Kinda excited that school is starting today.But somehow all the things look unfamiliar to me.Those classmates and lecture.Perhaps I am did not really socialize with them during he first term and after a long holiday,and now when I see everyone,they looks very unfamiliar.
I really want to try socializing with them but,I would say they have their own group and I am not very comfortable in showing my "true self" to them.Something might be funny to me,but to some of them,they might not like it.
I am like a wondering soul in the class,unless someone come over to talk to me,I will not really take the initiative to talk to them.Rather that saying I am a loner,I would think myself as a carefree person looking for like mind people whom we can really "play,joke and work hard in study together". I mean life is about the way you live.Play harder,work smarter.
Lost the motivation to go for gym and etc.Perhaps my body still need time for adjustment.Phase test is nearby and haven really revise anything during the holiday.
I really feel happy when the lecture announce the I have the highest score among my class group,but I was disappointed that I cannot get the highest in class.Not saying I am greedy but I really want to get a good GPA for this course and I want to try to score the highest each time.Because of this aim and challenge,it motivate me to go to school and pay attention in class,if not I will be just going to class each day to waste time.
I really love challenge and I am that kind of person that alway like to win and wanting to push myself each time.I alway have this idea of push my body and mind to its limit and just collapse(fainting).
Monday, July 14, 2014
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Excited Sunday
Finally school is starting tomorrow.Body clock kinda screw up.
After reading so much book,i found that those "core ideas and the "know how"" has alway been the same since the start of 20 century and many people have been sharing it but in a different ways.I alway want to try doing things differently and always ended up failing in every attempt.
"Don't try to reinvent the wheel"
Finally understand why people alway told me this.But I guess it is a blessing that I can experiment with ideas at a age and mistake don come with a hefty price.
As I continue reading the book "Master your mind,design your destiny",found some of the content is same as some books I read before.Not to boast anything but rather I was kinda surprise the core ideas were so similar is like the a summery of my experience so far.Found some answers I am looking for.To be honest,I actually already have the answer but I am to wishy-washy.
Sometime we need to get go off certain things,not because you want to but you need to.Not sure if I am able to so,or long long it will take,but one day I will.
After reading so much book,i found that those "core ideas and the "know how"" has alway been the same since the start of 20 century and many people have been sharing it but in a different ways.I alway want to try doing things differently and always ended up failing in every attempt.
"Don't try to reinvent the wheel"
Finally understand why people alway told me this.But I guess it is a blessing that I can experiment with ideas at a age and mistake don come with a hefty price.
As I continue reading the book "Master your mind,design your destiny",found some of the content is same as some books I read before.Not to boast anything but rather I was kinda surprise the core ideas were so similar is like the a summery of my experience so far.Found some answers I am looking for.To be honest,I actually already have the answer but I am to wishy-washy.
Sometime we need to get go off certain things,not because you want to but you need to.Not sure if I am able to so,or long long it will take,but one day I will.
Saturday, July 12, 2014
Reflect Saturday
Wow finally holidays are ending.I guess I will be the only one that is happy that school are starting soon.Finally got some stuffs to do so that I will not be bored.Really hope that I get the funds I need for my project,if not I will borrow from my parents I guess.Dead serious in getting stuff done.
Yesterday was kind of drowsy and sleepy.I think is due to the after effect of the alcohol.But after 1 day of sobering,I kind of apperception lots of things.I once heard people say,it only when you are drunk,you will know your true self.
And I would say I get a different perceptions of things after reading so much book and after yesterday incident.Without realization,it been almost 3 years.I am still the same stubborn me.Loss more that I gain. Trying to be nice and people tend to take advantage.Wondering if the choices I made have turn me into someone who is weak.Sometime I would wonder why is it those "f**k up bros" in my past have so much things in common that people I am with.No matter what happen,they will still help you even if you don need as long as it not illegal.Those "brotherhood shit" in the movie are the kind of bond we have.Perhaps maybe we are all guys and "pride" and "face" meant so much more.
As we move along in life,we kind of drift and got new "bros" but I wonder how many will still remember those time we share.
Friday, July 11, 2014
Eating Friday
Woke up at 12pm to prepare to go out to have brunch with my mom and my grandmom at Bugis.
The bunch was great and the place was really not crowded despite being Friday.Had lot of cheap slich beefs.I really like to have slice beef what is being "grill" till dried and the taste of the beef is like barbecue meat.
Went home after that and continue watching anime for the whole day.
Yup i know,my life is boring.
The bunch was great and the place was really not crowded despite being Friday.Had lot of cheap slich beefs.I really like to have slice beef what is being "grill" till dried and the taste of the beef is like barbecue meat.
Went home after that and continue watching anime for the whole day.
Yup i know,my life is boring.
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Irritated Thursday
Went for another interview today.Was not really feel well and was a bit sleepy and the place is at Sentosa.So in summary of the interview for today,was not really feeling comfortable with talking to the staff and i was like giving crappy answer to annoy her also,i guess.Was kinda irritated by her way of answering when i was ask her a situation based question and she kinda explain to me how that will never happen...She told me to wait for a week and she will notify the interview result,which i already know the result of the interview.She was kind enough to sent me to the shutter bus area,but then i was kinda bored so I went to take the tram instead.
Had plan to meet up with some classmate to do some project stuffs at 6pm and not wanting to go back home,I just roam around and finally I just went to Bugis instead.Went to arcade to play before heading to McDonald to have a drink and read my book.
Head to The Cathay next and the mac was a bit too noisy and i know that popeye at Cathay would be a better place as not much people would go there during weekday and it is also near to the place where i will be meet my classmate later on.
Had dinner at Plaza Sing.and to cut short about what happen,we did not have the motivation to do the project so they decided to go Planet Paradise,a thai disco.Was kinda early so we went to shop around orchard before cabbing down to disco.
First time been to disco.Was not really crowded as it was Thursday i guess.Then we order a tower of beer and after a while,some thai lady approach our table and talk to us and one of my classmate decided to tell them i was first time there and they start to talk to me.Was kinda uncomfortable a they was like try to "touch" you so that you can "buy flower" for them.Did not really want to spend extra money so I did not buy for them.Mom did call me and I told her i will be back home late.
In total i vomited 3 times at the disco toilet.I kinda like the feeling after you vomit and you feel your blood pumping faster and your mind start to see thing more clearer and instead of feeling drunk,i felt much sober.Weird me I guess.Cab home at around 2am and after alighting the cab I vomit again.
Surprise to see mom still awake and she ask me where i been to.She did not really nag but she just say don go there often. Being a guy is not a bad thing after all.
Try to sleep but i could not.Keep turning around in bed and around 5am,had a stomachache.Was kinda surprise that my body still can shit out something out of my body after vomiting so much time.
Had plan to meet up with some classmate to do some project stuffs at 6pm and not wanting to go back home,I just roam around and finally I just went to Bugis instead.Went to arcade to play before heading to McDonald to have a drink and read my book.
Head to The Cathay next and the mac was a bit too noisy and i know that popeye at Cathay would be a better place as not much people would go there during weekday and it is also near to the place where i will be meet my classmate later on.
Had dinner at Plaza Sing.and to cut short about what happen,we did not have the motivation to do the project so they decided to go Planet Paradise,a thai disco.Was kinda early so we went to shop around orchard before cabbing down to disco.
First time been to disco.Was not really crowded as it was Thursday i guess.Then we order a tower of beer and after a while,some thai lady approach our table and talk to us and one of my classmate decided to tell them i was first time there and they start to talk to me.Was kinda uncomfortable a they was like try to "touch" you so that you can "buy flower" for them.Did not really want to spend extra money so I did not buy for them.Mom did call me and I told her i will be back home late.
In total i vomited 3 times at the disco toilet.I kinda like the feeling after you vomit and you feel your blood pumping faster and your mind start to see thing more clearer and instead of feeling drunk,i felt much sober.Weird me I guess.Cab home at around 2am and after alighting the cab I vomit again.
Surprise to see mom still awake and she ask me where i been to.She did not really nag but she just say don go there often. Being a guy is not a bad thing after all.
Try to sleep but i could not.Keep turning around in bed and around 5am,had a stomachache.Was kinda surprise that my body still can shit out something out of my body after vomiting so much time.
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
Interview Wednesday
Wake up 10am in the morning to get myself prepare for the interview what is at 2pm.I know i am being a bit "kiasu",but i need time to find all my certificates and etc which i need for the interview.The hotel that i am going for this interview is located at Bugis which is the area I want to work for my attachment,But this hotel is not the first choice,but the second choice.Reason was that i am afraid of working in a big coporate company because of my past internship experience.Things may look glamour on the outside but what happen on the inside is unknown to the outside.
Went out at around 12pm to take a bus.Was kinda afraid and at the same time,i have this mentality of "it ok if i am not accepted cos this is not the hotel I want."In summary I would say the whole interview experience was the best,I was able to feel comfortable taking to both the staff and they are all very candid and was impress by the way i answer their question.I was kinda shock that they accept my internship request on the spot and give me until Friday to think about it.They did ask a question that i feel quite surprise which is what other hotel did I sent my internship request to and they did give me a choice if I want to answer the question a not.But I just answer it anyway.
Went to Bugis junction and bought another book by Adam Khoo again..."Master your mind design your destiny" was kind of hesitant because the book is really thick,but bought it anyway.
Went to hideout again to finish reading the previous book.Stay till 7pm plus before taking a train back home
Went out at around 12pm to take a bus.Was kinda afraid and at the same time,i have this mentality of "it ok if i am not accepted cos this is not the hotel I want."In summary I would say the whole interview experience was the best,I was able to feel comfortable taking to both the staff and they are all very candid and was impress by the way i answer their question.I was kinda shock that they accept my internship request on the spot and give me until Friday to think about it.They did ask a question that i feel quite surprise which is what other hotel did I sent my internship request to and they did give me a choice if I want to answer the question a not.But I just answer it anyway.
