Back Again.(Hopefully can still keep that motivation)

Current status update

.Working (PT/FT)?? --Ended internship about 1 month back and might consider getting a PT job.

(A photo of internship place and my job scope is basically reservation staff, operator, receptionist, kopi kia.)






.Whats next (Poly/NS)??-- Hopefully can defer NS but my poly still haven sent me my enroll pack :(

(Not really the course i wanted and my deferment is still pending )

.Doing what now?? Slacking and lazying around at home and play Maplestory. (yar i know it lame)

(Yar i know its a lame game but i still find the characters cute and there are also new jobs and skills)











.Travel to anywhere during holiday?? Nope,just been to Malaysia twice with my bother and his friends and with my mom and her friends.

7 April
(Impromptu went to Malaysia with my brother and his friend after their dental appointment and by coincident i met a lady that never thought i would meet again.In fact this is not the first time i met her after so long.I still remember i once meet her on an MRT and she was playing with her phone so i guess she never saw me. But somehow whenever I met her again,i would want to go up and apologize to her but then i don have the guts to do what i suppose to done a long time back.

9 April
(Took this photo while having ba ku teh lunch near Malaysia,Sentosa plaza. This was kinda memorable because the last time i  been to the restaurant,something happen and somehow, i regretted a bit.)


So ya those are the few update since i last post.So wanted to restart blogging back after internship but then i have always been lazy and i cannot continue what i started.

Somehow this weekend have been kinda "weird" for me.For those who don know,i have now been to church more often then i used to. Not wanting to say anything to religious here by somehow i believe God have answer my prayer in some part of my life problems and reminding me of some stuffs that i might have "forgotten".

Sometimes i really wonder if I have put up so many "fake masks" that i am beginning to forget who i really am and it kinda felt that i am have some "identity crisis" problems.I am not trying to get attention or sympathy but honestly some part of me want to be like "famous influencer" , " teenage entrepreneur", "excelling in sports", "awesome drummer" and much  much more.

Have to admit i will feel jealous when people can do the things that i want do.I don really want the "fame and glamour" because when you are famous,you don really know who are your really friends and who are just trying to take advantage of you. I admit that i have low self stem and i need something to fill that empty void.

Will update again.so stay tune. 

Disclamer !! Photo are taken from Google!!