and find people to make it work.And I am kinda starting to wonder if i am able to successfully get the funds I need.All this waiting is really making me thinking to much.
Somehow i just wish i can have some money,so that i can get a nice DSLR camera and do some shoots to kill time.
Friday, July 4, 2014
Animated Friday
Did nothing much except watching the anime "Attack On Titians".Always wonders why adults think that watch anime is a waste of time??I always see lots of knowledge and life value can be learn through anime.
Somehow the holiday is getting boring as i have run out of ideas to do and i am just wasting my time rotting at home doing nothings.Arrr.......
Thursday, July 3, 2014
Aimless Thursday
Went to Bugis to take a look at the different boutique hotels for my upcoming 6 months attachment.Hope that the boutique hotels would reply me as soon as possible.Need to secure a place soon.Hopefully the upcoming industry attachment will be nice and i will be able to learn how small hotel operate,reasons being that I hope that one day I can open my own unique chains of boutique hotel that is able to be of comparable standard with the international brand.
Bought the book "Secrets of building multi-million dollar businesses"by Adam Khoo.I am kinda interested in meeting him in person.
As funny as it might seem,I say that i want to have a simple life,but i always dream of one day,i will be able to own a boutique hotel chains,where i can live at different home every day,pretending to be like a tourist and interact with people/guests.
I also dream of owning a few night entertainment(Clubs,bars and etc.).I have never been to a club before,but i really like the feeling of getting myself drunk,enjoying loud party music and see pretty lady dancing/clubbing or etc.I mean which guy don like to see pretty babe dancing??
I also dream of owning a few theme cafe where i can work with young,innovative and creating people to find ways of managing it and making it the most popular cafe in Singapore.I have see new cafe concepts and i really like to try it in Singapore.
To be honest,I don really like to work for people as I have my own strong opinions and I would like to try and experiments new business ideas in Singapore.I always wonder why am I so into business idea and i think the reason is because I understand financial freedom at a young age and what it can do and I like to gamble with the unknown and the feeling of knowing you can win or lose in the next instant.
Bought the book "Secrets of building multi-million dollar businesses"by Adam Khoo.I am kinda interested in meeting him in person.
As funny as it might seem,I say that i want to have a simple life,but i always dream of one day,i will be able to own a boutique hotel chains,where i can live at different home every day,pretending to be like a tourist and interact with people/guests.
I also dream of owning a few night entertainment(Clubs,bars and etc.).I have never been to a club before,but i really like the feeling of getting myself drunk,enjoying loud party music and see pretty lady dancing/clubbing or etc.I mean which guy don like to see pretty babe dancing??
I also dream of owning a few theme cafe where i can work with young,innovative and creating people to find ways of managing it and making it the most popular cafe in Singapore.I have see new cafe concepts and i really like to try it in Singapore.
To be honest,I don really like to work for people as I have my own strong opinions and I would like to try and experiments new business ideas in Singapore.I always wonder why am I so into business idea and i think the reason is because I understand financial freedom at a young age and what it can do and I like to gamble with the unknown and the feeling of knowing you can win or lose in the next instant.
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
50 facts of me.
Decided to do this special edition post as a way to show the real me in front of everybody.So here is goes.
1-->Real name & nickname
Ans: Tan Wei Qing aka vental aka ven
2-->.Meaning of nickname
Ans: I wanted my nickname to have some meaning and the word "Ventilation" came into my my mind and subsequently the word "vental" was created and my definition of my nickname is air.
3-->3 Fears I have
Ans:Flying insects,height and public speaking
4-->3 Things i like
Ans: Freedom,traveling and exploring new place or things
5-->Favourite songs genre
Ans:Songs that related to love
6-->Am i a smoker
Ans:Used to but quited,but sometime when i feel so numb in life,i would just smoke a few sticks.
7-->3 good habit i have
Ans:Exercise regularly,Sleep more that 8 hours per day and being real
8-->3 bad habit i have
Ans:Being emotion easily,glue to my ipad and often gamble with the unknown
9-->3 Things that i lied about
Ans: I kinda only lie to people to joke with them or just basic white lie
10-->Tattoo or piercing
Ans:Nil.