Went to Bugis junction and bought another book by Adam Khoo again..."Master your mind design your destiny" was kind of hesitant because the book is really thick,but bought it anyway.
Went to hideout again to finish reading the previous book.Stay till 7pm plus before taking a train back home
Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Workout Tuesday
Hi guys,if your have been reading my blog,you will notice the way i upload each post is every inconsistent.Reasons being is that i am always to lazy to write each day post and i want to recall what are the things I done and reflect on that day.
Really nothing much to each day,wasting each day doing some boring and useless stuff and getting lazier and lazier each day plus irregular eating diet.Really feel like a pig.
Went for CCA in the evening.Should not have miss last lesson as grading exam are like 3-4 week from now and i miss the basic that they learn last week.Really need to do some research about it. Seem like getting a double promotions is really not that easy and my legs are not helping me either.
Did some basic kick for like 2 hours plus and my lower body is aching.Should not have been such a lazy bum and not really excise in my secondary school day.So i guess,i need to work hard so that i can get what aim to get.
Really nothing much to each day,wasting each day doing some boring and useless stuff and getting lazier and lazier each day plus irregular eating diet.Really feel like a pig.
Went for CCA in the evening.Should not have miss last lesson as grading exam are like 3-4 week from now and i miss the basic that they learn last week.Really need to do some research about it. Seem like getting a double promotions is really not that easy and my legs are not helping me either.
Did some basic kick for like 2 hours plus and my lower body is aching.Should not have been such a lazy bum and not really excise in my secondary school day.So i guess,i need to work hard so that i can get what aim to get.
Monday, July 7, 2014
Thinking Monday
Thought of going to The Star today cos I thought that there might be a library nearby or a quiet cafe nearby so as to finish reading the book that i bough.But when i was there,I cannot find a library nearby,so I just did some window shopping.
Kinda bored after that and not knowing what to do,so i walk down to Singapore poly to take a bus to Ang Mo kio.Went to Zone X to play as i don want to go home as my home is literally a place that can make me feel very bored and really make me feel like not doing anything.
Went home after that,and bath and continue watching anime.Then suddenly i got the feel go browsing YouTube to listen to song and as i was looking for song,i come across this video about entrepreneur and i was like so curious so i decided to watch it.It was a hour plus video about Nicholas Tse.This video Kinda get lots of ideas from him and i really wish that i can be invited to this kind of talk and listen to Gen Y entrepreneur share their story and insight about business.
One thing that i really learn from this video is to do the things you like,things that you have passion about.This society,to me,have kinda f**k things up,by decided what area we should be studying base on our grade and not on our interest and passion.If you are a top student,you should be generally studying in laws,medical field and those top paying jobs,while those not that are not able to get good grade,you will generally study things that don get a good pay job.One good example is how our education system.If we were an O level student and we did not score well,student would tend to chose the lease favorite course rather that going ITE because of certain issue.
I am not trying to blame the society for this because we also have to part to play,if we don study well enough,it is oblivious that we will not get good result.But what I am trying to say is that is our education system fair??
Kinda bored after that and not knowing what to do,so i walk down to Singapore poly to take a bus to Ang Mo kio.Went to Zone X to play as i don want to go home as my home is literally a place that can make me feel very bored and really make me feel like not doing anything.
Went home after that,and bath and continue watching anime.Then suddenly i got the feel go browsing YouTube to listen to song and as i was looking for song,i come across this video about entrepreneur and i was like so curious so i decided to watch it.It was a hour plus video about Nicholas Tse.This video Kinda get lots of ideas from him and i really wish that i can be invited to this kind of talk and listen to Gen Y entrepreneur share their story and insight about business.
One thing that i really learn from this video is to do the things you like,things that you have passion about.This society,to me,have kinda f**k things up,by decided what area we should be studying base on our grade and not on our interest and passion.If you are a top student,you should be generally studying in laws,medical field and those top paying jobs,while those not that are not able to get good grade,you will generally study things that don get a good pay job.One good example is how our education system.If we were an O level student and we did not score well,student would tend to chose the lease favorite course rather that going ITE because of certain issue.
I am not trying to blame the society for this because we also have to part to play,if we don study well enough,it is oblivious that we will not get good result.But what I am trying to say is that is our education system fair??
Sunday, July 6, 2014
lifeless Sunday
Did not did anything much today.Did some social media hopping and found some "interesting" one i would say.In a sense that i saw my past shadow in someone,trying to use smoking as a way of numbing oneself from the reality of the world.
I remember when i start smoking at the age of 16,is because it was then "cool" for students to be smoking and look like a bad ass.So i began to steal my mom cigarette and bring it to school to smoke.Back then i was this group of students that will find different places in school to smoke.Guys will go girls toilet to smoke together,girls will go guys toilet to smoke together and lots of funny places that we have been to,just for the sake of smoking.I was lucky,many of those people always get caught and I was only caught once.
I still remember why i was caught..Back then the school have this dual recess system where by the sec 1,2,3 would go for the first recess and after they have finish,the sec 4 and 5 would go for the second recess.When i was in sec 5,most of the school gangster would already have graduated at N level and i was lucky to make it in to O level.So i was like the "so-call senior gangster" in the school and if i am not wrong I was the only guy in the upper sec that would dare and always have cigarettes cos i always steal from my mom to smoke.
Back to story,it was stressful for me in sec 5 cos i really suck at every subjects and i barely make it to sec 5,so I was kinda like wasting time in school and when common test come,i would then rush everything.
So during one day,I had maths lesson before recess and it was like 2 week before the common test and i was so stress up that i did not really have appetite that i went to toilet to smoke alone,so i went to the toilet behind the canteen as there as benches inside the toilet.I was so stress that i smoke another stick after finishing my first stick and halfway through,suddenly,someone open the toilet door and i saw my maths teacher outside the toilet and he saw me with a cigarette in my hand and in my mind, i was like "Oh SHIT*",but i guess he knew that i was very stress up,so he ask me to throw away the cigarette and did not report anything to the school.
Did continue to smoke after that incident but the thought of quit smoking come when I was coughing very badly and went to hospital for 3 day during the mid term exam and i mange to skip 2 papers.It was the second time i was admitted to hospital because of smoking and i thought to myself,if i were to continue,i might not be lucky again.So that was when i decided to quit smoking for good.
Looking back I realize the reason for me to smoke was to look cool in the first place but as i continue,it become a way of numbing myself from the stress.It was a stupid way I would say now,there are lots of ways to numb our self from stress and smoking or any way of hurting oneself is definitely NOT the way.You could do things you like,sports,shopping,talking to someone and etc. We might be young now to not the consequences but I can confidently say that you will regret when you grow up if you were to do stuffs that harm yourself.
I remember when i start smoking at the age of 16,is because it was then "cool" for students to be smoking and look like a bad ass.So i began to steal my mom cigarette and bring it to school to smoke.Back then i was this group of students that will find different places in school to smoke.Guys will go girls toilet to smoke together,girls will go guys toilet to smoke together and lots of funny places that we have been to,just for the sake of smoking.I was lucky,many of those people always get caught and I was only caught once.
I still remember why i was caught..Back then the school have this dual recess system where by the sec 1,2,3 would go for the first recess and after they have finish,the sec 4 and 5 would go for the second recess.When i was in sec 5,most of the school gangster would already have graduated at N level and i was lucky to make it in to O level.So i was like the "so-call senior gangster" in the school and if i am not wrong I was the only guy in the upper sec that would dare and always have cigarettes cos i always steal from my mom to smoke.
Back to story,it was stressful for me in sec 5 cos i really suck at every subjects and i barely make it to sec 5,so I was kinda like wasting time in school and when common test come,i would then rush everything.
So during one day,I had maths lesson before recess and it was like 2 week before the common test and i was so stress up that i did not really have appetite that i went to toilet to smoke alone,so i went to the toilet behind the canteen as there as benches inside the toilet.I was so stress that i smoke another stick after finishing my first stick and halfway through,suddenly,someone open the toilet door and i saw my maths teacher outside the toilet and he saw me with a cigarette in my hand and in my mind, i was like "Oh SHIT*",but i guess he knew that i was very stress up,so he ask me to throw away the cigarette and did not report anything to the school.
Did continue to smoke after that incident but the thought of quit smoking come when I was coughing very badly and went to hospital for 3 day during the mid term exam and i mange to skip 2 papers.It was the second time i was admitted to hospital because of smoking and i thought to myself,if i were to continue,i might not be lucky again.So that was when i decided to quit smoking for good.
Looking back I realize the reason for me to smoke was to look cool in the first place but as i continue,it become a way of numbing myself from the stress.It was a stupid way I would say now,there are lots of ways to numb our self from stress and smoking or any way of hurting oneself is definitely NOT the way.You could do things you like,sports,shopping,talking to someone and etc. We might be young now to not the consequences but I can confidently say that you will regret when you grow up if you were to do stuffs that harm yourself.
Saturday, July 5, 2014
Bored Saturday
Did the same shit again.Wake up,bath,eat,watch anime,eat,watch anime,eat,watch anime and sleep.Really bored.Short holidays are good but long holidays are really bored if you have nothing to do but to waste time doing boring stuff.
This long holiday really drain my motivation for etp project.But I can only wait as I need the money to start and find people to make it work.And I am kinda starting to wonder if i am able to successfully get the funds I need.All this waiting is really making me thinking to much.
Somehow i just wish i can have some money,so that i can get a nice DSLR camera and do some shoots to kill time.
This long holiday really drain my motivation for etp project.But I can only wait as I need the money to start and find people to make it work.And I am kinda starting to wonder if i am able to successfully get the funds I need.All this waiting is really making me thinking to much.
Somehow i just wish i can have some money,so that i can get a nice DSLR camera and do some shoots to kill time.
Friday, July 4, 2014
Animated Friday
Did nothing much except watching the anime "Attack On Titians".Always wonders why adults think that watch anime is a waste of time??I always see lots of knowledge and life value can be learn through anime.
Somehow the holiday is getting boring as i have run out of ideas to do and i am just wasting my time rotting at home doing nothings.Arrr.......
Thursday, July 3, 2014
Aimless Thursday
Went to Bugis to take a look at the different boutique hotels for my upcoming 6 months attachment.Hope that the boutique hotels would reply me as soon as possible.Need to secure a place soon.Hopefully the upcoming industry attachment will be nice and i will be able to learn how small hotel operate,reasons being that I hope that one day I can open my own unique chains of boutique hotel that is able to be of comparable standard with the international brand.
Bought the book "Secrets of building multi-million dollar businesses"by Adam Khoo.I am kinda interested in meeting him in person.
As funny as it might seem,I say that i want to have a simple life,but i always dream of one day,i will be able to own a boutique hotel chains,where i can live at different home every day,pretending to be like a tourist and interact with people/guests.
I also dream of owning a few night entertainment(Clubs,bars and etc.).I have never been to a club before,but i really like the feeling of getting myself drunk,enjoying loud party music and see pretty lady dancing/clubbing or etc.I mean which guy don like to see pretty babe dancing??
I also dream of owning a few theme cafe where i can work with young,innovative and creating people to find ways of managing it and making it the most popular cafe in Singapore.I have see new cafe concepts and i really like to try it in Singapore.
To be honest,I don really like to work for people as I have my own strong opinions and I would like to try and experiments new business ideas in Singapore.I always wonder why am I so into business idea and i think the reason is because I understand financial freedom at a young age and what it can do and I like to gamble with the unknown and the feeling of knowing you can win or lose in the next instant.
Bought the book "Secrets of building multi-million dollar businesses"by Adam Khoo.I am kinda interested in meeting him in person.
As funny as it might seem,I say that i want to have a simple life,but i always dream of one day,i will be able to own a boutique hotel chains,where i can live at different home every day,pretending to be like a tourist and interact with people/guests.
I also dream of owning a few night entertainment(Clubs,bars and etc.).I have never been to a club before,but i really like the feeling of getting myself drunk,enjoying loud party music and see pretty lady dancing/clubbing or etc.I mean which guy don like to see pretty babe dancing??
I also dream of owning a few theme cafe where i can work with young,innovative and creating people to find ways of managing it and making it the most popular cafe in Singapore.I have see new cafe concepts and i really like to try it in Singapore.
To be honest,I don really like to work for people as I have my own strong opinions and I would like to try and experiments new business ideas in Singapore.I always wonder why am I so into business idea and i think the reason is because I understand financial freedom at a young age and what it can do and I like to gamble with the unknown and the feeling of knowing you can win or lose in the next instant.
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
50 facts of me.
Decided to do this special edition post as a way to show the real me in front of everybody.So here is goes.
1-->Real name & nickname
Ans: Tan Wei Qing aka vental aka ven
2-->.Meaning of nickname
Ans: I wanted my nickname to have some meaning and the word "Ventilation" came into my my mind and subsequently the word "vental" was created and my definition of my nickname is air.
3-->3 Fears I have
Ans:Flying insects,height and public speaking
4-->3 Things i like
Ans: Freedom,traveling and exploring new place or things
5-->Favourite songs genre
Ans:Songs that related to love
6-->Am i a smoker
Ans:Used to but quited,but sometime when i feel so numb in life,i would just smoke a few sticks.
7-->3 good habit i have
Ans:Exercise regularly,Sleep more that 8 hours per day and being real
8-->3 bad habit i have
Ans:Being emotion easily,glue to my ipad and often gamble with the unknown
9-->3 Things that i lied about
Ans: I kinda only lie to people to joke with them or just basic white lie
10-->Tattoo or piercing
Ans:Nil.
11-->Favorite quote
Ans:To many to list down
12-->Favorite Sports
Ans:All water sports.Even though i have not try all the water sport but i really like to do stuffs on water
13-->Hardest things i ever done.
Ans:Setting a goal in life and aiming to achieve it.
14-->Miss most about being a kid
Ans:Nobody tell me that "its impossible"
15-->Things that can get me excited
Ans:Financial freedom,traveling and exploring
16-->Things that can get me nervous
Ans:Public speaking and looking at pretty girl right in the eye
17-->Introvert or extrovert,why
Ans:Depend on who i am with
18-->Last time you drank
Ans:Few weeks ago during a ex class chalet
19-->Dream vacations
Ans:Places that is near the ocean,sea or beach
20-->Favorite fruits
Ans:All sour fruits
21-->Are you a sensitive person
Ans:Maybe
22->Favorite cartoon
Ans:Is One piece consider a cartoon??
23-->One scar on your body and how did you get it
Ans:Right in the middle of my forehead,my mom told me that when i was like 1 years old plus,i try to climb out of the room that is block by wooden block, and i fall right from the top of the wooden block and i hit my head on some metal thing on the door.
24-->Favorite Hideout spot
Ans:Changi Airport T3 viewing mall
25-->Favorite food
Ans:Spicy foods
26-->Favorite style of clothing
Ans:Simple,versatile and comfortable.(e.g slipper,jeans and t- shirt)
27-->Favorite color
Ans:Purple
28-->Sweet or salted popcorn
Ans:Salted popcorn cos it can make me stay awake during boring movie
29-->Things that you have steal before
Ans:Money from my mom when i was in primary school
30-->First concert that you attend
Ans:Mnet Sinagpore
31-->Things that you wanted to do but never did
Ans:Get into a romantic relationship
32-->One sport that you would like to learn
Ans:Wind Sailing
33-->One language that you would like to learn
Ans:Italitian
34-->One skill that you would like to acquire
Ans: Guns shooting skills
35-->Magazine that you subscibe to
Ans:Wine and Dine and Amagram
35-->Are you a social person
Ans:Depend on situations
36-->How many pillow you sleep with
Ans:3 pillows and 1 bolster
37-->Where do you think you will end up at 10 years from now
Ans:Leading a simple life in Singapore
38-->Describe your personality
Ans:Quite fck up i think
39-->Current mood
Ans:Mixed emotions
40-->A ability that you have
Ans:6 out of 10 of my dreams will happen like in real life like deja vu
41-->One mistake you keep repeating and repeating
Ans:Alway Thinking too much
42-->Would you be a lonely genius or social idiot
Ans:Lonely genius,i like to be real
43-->Can you live without internet for a week
Ans:Depend
44-->Are you a starter,implementer or finisher
Ans:A bit of all the 3
45-->What is you purpose in life
Ans:To explore the world
46-->What are the things that will made you bored
Ans:Nothing to Do
47-->One dream that you remember and why
Ans:Getting knock down by a van because i saw the whole incident in my dream before it happen
48-->Something that most people don know
Ans:I like to observe people before getting to know them them.Don be fool by my quiet appearance.I have many "Hidden-sides"
49-->Biggest regret
Ans:Getting go of some friendship during my secondary school life
50-->Anyone that read this post is allow to ask me 3 questions and i will need to answer truthfully.
ask.fm/vental_ I will answer straight to the point,no beat about the bush answer.
1-->Real name & nickname
Ans: Tan Wei Qing aka vental aka ven
2-->.Meaning of nickname
Ans: I wanted my nickname to have some meaning and the word "Ventilation" came into my my mind and subsequently the word "vental" was created and my definition of my nickname is air.
3-->3 Fears I have
Ans:Flying insects,height and public speaking
4-->3 Things i like
Ans: Freedom,traveling and exploring new place or things
5-->Favourite songs genre
Ans:Songs that related to love
6-->Am i a smoker
Ans:Used to but quited,but sometime when i feel so numb in life,i would just smoke a few sticks.
7-->3 good habit i have
Ans:Exercise regularly,Sleep more that 8 hours per day and being real
8-->3 bad habit i have
Ans:Being emotion easily,glue to my ipad and often gamble with the unknown
9-->3 Things that i lied about
Ans: I kinda only lie to people to joke with them or just basic white lie
10-->Tattoo or piercing
Ans:Nil.
11-->Favorite quote
Ans:To many to list down
12-->Favorite Sports
Ans:All water sports.Even though i have not try all the water sport but i really like to do stuffs on water
13-->Hardest things i ever done.
Ans:Setting a goal in life and aiming to achieve it.
14-->Miss most about being a kid
Ans:Nobody tell me that "its impossible"
15-->Things that can get me excited
Ans:Financial freedom,traveling and exploring
16-->Things that can get me nervous
Ans:Public speaking and looking at pretty girl right in the eye
17-->Introvert or extrovert,why
Ans:Depend on who i am with
18-->Last time you drank
Ans:Few weeks ago during a ex class chalet
19-->Dream vacations
Ans:Places that is near the ocean,sea or beach
20-->Favorite fruits
Ans:All sour fruits
21-->Are you a sensitive person
Ans:Maybe
22->Favorite cartoon
Ans:Is One piece consider a cartoon??
23-->One scar on your body and how did you get it
Ans:Right in the middle of my forehead,my mom told me that when i was like 1 years old plus,i try to climb out of the room that is block by wooden block, and i fall right from the top of the wooden block and i hit my head on some metal thing on the door.