11-->Favorite quote
Ans:To many to list down
12-->Favorite Sports
Ans:All water sports.Even though i have not try all the water sport but i really like to do stuffs on water
13-->Hardest things i ever done.
Ans:Setting a goal in life and aiming to achieve it.
14-->Miss most about being a kid
Ans:Nobody tell me that "its impossible"
15-->Things that can get me excited
Ans:Financial freedom,traveling and exploring
16-->Things that can get me nervous
Ans:Public speaking and looking at pretty girl right in the eye
17-->Introvert or extrovert,why
Ans:Depend on who i am with
18-->Last time you drank
Ans:Few weeks ago during a ex class chalet
19-->Dream vacations
Ans:Places that is near the ocean,sea or beach
20-->Favorite fruits
Ans:All sour fruits
21-->Are you a sensitive person
Ans:Maybe
22->Favorite cartoon
Ans:Is One piece consider a cartoon??
23-->One scar on your body and how did you get it
Ans:Right in the middle of my forehead,my mom told me that when i was like 1 years old plus,i try to climb out of the room that is block by wooden block, and i fall right from the top of the wooden block and i hit my head on some metal thing on the door.
24-->Favorite Hideout spot
Ans:Changi Airport T3 viewing mall
25-->Favorite food
Ans:Spicy foods
26-->Favorite style of clothing
Ans:Simple,versatile and comfortable.(e.g slipper,jeans and t- shirt)
27-->Favorite color
Ans:Purple
28-->Sweet or salted popcorn
Ans:Salted popcorn cos it can make me stay awake during boring movie
29-->Things that you have steal before
Ans:Money from my mom when i was in primary school
30-->First concert that you attend
Ans:Mnet Sinagpore
31-->Things that you wanted to do but never did
Ans:Get into a romantic relationship
32-->One sport that you would like to learn
Ans:Wind Sailing
33-->One language that you would like to learn
Ans:Italitian
34-->One skill that you would like to acquire
Ans: Guns shooting skills
35-->Magazine that you subscibe to
Ans:Wine and Dine and Amagram
35-->Are you a social person
Ans:Depend on situations
36-->How many pillow you sleep with
Ans:3 pillows and 1 bolster
37-->Where do you think you will end up at 10 years from now
Ans:Leading a simple life in Singapore
38-->Describe your personality
Ans:Quite fck up i think
39-->Current mood
Ans:Mixed emotions
40-->A ability that you have
Ans:6 out of 10 of my dreams will happen like in real life like deja vu
41-->One mistake you keep repeating and repeating
Ans:Alway Thinking too much
42-->Would you be a lonely genius or social idiot
Ans:Lonely genius,i like to be real
43-->Can you live without internet for a week
Ans:Depend
44-->Are you a starter,implementer or finisher
Ans:A bit of all the 3
45-->What is you purpose in life
Ans:To explore the world
46-->What are the things that will made you bored
Ans:Nothing to Do
47-->One dream that you remember and why
Ans:Getting knock down by a van because i saw the whole incident in my dream before it happen
48-->Something that most people don know
Ans:I like to observe people before getting to know them them.Don be fool by my quiet appearance.I have many "Hidden-sides"
49-->Biggest regret
Ans:Getting go of some friendship during my secondary school life
50-->Anyone that read this post is allow to ask me 3 questions and i will need to answer truthfully.
ask.fm/vental_ I will answer straight to the point,no beat about the bush answer.
1-->Real name & nickname
Ans: Tan Wei Qing aka vental aka ven
2-->.Meaning of nickname
Ans: I wanted my nickname to have some meaning and the word "Ventilation" came into my my mind and subsequently the word "vental" was created and my definition of my nickname is air.
3-->3 Fears I have
Ans:Flying insects,height and public speaking
4-->3 Things i like
Ans: Freedom,traveling and exploring new place or things
5-->Favourite songs genre
Ans:Songs that related to love
6-->Am i a smoker
Ans:Used to but quited,but sometime when i feel so numb in life,i would just smoke a few sticks.