24-->Favorite Hideout spot
Ans:Changi Airport T3 viewing mall
25-->Favorite food
Ans:Spicy foods
26-->Favorite style of clothing
Ans:Simple,versatile and comfortable.(e.g slipper,jeans and t- shirt)
27-->Favorite color
Ans:Purple
28-->Sweet or salted popcorn
Ans:Salted popcorn cos it can make me stay awake during boring movie
29-->Things that you have steal before
Ans:Money from my mom when i was in primary school
30-->First concert that you attend
Ans:Mnet Sinagpore
31-->Things that you wanted to do but never did
Ans:Get into a romantic relationship
32-->One sport that you would like to learn
Ans:Wind Sailing
33-->One language that you would like to learn
Ans:Italitian
34-->One skill that you would like to acquire
Ans: Guns shooting skills
35-->Magazine that you subscibe to
Ans:Wine and Dine and Amagram
35-->Are you a social person
Ans:Depend on situations
36-->How many pillow you sleep with
Ans:3 pillows and 1 bolster
37-->Where do you think you will end up at 10 years from now
Ans:Leading a simple life in Singapore
38-->Describe your personality
Ans:Quite fck up i think
39-->Current mood
Ans:Mixed emotions
40-->A ability that you have
Ans:6 out of 10 of my dreams will happen like in real life like deja vu
41-->One mistake you keep repeating and repeating
Ans:Alway Thinking too much
42-->Would you be a lonely genius or social idiot
Ans:Lonely genius,i like to be real
43-->Can you live without internet for a week
Ans:Depend
44-->Are you a starter,implementer or finisher
Ans:A bit of all the 3
45-->What is you purpose in life
Ans:To explore the world
46-->What are the things that will made you bored
Ans:Nothing to Do
47-->One dream that you remember and why
Ans:Getting knock down by a van because i saw the whole incident in my dream before it happen
48-->Something that most people don know
Ans:I like to observe people before getting to know them them.Don be fool by my quiet appearance.I have many "Hidden-sides"
49-->Biggest regret
Ans:Getting go of some friendship during my secondary school life
50-->Anyone that read this post is allow to ask me 3 questions and i will need to answer truthfully.
ask.fm/vental_ I will answer straight to the point,no beat about the bush answer.
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Dizzy Tuesday
Woke up at around 12pm,which mean i sleep for about 11 hours and i still feel darm giddy.Saw my phone and some of my classmate is going to watch movie,so i decided to tag along.
Was on the train and i receive a message for a senior from my CCA and i then realize that today was Tuesday and not Monday.Decided to skip CCA for once.
Went to Scape to meet them and had Aston for lunch,but it was "Breakfast" for me since i did not eat anything from morning till now.Kinda surprise to receive souvenir from someone.
Went to watch the movie "Jump street 22" at Cineleisure and went down to Serangoon Garden for dinner and after that we went to Udders at my village.Halfway through the dinner at garden,i suddenly feel like puking so i decided not to continue eating anymore and keep drinking the sugar cane water.
Went back at around 10pm+
Was on the train and i receive a message for a senior from my CCA and i then realize that today was Tuesday and not Monday.Decided to skip CCA for once.
Went to Scape to meet them and had Aston for lunch,but it was "Breakfast" for me since i did not eat anything from morning till now.Kinda surprise to receive souvenir from someone.
Went to watch the movie "Jump street 22" at Cineleisure and went down to Serangoon Garden for dinner and after that we went to Udders at my village.Halfway through the dinner at garden,i suddenly feel like puking so i decided not to continue eating anymore and keep drinking the sugar cane water.
Went back at around 10pm+
Sickish Monday
Woke up early due to stomachache and nausea.Did not know why it happen.Have no appetite for breakfast.Having this nausea feeling,stomachache,dizziness and tired all day long.Been a while since i feel so sick.I am literary falling into sleep anytime.
Dad book a cab to bring us on a tour and we went to Penang hill,some local products shop and again we spent most of the time in the car us both my parent as lazy to walk and i am like half dead in the car.
After the tour,my family went for foot massage while i was sleeping at the waiting area at the shop.Fall asleep the moment i close my eye and by the time i woke up,which is about 1 hour plus,my head was like even more dizzy than how i feel in the morning.
Took a cab to the airport.The plane took of at around 9.50pm and reach Singapore at around 11.20pm.I wanted to go back home quickly my my mom and dad was talking their sweet time walking slowly at the airport and shopping at the duty free shop and we only took the cab from the airport at 12am.Reach home about 20 minutes later.Took a bath and went to sleep straight away with my bolster.
I would say this whole "travel disappearing act" was a super fail one as right from the first day i was already stalking someone on the social media.I also on my phone to see if there any message but there was none.But during this trip,i found out the answer i am looking for.
I thought that as long as i try,perharp i would have a chance.But i failed to realize that we are two different type of people.I don know your past and you haven see the dark side of me.We totally have nothing in common and i don know how to start a conversation with you or entertain you and make you feel happy.I feel jealous when guys can make you happy just by talking to you and i will try to stalk you social media and wanting to know badly how you are doing each day.I really wish to know what you are thinking.
Dad book a cab to bring us on a tour and we went to Penang hill,some local products shop and again we spent most of the time in the car us both my parent as lazy to walk and i am like half dead in the car.
After the tour,my family went for foot massage while i was sleeping at the waiting area at the shop.Fall asleep the moment i close my eye and by the time i woke up,which is about 1 hour plus,my head was like even more dizzy than how i feel in the morning.
Took a cab to the airport.The plane took of at around 9.50pm and reach Singapore at around 11.20pm.I wanted to go back home quickly my my mom and dad was talking their sweet time walking slowly at the airport and shopping at the duty free shop and we only took the cab from the airport at 12am.Reach home about 20 minutes later.Took a bath and went to sleep straight away with my bolster.
I would say this whole "travel disappearing act" was a super fail one as right from the first day i was already stalking someone on the social media.I also on my phone to see if there any message but there was none.But during this trip,i found out the answer i am looking for.
I thought that as long as i try,perharp i would have a chance.But i failed to realize that we are two different type of people.I don know your past and you haven see the dark side of me.We totally have nothing in common and i don know how to start a conversation with you or entertain you and make you feel happy.I feel jealous when guys can make you happy just by talking to you and i will try to stalk you social media and wanting to know badly how you are doing each day.I really wish to know what you are thinking.
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Weird Sunday
Had a bad sleep and wake up feeling drowsy.Maybe i am not to used to not having my bolster to hug.Yup i am a 20 year old guy that still need a bolster to fall asleep.
-->Take at the New Penang Bridge,which is about 24km.
-->That white dog behind is a model.It keep posing for my brother to take photo.While the brown dog was too tired to move
-->It a real snake by the way
-->A life size adult king cobra.
-->Guess how old is this guy??Hint, it a 3 digit number.
-->Don be fool by this pic.This sleeping snake is about 7m.Did not really want to go near to take a photo cos the guide say he is a constrictor snake and i don want to get into trouble with this guy.
-->The neighbour of the snake above,Keep in a small pond.About 7 meter also.This guy is awake by the way.
Mom book a car and a driver for 4 hours to bring us around Penang.Went to the two famous bridge,the snake temple,a war museum and we spent most of the time asking the driver to bring us to take a look at the different area of Penang.The driver suggested that we should go to Langkawi tomorrow if we did not have anything plan for tomorow.So we went to the ferry terminal and ask for the ferry schedule,but due to the timing of the ferry we are not able to go.
After the tour,went to have lunch and dad went for a foot massage,while the rest of us went to shopping.Catch a movie as the cinema there too. Always like watch movie at Malaysia cos the cinema is always darm empty.Continue shopping after that.
Meet dad back at the hotel at 9pm and went to have ba ku teh for dinner cos dad insist of having it.Did not really eat much though.
Went back to the hotel and watch some shows and feel asleep at don know what time.
-->Take at the New Penang Bridge,which is about 24km.
-->That white dog behind is a model.It keep posing for my brother to take photo.While the brown dog was too tired to move
-->It a real snake by the way
-->A life size adult king cobra.
-->Guess how old is this guy??Hint, it a 3 digit number.
-->Don be fool by this pic.This sleeping snake is about 7m.Did not really want to go near to take a photo cos the guide say he is a constrictor snake and i don want to get into trouble with this guy.
-->The neighbour of the snake above,Keep in a small pond.About 7 meter also.This guy is awake by the way.
Mom book a car and a driver for 4 hours to bring us around Penang.Went to the two famous bridge,the snake temple,a war museum and we spent most of the time asking the driver to bring us to take a look at the different area of Penang.The driver suggested that we should go to Langkawi tomorrow if we did not have anything plan for tomorow.So we went to the ferry terminal and ask for the ferry schedule,but due to the timing of the ferry we are not able to go.
After the tour,went to have lunch and dad went for a foot massage,while the rest of us went to shopping.Catch a movie as the cinema there too. Always like watch movie at Malaysia cos the cinema is always darm empty.Continue shopping after that.
Meet dad back at the hotel at 9pm and went to have ba ku teh for dinner cos dad insist of having it.Did not really eat much though.
Went back to the hotel and watch some shows and feel asleep at don know what time.
Saturday, June 28, 2014
Disappearing Saturday
Kinda hope that this short trip will allow me to sort out lots of stuffs.Though I keep saying I will stay positive but my mind keep wondering about the stuffs that happen and stuffs that will not happen.Guess that the "uniqueness" about me.
Planed to try something called "travel disappearing act",which someone goes on a get-away trip without telling anyone and during the trip the person is not allow to see or update any social media feeds and their phone is off.Always wanted to try this.
Fly off at around 3.10pm and reach Penang at around 4.30pm.Used to have this excited feeling when the airplane take off and land,but now it seem like nothing much.Watch the movie "Dredd" on funsion during the flight.The movie was quite nice i would say.
Did no prior research about the place and my family and I was like asking random people for hotel recommendation and we just took a taxi to the town area and have lunch.Walk around to find a hotel as we did not book any hotel and lucky we manage to find a nice hotel which is just down the street from the place that we had our lunch.
After check in and etc,it was around 7pm and we just walk around the hotel area to shop and look around.I would say the shopping area there is quite limited.
Walk around some more to find food for dinner and decided to take away the food and go back to the hotel to eat as we were all very tired.
Sleep around 12am.
Planed to try something called "travel disappearing act",which someone goes on a get-away trip without telling anyone and during the trip the person is not allow to see or update any social media feeds and their phone is off.Always wanted to try this.
Fly off at around 3.10pm and reach Penang at around 4.30pm.Used to have this excited feeling when the airplane take off and land,but now it seem like nothing much.Watch the movie "Dredd" on funsion during the flight.The movie was quite nice i would say.
Did no prior research about the place and my family and I was like asking random people for hotel recommendation and we just took a taxi to the town area and have lunch.Walk around to find a hotel as we did not book any hotel and lucky we manage to find a nice hotel which is just down the street from the place that we had our lunch.
After check in and etc,it was around 7pm and we just walk around the hotel area to shop and look around.I would say the shopping area there is quite limited.
Walk around some more to find food for dinner and decided to take away the food and go back to the hotel to eat as we were all very tired.
Sleep around 12am.
Friday, June 27, 2014
Emptiness Friday
Have nothing plan for today,so i decided to do some of my non-important stuff.Went to Redhill to buy some stuffs from Amway.(FYI,I am a Amway distributor.)
Since it was still early,decided to walk around again and I ended up at commonwealth MRT station.Feel darm sweaty and decided not to walk anymore,so went to take a bus to Toa Payoh and from there,took a bus back home.
Will be disappearing from a few days,hopefully by there,i will have figure out some stuffs in my mind.Really hope you can block me from all your social media,cos i have been excessively stalking you,but feel darm awkward to tell you.
For those that don know what is Amway,i shall briefly explain.It a so called "Multi level marketing" by the TYPICAL general public that sell daily products at 'high price'.If you search on the internet, 9 out of 10 will be negative comments.Will not tried to convince anyone anything,but i have been a distributor for Amway for more than 2 years and i never really earn any money out of it,but i still renew my distributionship anyway because i can see the value of the products and the hope it give people.
After that,went to Holland Village because there is this shophouse cafe that i have been to and I really like the cafe design and on the second level,they will play those trendy love music.
Did some writing there for a while and after about an hour,left the cafe and went to explore the "atas" cafes and the shopping place.
By the time I finish exploring the place,it was 6pm and i hate to take MRT during peak hours,especially if i have to change to a different line.So I decided to explore the around the area and ended up walking to Buona vista MRT. Always wanted to go The Star Vista to take a look but never have the time.When i went there,i saw lot of people with this cute alpacas soft toy.Something similar to the photo.Went to explore the shopping center and i really like the the concept of the shopping mall and the different shop.Suddenly got lot of new ideas in my mind to do something.And finally i know where is The Star Theater is.Haha
Since it was still early,decided to walk around again and I ended up at commonwealth MRT station.Feel darm sweaty and decided not to walk anymore,so went to take a bus to Toa Payoh and from there,took a bus back home.
Will be disappearing from a few days,hopefully by there,i will have figure out some stuffs in my mind.Really hope you can block me from all your social media,cos i have been excessively stalking you,but feel darm awkward to tell you.
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Exploration Thursday
Finally find the time to do hotel hopping.Did some research on some travel websites and I am quite interested in the boutique hotel near Bugis area.Reasons being
1.Short traveling time.
2.Hotel have lesser rooms compare to big hotel,which mean i don need to work my ass off during the peak seasons.
3.Learn more and being able to be adaptable.
4.Having places to go in case of split shift.
5.Learn new things and how boutique hotel operate
6.Typical boutique hotel guests are much more easy to handle as they do not have high expectations of the place,which make communication more fun.
7.Boutique hotel room are generally much smaller and more easier to clean.
8.Being able to slack when there is not much guest around.
I already have a super ideal hotel that i want to go and i already sent an email for appointment.Hopefully they can reply me as soon as possible.
Photo taken from the website.
1.Short traveling time.
2.Hotel have lesser rooms compare to big hotel,which mean i don need to work my ass off during the peak seasons.
3.Learn more and being able to be adaptable.
4.Having places to go in case of split shift.
5.Learn new things and how boutique hotel operate
6.Typical boutique hotel guests are much more easy to handle as they do not have high expectations of the place,which make communication more fun.
7.Boutique hotel room are generally much smaller and more easier to clean.
8.Being able to slack when there is not much guest around.
I already have a super ideal hotel that i want to go and i already sent an email for appointment.Hopefully they can reply me as soon as possible.
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Tired Wednesday
.Watch some reality TV show till moring till 6am.Wanted to go hotel hopping today,but i oversleep,i woke up at around 2pm and i really feel sleep and lazy to move.
Not wanting to waste the days,went to Hideout in the late afternoon .Did some researching stuff over there and went to zone X and by the time i look at the time,it was almost 10pm. Should have gone there early cos i haven finish my stuff.
For once i am glad that i am totally wrong.I rarely admit that i am wrong because that how I am.
Knowing that everything i post here might be seen by you.
Not wanting to waste the days,went to Hideout in the late afternoon .Did some researching stuff over there and went to zone X and by the time i look at the time,it was almost 10pm. Should have gone there early cos i haven finish my stuff.
For once i am glad that i am totally wrong.I rarely admit that i am wrong because that how I am.
Knowing that everything i post here might be seen by you.
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
Motivated Tuesday
Despite having 2 disappointed day in a row,today was actually quite a peaceful one."nua" on bed till I feel like waking up and play laptop till afternoon and went to lunch with dad before heading to school for CCA.Holiday kinda drain my motivation as there is no actual plan and the only way to pass time is to play maplestory.
Really wish that there is someone who can really accompany me to do tons of stuffs during this holiday but it seem like I don know who to call.Wanted to started on my etp project but I am afraid my proposal might not get approve and I cannot get reimburse for the stuff that I bought and I really need to find someone who is mad enough to help me kickstart this project.
My hotel hoping activity was suppose to on Monday but have to postpone due to some unforeseen things.Since I am free tomorrow,I shall do it tomorrow.I wonder if I can go to more to 30 hotel to take a look and hopefully I can make a better decision for my IAP.After my recent IAP,I am much conscious of choosing my IAP place,as it will be for 6 months and I really need a good grade for this.We can hear lots of good things about the place but when we are at that organizations,things are not that nice,especially when you really feel cheated by that organizations.
Saw this post on Facebook and decided to check out this guy.I would say all his post i can really relate to what his is trying to say and this is one of my favorite.I guess deep down inside everyone,we will definitely have the desire for recognition by other.
This post can be a short summary of what happen to me now.My low self-esteem really put me in a awkward spot.I want to take the first move to start a conversation,but i really don know how.I want to tell you how i really feel but given the current situation,it is impossible.
Lets put it in a simple way.I assume i know how it will end.I am too afraid of losing the friendship.I am afraid of what will happen .I know it hurt,but it seem impossible to let go not matter how hard i try.I know I can never be the guy you like.I hope that miracle would happen,but i know this is not a fairy-tail.
My hotel hoping activity was suppose to on Monday but have to postpone due to some unforeseen things.Since I am free tomorrow,I shall do it tomorrow.I wonder if I can go to more to 30 hotel to take a look and hopefully I can make a better decision for my IAP.After my recent IAP,I am much conscious of choosing my IAP place,as it will be for 6 months and I really need a good grade for this.We can hear lots of good things about the place but when we are at that organizations,things are not that nice,especially when you really feel cheated by that organizations.
Saw this post on Facebook and decided to check out this guy.I would say all his post i can really relate to what his is trying to say and this is one of my favorite.I guess deep down inside everyone,we will definitely have the desire for recognition by other.
This post can be a short summary of what happen to me now.My low self-esteem really put me in a awkward spot.I want to take the first move to start a conversation,but i really don know how.I want to tell you how i really feel but given the current situation,it is impossible.
Lets put it in a simple way.I assume i know how it will end.I am too afraid of losing the friendship.I am afraid of what will happen .I know it hurt,but it seem impossible to let go not matter how hard i try.I know I can never be the guy you like.I hope that miracle would happen,but i know this is not a fairy-tail.
Monday, June 23, 2014
Darm Disapointed Monday
Really feel freaking disappointed today.Was waiting for the call to go swim and ended up waiting from morning till afternoon and then was cancel.That why i hate asking people to do activity with me,i ended up waiting for people and they always "put me aeroplane".
I should have do my hotel hopping today to find a suitable place for my attachment but i postponed it because i thought your will make it for today swim.
Feel darm irritated that i decided to go to swim alone.So after lunch with my dad,I ask him to drive me to Sengkang Swimming Complex and when i reach there,it was close on Monday.+-$#@$%@#%$#%#$$@. But still i decided to go to the Ba Ku Teh at jalan kyu because I really miss the stir fry Ba Ku Teh.
And guess what,i freaking order the wrong one.Really not my day.haiz.
After that went to Bishan Swiming Complex and swim for 2 hours.Was quite suprise that the pool was quite pack.I kinda of relax to swim alone as you can keep swimming without distractions,keep trying to push myself to swim when i really feel tired.But after the swim,i feel very refresh.Wanted to go NTUC to buy some salad for dinner so walk from the swiming complex to amk hub.
Kinda have this mix feeling that I really want to get rid of.of. Initially I thought that giving up was the right choice,but now,i really feel that giving up was really a really bad mistake.I hate myself for not trying before giving up and how i really don know what to do.
I feel like I am acting like a crybaby for your attention and being a constant irritation to you but i really don know what to do.To be honest,I really force myself to let go and try to push you away but it only turn into more mix emotions in me.
Sometime i really hate myself for being selfish and being ironic and also having to much confidence in things that i know i cannot achieve and end up like a pathatic and anoying fool and cause so many drama for others.I know that i say that i will not post anything negative in this blog anymore,but i really really don know what to do to end this stupid emotions that i have.
I should have do my hotel hopping today to find a suitable place for my attachment but i postponed it because i thought your will make it for today swim.
Feel darm irritated that i decided to go to swim alone.So after lunch with my dad,I ask him to drive me to Sengkang Swimming Complex and when i reach there,it was close on Monday.+-$#@$%@#%$#%#$$@. But still i decided to go to the Ba Ku Teh at jalan kyu because I really miss the stir fry Ba Ku Teh.