7-->3 good habit i have
Ans:Exercise regularly,Sleep more that 8 hours per day and being real
8-->3 bad habit i have
Ans:Being emotion easily,glue to my ipad and often gamble with the unknown
9-->3 Things that i lied about
Ans: I kinda only lie to people to joke with them or just basic white lie
10-->Tattoo or piercing
Ans:Nil.
11-->Favorite quote
Ans:To many to list down
12-->Favorite Sports
Ans:All water sports.Even though i have not try all the water sport but i really like to do stuffs on water
13-->Hardest things i ever done.
Ans:Setting a goal in life and aiming to achieve it.
14-->Miss most about being a kid
Ans:Nobody tell me that "its impossible"
15-->Things that can get me excited
Ans:Financial freedom,traveling and exploring
16-->Things that can get me nervous
Ans:Public speaking and looking at pretty girl right in the eye
17-->Introvert or extrovert,why
Ans:Depend on who i am with
18-->Last time you drank
Ans:Few weeks ago during a ex class chalet
19-->Dream vacations
Ans:Places that is near the ocean,sea or beach
20-->Favorite fruits
Ans:All sour fruits
21-->Are you a sensitive person
Ans:Maybe
22->Favorite cartoon
Ans:Is One piece consider a cartoon??
23-->One scar on your body and how did you get it
Ans:Right in the middle of my forehead,my mom told me that when i was like 1 years old plus,i try to climb out of the room that is block by wooden block, and i fall right from the top of the wooden block and i hit my head on some metal thing on the door.
24-->Favorite Hideout spot
Ans:Changi Airport T3 viewing mall
25-->Favorite food
Ans:Spicy foods
26-->Favorite style of clothing
Ans:Simple,versatile and comfortable.(e.g slipper,jeans and t- shirt)
27-->Favorite color
Ans:Purple
28-->Sweet or salted popcorn
Ans:Salted popcorn cos it can make me stay awake during boring movie
29-->Things that you have steal before
Ans:Money from my mom when i was in primary school
30-->First concert that you attend
Ans:Mnet Sinagpore
31-->Things that you wanted to do but never did
Ans:Get into a romantic relationship
32-->One sport that you would like to learn
Ans:Wind Sailing
33-->One language that you would like to learn
Ans:Italitian
34-->One skill that you would like to acquire
Ans: Guns shooting skills
35-->Magazine that you subscibe to
Ans:Wine and Dine and Amagram
35-->Are you a social person
Ans:Depend on situations
36-->How many pillow you sleep with
Ans:3 pillows and 1 bolster
37-->Where do you think you will end up at 10 years from now
Ans:Leading a simple life in Singapore
38-->Describe your personality
Ans:Quite fck up i think
39-->Current mood
Ans:Mixed emotions
40-->A ability that you have
Ans:6 out of 10 of my dreams will happen like in real life like deja vu
41-->One mistake you keep repeating and repeating
Ans:Alway Thinking too much
42-->Would you be a lonely genius or social idiot
Ans:Lonely genius,i like to be real
43-->Can you live without internet for a week
Ans:Depend
44-->Are you a starter,implementer or finisher
Ans:A bit of all the 3
45-->What is you purpose in life
Ans:To explore the world
46-->What are the things that will made you bored
Ans:Nothing to Do
47-->One dream that you remember and why
Ans:Getting knock down by a van because i saw the whole incident in my dream before it happen
48-->Something that most people don know
Ans:I like to observe people before getting to know them them.Don be fool by my quiet appearance.I have many "Hidden-sides"
49-->Biggest regret
Ans:Getting go of some friendship during my secondary school life
50-->Anyone that read this post is allow to ask me 3 questions and i will need to answer truthfully.
ask.fm/vental_ I will answer straight to the point,no beat about the bush answer.
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Dizzy Tuesday
Woke up at around 12pm,which mean i sleep for about 11 hours and i still feel darm giddy.Saw my phone and some of my classmate is going to watch movie,so i decided to tag along.