And guess what,i freaking order the wrong one.Really not my day.haiz.
After that went to Bishan Swiming Complex and swim for 2 hours.Was quite suprise that the pool was quite pack.I kinda of relax to swim alone as you can keep swimming without distractions,keep trying to push myself to swim when i really feel tired.But after the swim,i feel very refresh.Wanted to go NTUC to buy some salad for dinner so walk from the swiming complex to amk hub.
Kinda have this mix feeling that I really want to get rid of.of. Initially I thought that giving up was the right choice,but now,i really feel that giving up was really a really bad mistake.I hate myself for not trying before giving up and how i really don know what to do.
I feel like I am acting like a crybaby for your attention and being a constant irritation to you but i really don know what to do.To be honest,I really force myself to let go and try to push you away but it only turn into more mix emotions in me.
Sometime i really hate myself for being selfish and being ironic and also having to much confidence in things that i know i cannot achieve and end up like a pathatic and anoying fool and cause so many drama for others.I know that i say that i will not post anything negative in this blog anymore,but i really really don know what to do to end this stupid emotions that i have.
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Disappointed Sunday
Really feel disappointed today.I really don like when my plan get cancel last mins.Planed to go trick eye museum but some last mins things pop up and the plan was cancel.It also happen that the half price promotions end today.But i really want to go but i really don like to ask people out.
So ended up watch movie on ipad the whole day and play Maplestory till morning.Really a dissapointed day today.
So ended up watch movie on ipad the whole day and play Maplestory till morning.Really a dissapointed day today.
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Saturday, June 21, 2014
Awkward Saturday
Initially my plan for the day is to go to the 2 degree ice exhibition in the afternoon and have dinner with dad in the evening.Wanted to go there for a long time but no one want to go with me so i kinda forget about it and recently saw someone instagram and suddenly got the urge to go,and i search on the web and realise that it will end on 22 june,which is Sunday.
I think my body clock is a bit screw up.I wake up at 11am and watch tv and i was feeling super tired that i feel asleep on the sofa and wake up at around 3pm+.Drag myself to bath and then took the bus there.
When i reach there,i was a bit awkward to queue up for the tickets as all the people are in big group and "my balls literally shrink" then i don dare to go queue up and i thought of dragging my dad to there so i took bus back home and try to psycho my dad,but he was not interested and he want to sleep on he rest day rather than going out. So I guess i will be missing out this events.
Went to eat with dad during evening and went we came back,my dad ask me to book air ticket to Malaysia because he and mom decided to bring the whole family for a short vacation.I am kinda afraid this vacation might not be a nice one as we are on a free and easy trip and we did not book any hotel yet.Hopefully everything end up well.
I think my body clock is a bit screw up.I wake up at 11am and watch tv and i was feeling super tired that i feel asleep on the sofa and wake up at around 3pm+.Drag myself to bath and then took the bus there.
When i reach there,i was a bit awkward to queue up for the tickets as all the people are in big group and "my balls literally shrink" then i don dare to go queue up and i thought of dragging my dad to there so i took bus back home and try to psycho my dad,but he was not interested and he want to sleep on he rest day rather than going out. So I guess i will be missing out this events.
Went to eat with dad during evening and went we came back,my dad ask me to book air ticket to Malaysia because he and mom decided to bring the whole family for a short vacation.I am kinda afraid this vacation might not be a nice one as we are on a free and easy trip and we did not book any hotel yet.Hopefully everything end up well.
Friday, June 20, 2014
Emotionless Friday
Wake up early to prepare for work.Got this event job from my bro that he say is very easy and the pay was $50,so why not.
The job was to distribute and keep the small drums for a event.It was the most simple and relax job that I have done and our job liase person which which thought was a guy was in fact a young pretty lady.
Wanted to go to the trick eye museum today,but the job end to late at 5.00pm at expo so I guess i will go on Sunday instead.
Currently writing this post from my favorite hideout.Time check 6.40pm.I thought I have already done enough thinking when I was at the chalet,but I guess life was not easy not me because I am too introvert and I don really like to share my soft side with other but I would like to find somewhere quiet and do some quiet thinking by myself.
I am alway mislead by my own expectation of other,I alway though it was natural for other to take the first step to salvage the friendship and I was being an asshole for alway being the first to walk out when things happens.But I have lost the ability to trust my own actions,I really don know what are worth fighting and what are not worth keeping,I don know if people are asking because they care or asking for the sake of asking.To be honest I have no ideas what I am doing most of my time.I am glad that sometime people would try to salvage the friendship but most of the time,people would just leave.
I guess the reason why I seem so anti social is because I hope people can accept me first for who I am before I can really open up and go do some crazy stuff with them.I am really tired because sometime the friendship that I really put in a lot of effort and I don mind doing things for the friendship,which I thought was the strongest turn out to be the weakest.And acting like I don care or give a darm on the outside,but I was like a broken soul on the inside.
Sometime those that look the strongest on the outside and broken souls on the inside.
The job was to distribute and keep the small drums for a event.It was the most simple and relax job that I have done and our job liase person which which thought was a guy was in fact a young pretty lady.
Wanted to go to the trick eye museum today,but the job end to late at 5.00pm at expo so I guess i will go on Sunday instead.
Currently writing this post from my favorite hideout.Time check 6.40pm.I thought I have already done enough thinking when I was at the chalet,but I guess life was not easy not me because I am too introvert and I don really like to share my soft side with other but I would like to find somewhere quiet and do some quiet thinking by myself.
I am alway mislead by my own expectation of other,I alway though it was natural for other to take the first step to salvage the friendship and I was being an asshole for alway being the first to walk out when things happens.But I have lost the ability to trust my own actions,I really don know what are worth fighting and what are not worth keeping,I don know if people are asking because they care or asking for the sake of asking.To be honest I have no ideas what I am doing most of my time.I am glad that sometime people would try to salvage the friendship but most of the time,people would just leave.
I guess the reason why I seem so anti social is because I hope people can accept me first for who I am before I can really open up and go do some crazy stuff with them.I am really tired because sometime the friendship that I really put in a lot of effort and I don mind doing things for the friendship,which I thought was the strongest turn out to be the weakest.And acting like I don care or give a darm on the outside,but I was like a broken soul on the inside.
Sometime those that look the strongest on the outside and broken souls on the inside.
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Energetic Thursday
Check out the chalet at around 11.30am and went to parkway parade to eat with those that stay over night.On the way there,one of us found a wallet on the bus and an aunty suggested we should pass to the police station instead of giving to the bus captain.We went to the police post and found that it was close,and I suggested to pass it to the bank as we were all hungry and did not know what to do with the wallet.
Went to have our brunch at KFC before going back home.
Reach home at about 2.30pm and slept till 9pm when mom bought me breakfast.Went back to sleep after eating due to work on Friday afternoon.
Reach home at about 2.30pm and slept till 9pm when mom bought me breakfast.Went back to sleep after eating due to work on Friday afternoon.
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
BBQ camping Wednesday
Meet two classmate in the afternoon and went to the chalet together at east coast together.
Initially it was a bit awkward in when more people came in the beginning but subsequently these small talk mange to break the ice and I become more comfortable being myself.
Try to BBQ the food,end up some food was burnt but the food is still nice to eat.
Did some sharing about the ex-f&b class and sent the lecture to the nearby main road to get a cab.Really glad to have a lecture that really give me a lot of opportunity to excel and helping me get a slot in the Canada oversea exchange program which I really learn a lot.
Continue to BBQ and drink and gambling all night long to morning.lost about $80 + I guess.At the end of the game,I suddenly think back to recent time when my mother and I lost about $3000 at the cruise casino on the first night and our face literally turn white as we were gambling whole night long and we went to eat our breakfast with our pale face and went to sleep only to go back to gambling on the second night and manage to break even.Looking back I must say I am a gamble addict but now I am playing using the extra money that I have and know how to control myself from over gambling.
Something will never be the same after today and since I started the thing,I will gladly accept what the outcome would be.For once I am really thankful that there is still a turning point after my actions.
Initially it was a bit awkward in when more people came in the beginning but subsequently these small talk mange to break the ice and I become more comfortable being myself.
Try to BBQ the food,end up some food was burnt but the food is still nice to eat.
Did some sharing about the ex-f&b class and sent the lecture to the nearby main road to get a cab.Really glad to have a lecture that really give me a lot of opportunity to excel and helping me get a slot in the Canada oversea exchange program which I really learn a lot.
Continue to BBQ and drink and gambling all night long to morning.lost about $80 + I guess.At the end of the game,I suddenly think back to recent time when my mother and I lost about $3000 at the cruise casino on the first night and our face literally turn white as we were gambling whole night long and we went to eat our breakfast with our pale face and went to sleep only to go back to gambling on the second night and manage to break even.Looking back I must say I am a gamble addict but now I am playing using the extra money that I have and know how to control myself from over gambling.
Something will never be the same after today and since I started the thing,I will gladly accept what the outcome would be.For once I am really thankful that there is still a turning point after my actions.
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Boring Tuesday
The second day of camp is really a disaster as I guess is due to poor planing and the lack of activity really make it really boring and some of them went back to sleep after breakfast.
Play some inter class captain ball and then after some prize giving ceremony,it was "break camp".Our class manage to win the overall best class and I must say everyone really put in a lot off effort.
Went home after that because I really do not want to carry the heavy bag to CCA in the evening.Mange to rest a bit at home before heading back to school.Initially I wanted to skip CCA as I was tired but I still manage to drag myself to CCA.
Did some really physical training and I ended up creating a puddle of sweat on the floor and I really was surprise that I really sweat a lot.
Play some inter class captain ball and then after some prize giving ceremony,it was "break camp".Our class manage to win the overall best class and I must say everyone really put in a lot off effort.
Went home after that because I really do not want to carry the heavy bag to CCA in the evening.Mange to rest a bit at home before heading back to school.Initially I wanted to skip CCA as I was tired but I still manage to drag myself to CCA.
Did some really physical training and I ended up creating a puddle of sweat on the floor and I really was surprise that I really sweat a lot.
Monday, June 16, 2014
Daring Monday
Wake up early to go to the course camp at school. Initially I wanted to go to the camp with the intention to bond with the class,so I was enthuse at first but in the morning,I see that there is a distinct groups within the class and I am afraid to suddenly bend in to the different group and my enthusiasm suddenly disappear and went to emoing.
But during the afternoon,some of the classmate approach me and really try to talk to me and that really make me feel better but I guess that there is this invisible gap,perhaps is because of gender issue and the different view of different classmates.I want to talk to them but i don know what to talk about.
Sneak out of school to get dinner at the nearby Mac as I was too hungry and by the time I went back to school and bath,some classmate ask me if I want to go out and eat.I was kind of bored,so i just tagged along
Did not want to sleep at night so end up playing poker with some of them till morning 5am+ and took a short nap of 1 hour plus.
Somehow this camp was a bit bored for me perharp of certain reasons.
But during the afternoon,some of the classmate approach me and really try to talk to me and that really make me feel better but I guess that there is this invisible gap,perhaps is because of gender issue and the different view of different classmates.I want to talk to them but i don know what to talk about.
Sneak out of school to get dinner at the nearby Mac as I was too hungry and by the time I went back to school and bath,some classmate ask me if I want to go out and eat.I was kind of bored,so i just tagged along
Did not want to sleep at night so end up playing poker with some of them till morning 5am+ and took a short nap of 1 hour plus.
Somehow this camp was a bit bored for me perharp of certain reasons.
Sunday, June 15, 2014
impromptu Sunday
Rotting at home playing maple from afternoon till evening,since there is really nothing much to do,except doing the FOA scrip for phase test and those books that I never read.Really become lazy during holiday as there is no activity that I can do cos I really don know who to ask.
During evening receive an impromptu message from ex-classmate for dinner.Initially did not want to but suddenly got a feel for satay and beer.So end up having the dinner at amk central S11.
Somehow I miss having lessons,so much time and yet nothing much to do.Wanting to do some sports but i am broke.Really miss those day doing kayaking,ice skating,inline skating,archery and etc.
Really need to change my eating habit,I realize that I have been eating to much fry food and I guess my body fat is too high that I have no stamina.Really need to change my diet habit,planing to bring salad to school each day when school reopen.
During evening receive an impromptu message from ex-classmate for dinner.Initially did not want to but suddenly got a feel for satay and beer.So end up having the dinner at amk central S11.
Somehow I miss having lessons,so much time and yet nothing much to do.Wanting to do some sports but i am broke.Really miss those day doing kayaking,ice skating,inline skating,archery and etc.
Really need to change my eating habit,I realize that I have been eating to much fry food and I guess my body fat is too high that I have no stamina.Really need to change my diet habit,planing to bring salad to school each day when school reopen.
Saturday, June 14, 2014
Mundane Saturday
Holiday are here and I really have nothing plan for this holiday except for plaing to get a part time job.Guess I will be rotting at home.Hopefully can get a part time job to get some pocket money as I am down to $200.Mom told me she had deposit some money in my account in case I need some cash.
Went to swimming with bros at hougang swimming complex in the afternoon.Did manage to did some laps around the pool and went to have dinner together.Time fly as now,some of them are in NS and soon,I will be my turn.And to be honest,I am really scare of NS and idk why and my physical is really to weak.
Went to swimming with bros at hougang swimming complex in the afternoon.Did manage to did some laps around the pool and went to have dinner together.Time fly as now,some of them are in NS and soon,I will be my turn.And to be honest,I am really scare of NS and idk why and my physical is really to weak.
Friday, June 13, 2014
Change Friday
I was really not prepare for this changing journey,I never thought of the things I need to sacrifice and when I look back now,there will still be a "bitter sad feeling".Having a different attitude toward life and the actions you do,trying to take additional responsibility and fighting temptations and negative each day.
I really wish I can play like I used to,but I really don have time and the clock is ticking each moment In people's eyes I may be acting weird,but truth be told is that I really want to concentrate during lesson and play after lesson,but some lessons are really boring and it really cause most of the students to do their own stuffs.I really get distracted by people easily,so I try to distance myself from the class by trying to sit and the back of the class and away from the rest and trying to occupy 2 seats,so as to minimize distractions.
When I distance myself from the sub group,I really find it hard to fit in after lessons with them.As time goes,I guess some are annoy by my attitude towards them.I really feel like I am not part of them anymore.This is when I made a decision to go solo because I will not change what I am doing now so as to fit in with them and not because I don treasure the friendship .
I really wish I can play like I used to,but I really don have time and the clock is ticking each moment In people's eyes I may be acting weird,but truth be told is that I really want to concentrate during lesson and play after lesson,but some lessons are really boring and it really cause most of the students to do their own stuffs.I really get distracted by people easily,so I try to distance myself from the class by trying to sit and the back of the class and away from the rest and trying to occupy 2 seats,so as to minimize distractions.
When I distance myself from the sub group,I really find it hard to fit in after lessons with them.As time goes,I guess some are annoy by my attitude towards them.I really feel like I am not part of them anymore.This is when I made a decision to go solo because I will not change what I am doing now so as to fit in with them and not because I don treasure the friendship .
And now,when I see them playing around in lesson,therewill be this unknowingly jealousies feeling in my heart.Not because of the feeling for someone,but because I used to thought that the friendship was much stronger but it turn out not as I thought it will be.
Someone once tried to talk to me but that that moment I really don know how to say it.Now I have finally say it all out.
This will be my last post about the sub group and after that I will just be normal again.I made the decision and I have to accept the consequence
Someone once tried to talk to me but that that moment I really don know how to say it.Now I have finally say it all out.
This will be my last post about the sub group and after that I will just be normal again.I made the decision and I have to accept the consequence
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Relaxing Thursday
Waking up late in bed really is the most luxurious thing one can have in this world.Able to sleep with no stress and sleep so soundly till you want to wake up and "nua" on bed till you really need to get up to go toilet.That the life i want,something simple with a family is just enough.But in this world,a simple life does not come cheap,hard work is needed.
Did nothing much today till the evening and my friend called me out for a swim cos we did not went yesterday.Sometime i really regret wearing contact lens in the past because my eye seem to be much more sensitive to chlorine now as part of my eyes turn red after few laps of swimming.did 7 laps and we decided to call it a day as we are going swimming again on Saturday.
Went back to have dinner with my mom and we did something which is darm embarrassing today.We forget to pay the bill when we left and my mom only remember this when we went home.I thought she have already pay and she thought i have already pay so we left the place. Luckily the place is near my house,so i had to walk back to pay.But still it really darm embarrassing.Need to find a hole and hide now.
Did nothing much today till the evening and my friend called me out for a swim cos we did not went yesterday.Sometime i really regret wearing contact lens in the past because my eye seem to be much more sensitive to chlorine now as part of my eyes turn red after few laps of swimming.did 7 laps and we decided to call it a day as we are going swimming again on Saturday.
Went back to have dinner with my mom and we did something which is darm embarrassing today.We forget to pay the bill when we left and my mom only remember this when we went home.I thought she have already pay and she thought i have already pay so we left the place. Luckily the place is near my house,so i had to walk back to pay.But still it really darm embarrassing.Need to find a hole and hide now.
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Celebration Wednesday
Went to school for 2 hours only.Lecture go through some tips for the upcoming phase test and after that we just did our own stuff.
When lesson end,i hear some classmate are planing to go eat buffet but i did not really want to join them,so i went to have buffet alone.I tried to call some friends but it really impromptu and none of them can make it.
I also want to have something nice as to celebrate my first checkpoint in my changing journey.
After knowing what you want in life and setting small goals and working toward it,boring lessons seem to be much more interesting and i really like to pack my own timetable with lots of things,even if i am tired,i will still pull myself to do.Even if you did not achieve all you goals,but at least you did try to something and not nothing.
Hopefully during my next checkpoint dinner,i hope that i can ask more people out for the dinner,people that have set some goals and trying to achieve it.Proving to yourself that you can do what you think you cannot achieve.Celebrating hard work with good food and friends give momentum to achieve the next goals.Work hard,play hard,eat hard,for what we achieve is ours to keep.
When lesson end,i hear some classmate are planing to go eat buffet but i did not really want to join them,so i went to have buffet alone.I tried to call some friends but it really impromptu and none of them can make it.
I also want to have something nice as to celebrate my first checkpoint in my changing journey.
After knowing what you want in life and setting small goals and working toward it,boring lessons seem to be much more interesting and i really like to pack my own timetable with lots of things,even if i am tired,i will still pull myself to do.Even if you did not achieve all you goals,but at least you did try to something and not nothing.
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Well-spent Tuesday
I am so going to flunk the so called "easiest module".Really need to work on my time managing skills.
Finally all 3 tests are over.Know my weakness for the modules.So that means I need to work harder for the upcoming test and exams.Must get 4.0 GPA.
Went to the attachment briefing and found it to be a waste of time.The teacher was just joking around.
After that,I went to the hotel visit to Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel.It really a beautiful hotel,the conference rooms,the rooms and the hotel interior is really one the best among the hotel i see so far.The staff share information about their sister's properties hotel which i think it really capitalize on the new trend in industry,which is compact rooms with lots of facility in room and bright white room wall colour.After that we went to tour around the hotel and view the different types of rooms.We ended the session with a tea break and a Q&A session.Went back to school after the tour.
Since it was still early for my CCA,went to gym for a while before going to jog with my ex-lecture and classmate for about 15 mins before going to CCA.
I guess hard-work finally pay off as i am able to kick better that the previous few sessions.I feel like doing some extreme exercise to try to loosen my muscle around the tight area and hopeful i can do splits.But next week seem pack and i don want to walk around limping. CCA are ending later and later and we were suppose to be release by 9pm but was drag till 9.30pm and i still need to stay back to do some payment for my first grading test.Left school at around 9.50pm and reach home at around 11.20pm,but i guess having CCA is better that staying at home and do nothing.