Was on the train and i receive a message for a senior from my CCA and i then realize that today was Tuesday and not Monday.Decided to skip CCA for once.
Went to Scape to meet them and had Aston for lunch,but it was "Breakfast" for me since i did not eat anything from morning till now.Kinda surprise to receive souvenir from someone.
Went to watch the movie "Jump street 22" at Cineleisure and went down to Serangoon Garden for dinner and after that we went to Udders at my village.Halfway through the dinner at garden,i suddenly feel like puking so i decided not to continue eating anymore and keep drinking the sugar cane water.
Went back at around 10pm+
Was on the train and i receive a message for a senior from my CCA and i then realize that today was Tuesday and not Monday.Decided to skip CCA for once.
Went to Scape to meet them and had Aston for lunch,but it was "Breakfast" for me since i did not eat anything from morning till now.Kinda surprise to receive souvenir from someone.
Went to watch the movie "Jump street 22" at Cineleisure and went down to Serangoon Garden for dinner and after that we went to Udders at my village.Halfway through the dinner at garden,i suddenly feel like puking so i decided not to continue eating anymore and keep drinking the sugar cane water.
Went back at around 10pm+
Sickish Monday
Woke up early due to stomachache and nausea.Did not know why it happen.Have no appetite for breakfast.Having this nausea feeling,stomachache,dizziness and tired all day long.Been a while since i feel so sick.I am literary falling into sleep anytime.
Dad book a cab to bring us on a tour and we went to Penang hill,some local products shop and again we spent most of the time in the car us both my parent as lazy to walk and i am like half dead in the car.
After the tour,my family went for foot massage while i was sleeping at the waiting area at the shop.Fall asleep the moment i close my eye and by the time i woke up,which is about 1 hour plus,my head was like even more dizzy than how i feel in the morning.
Took a cab to the airport.The plane took of at around 9.50pm and reach Singapore at around 11.20pm.I wanted to go back home quickly my my mom and dad was talking their sweet time walking slowly at the airport and shopping at the duty free shop and we only took the cab from the airport at 12am.Reach home about 20 minutes later.Took a bath and went to sleep straight away with my bolster.
I would say this whole "travel disappearing act" was a super fail one as right from the first day i was already stalking someone on the social media.I also on my phone to see if there any message but there was none.But during this trip,i found out the answer i am looking for.
I thought that as long as i try,perharp i would have a chance.But i failed to realize that we are two different type of people.I don know your past and you haven see the dark side of me.We totally have nothing in common and i don know how to start a conversation with you or entertain you and make you feel happy.I feel jealous when guys can make you happy just by talking to you and i will try to stalk you social media and wanting to know badly how you are doing each day.I really wish to know what you are thinking.
Dad book a cab to bring us on a tour and we went to Penang hill,some local products shop and again we spent most of the time in the car us both my parent as lazy to walk and i am like half dead in the car.
After the tour,my family went for foot massage while i was sleeping at the waiting area at the shop.Fall asleep the moment i close my eye and by the time i woke up,which is about 1 hour plus,my head was like even more dizzy than how i feel in the morning.
Took a cab to the airport.The plane took of at around 9.50pm and reach Singapore at around 11.20pm.I wanted to go back home quickly my my mom and dad was talking their sweet time walking slowly at the airport and shopping at the duty free shop and we only took the cab from the airport at 12am.Reach home about 20 minutes later.Took a bath and went to sleep straight away with my bolster.
I would say this whole "travel disappearing act" was a super fail one as right from the first day i was already stalking someone on the social media.I also on my phone to see if there any message but there was none.But during this trip,i found out the answer i am looking for.
I thought that as long as i try,perharp i would have a chance.But i failed to realize that we are two different type of people.I don know your past and you haven see the dark side of me.We totally have nothing in common and i don know how to start a conversation with you or entertain you and make you feel happy.I feel jealous when guys can make you happy just by talking to you and i will try to stalk you social media and wanting to know badly how you are doing each day.I really wish to know what you are thinking.
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