Finally all 3 tests are over.Know my weakness for the modules.So that means I need to work harder for the upcoming test and exams.Must get 4.0 GPA.
Went to the attachment briefing and found it to be a waste of time.The teacher was just joking around.
After that,I went to the hotel visit to Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel.It really a beautiful hotel,the conference rooms,the rooms and the hotel interior is really one the best among the hotel i see so far.The staff share information about their sister's properties hotel which i think it really capitalize on the new trend in industry,which is compact rooms with lots of facility in room and bright white room wall colour.After that we went to tour around the hotel and view the different types of rooms.We ended the session with a tea break and a Q&A session.Went back to school after the tour.
Since it was still early for my CCA,went to gym for a while before going to jog with my ex-lecture and classmate for about 15 mins before going to CCA.
I guess hard-work finally pay off as i am able to kick better that the previous few sessions.I feel like doing some extreme exercise to try to loosen my muscle around the tight area and hopeful i can do splits.But next week seem pack and i don want to walk around limping. CCA are ending later and later and we were suppose to be release by 9pm but was drag till 9.30pm and i still need to stay back to do some payment for my first grading test.Left school at around 9.50pm and reach home at around 11.20pm,but i guess having CCA is better that staying at home and do nothing.
Monday, June 9, 2014
Heartfelt Monday
When I first begin in my 1 year changing,I was aiming to be an all rounder student,excel in different area,pushing myself to achieve more.But along the way,some stuffs happen.Lot of emotion turmoils each day,going to school each day with a heavy heart and pretending nothing have happen.
I just wish that my entrepreneur project could fast start,training hard for my CCA grading test,so that I could find something,anything, to kill time and numb all this emotion turmoils.
Today during the Section head class talk,problems were raise up.To me,the solutions was to change the attitude of how we treat the lecture.Back in those secondary one days,I was very rebellious,I remember the class don like this particular Chinese teacher that a few classmate and I suggested that we should rally the whole class to piss off this teacher.We try lots of funny ideas,from putting chalk powder in his chair and table,disrupt his lesson,pissing him off,talk back to him,the whole group of guys sleeping during his lesson and till one day,things got out of hand that a fight broke out between the lecturer and one of my classmate and none of us stop the fight but we continue to cheer on .Punishments were dealt out to those who were involve.
Then during sec 3, the same Chinese teacher teach me again.This time,I decided to try to change my attitude toward this particular teacher,then something amazing happen,I suddenly begin to like Chinese and me and this teacher suddenly become like friend.
Lessons learn through this incident was that if we try to fight with a higher authority,students will definitely lose,and we have to accept the consequences of our actions.I got to agree that some teacher will have a bit of attitude problem,but if we try to take the first step to be humble and see what the teacher can teach us.If they are really "useless" that try to talk to a even higher authority.But don be surprise that beneath the teacher spiky exterior,they have a beautiful interior.
Receive a surprise text from someone ask me why am I acting weird in class.I was really touch by this text but at the same time,this create another emotion turmoils in my mind again.I wanted to tell everything but at the same time,but how many people can really accept the cold hard truth.
I just wish that my entrepreneur project could fast start,training hard for my CCA grading test,so that I could find something,anything, to kill time and numb all this emotion turmoils.
Today during the Section head class talk,problems were raise up.To me,the solutions was to change the attitude of how we treat the lecture.Back in those secondary one days,I was very rebellious,I remember the class don like this particular Chinese teacher that a few classmate and I suggested that we should rally the whole class to piss off this teacher.We try lots of funny ideas,from putting chalk powder in his chair and table,disrupt his lesson,pissing him off,talk back to him,the whole group of guys sleeping during his lesson and till one day,things got out of hand that a fight broke out between the lecturer and one of my classmate and none of us stop the fight but we continue to cheer on .Punishments were dealt out to those who were involve.
Then during sec 3, the same Chinese teacher teach me again.This time,I decided to try to change my attitude toward this particular teacher,then something amazing happen,I suddenly begin to like Chinese and me and this teacher suddenly become like friend.
Lessons learn through this incident was that if we try to fight with a higher authority,students will definitely lose,and we have to accept the consequences of our actions.I got to agree that some teacher will have a bit of attitude problem,but if we try to take the first step to be humble and see what the teacher can teach us.If they are really "useless" that try to talk to a even higher authority.But don be surprise that beneath the teacher spiky exterior,they have a beautiful interior.
Receive a surprise text from someone ask me why am I acting weird in class.I was really touch by this text but at the same time,this create another emotion turmoils in my mind again.I wanted to tell everything but at the same time,but how many people can really accept the cold hard truth.
Sunday, June 8, 2014
Fatigue Sunday
Woke up early to go to toa payoh CC for the volunteer work for the 2014 Toa payoh central vertical marathon.Reach the cc at around 7.30am and was deploy immediately to the pet station for the pets race as paramedic with my brother.Well in fact I was just there to do nothing as I was not really train,but my brother was a certify first aider,so I was basically tagging around with my brother.
Was excited days before the events as we were inform that there are about 15 to 20 dogs and a rabbit.but was a bit disappointed when the rabbit was not really able to hop for the whole race and the owner was carrying the rabbit to complete the race,but I must say the rabbit was really darm cute and shy.And some of the dogs were really cute especially those small one.
Next we we're deploy to help out with the ultimate race where contestant need to run up and down 5 block of 40 story.If I am not wrong,I think there were more participants last years.
Running around the area of about 5 hours without breakfast is really no joke,as I really dislike having breakfast in the morning,so I did not eat the breakfast bento box that they give me in the morning.Was a lot of pretty lady at the event.haha...
Had lunch at around 12pm and we basically did nothing much after our lunch and we just went to the cc exhibition across the road in front of the toa payoh library and after than went back to the cc for the debrief.
Went home after that and on the bus,the fatigue begin,really feel to tired to move but then,still have to move in order to go home.After bathing,I just nua on the bed typing the blog post that I miss out on.
Hopefully tomorrow I got the time to join my ex-lecture for the swim as I really need to work on my cardio as I realize from today event,that my body is getting weak and my stamina was not as good as before as I was panting just by climbing 13 floors of stairs.Last year I was able to climb around 20 floor of stair before panting.Really need to train before NS as I am aiming to go to OCS.
Was excited days before the events as we were inform that there are about 15 to 20 dogs and a rabbit.but was a bit disappointed when the rabbit was not really able to hop for the whole race and the owner was carrying the rabbit to complete the race,but I must say the rabbit was really darm cute and shy.And some of the dogs were really cute especially those small one.
Next we we're deploy to help out with the ultimate race where contestant need to run up and down 5 block of 40 story.If I am not wrong,I think there were more participants last years.
Running around the area of about 5 hours without breakfast is really no joke,as I really dislike having breakfast in the morning,so I did not eat the breakfast bento box that they give me in the morning.Was a lot of pretty lady at the event.haha...
Had lunch at around 12pm and we basically did nothing much after our lunch and we just went to the cc exhibition across the road in front of the toa payoh library and after than went back to the cc for the debrief.
Went home after that and on the bus,the fatigue begin,really feel to tired to move but then,still have to move in order to go home.After bathing,I just nua on the bed typing the blog post that I miss out on.
Hopefully tomorrow I got the time to join my ex-lecture for the swim as I really need to work on my cardio as I realize from today event,that my body is getting weak and my stamina was not as good as before as I was panting just by climbing 13 floors of stairs.Last year I was able to climb around 20 floor of stair before panting.Really need to train before NS as I am aiming to go to OCS.
Saturday, June 7, 2014
Mudane Saturday
Did nothing much today just nua at home playing iPad. And went to sleep early to prepare for tomorrow events
Friday, June 6, 2014
Awesome Friday
It has been quite sometime since I play till very tired and a bit wild in school.Went to school early to do some last min projects work.So I woke up at 6am and reach school by 8am.
Housekeeping practical was next,for the first time,I have to clean and check so many toilets in a day.But I guess is the lecturer expectation that really make the job more tired as he is a very meticulous and I like it as it train me to be better than before.
After than,went to the hotel club orientation BBQ.Did manage to play with other classmate plus disturbing some other people.Was not really a good plan event though.And I was wanting to contribute to this CCA and become part of the exco,but because of my upcoming attachment,I was not really able to join the exco I guess.But still,I hope to contribute as much as possible to this CCA.
Left halfway to went to jog with my ex-lecturer and classmate.I has been quite some time since I jog.and after 4 km of jogging,my classmate and I went to gym for about 45 mins and went home after that.
Housekeeping practical was next,for the first time,I have to clean and check so many toilets in a day.But I guess is the lecturer expectation that really make the job more tired as he is a very meticulous and I like it as it train me to be better than before.
After than,went to the hotel club orientation BBQ.Did manage to play with other classmate plus disturbing some other people.Was not really a good plan event though.And I was wanting to contribute to this CCA and become part of the exco,but because of my upcoming attachment,I was not really able to join the exco I guess.But still,I hope to contribute as much as possible to this CCA.
Left halfway to went to jog with my ex-lecturer and classmate.I has been quite some time since I jog.and after 4 km of jogging,my classmate and I went to gym for about 45 mins and went home after that.
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Relaxing Thursday
Yesterday form teacher called to ask me about my attendance and she say the second warning letter will be sent to me soon.It can be annoying being in the sub group,when there is alway problem with the attendance as we are joining with other class and no one take attendance for us then suddenly you just receive letter for not attending class when you in fact did attend lesson.
I don like to lie but when CA ask about how I am getting along with the students in the sub group,I really don know how to explain to her,so I just say I am ok.
Sleep late last night,because I reactivity my old FB account and I saw to many old picture and really bring back to much memory.
Finally get a chance to wake up late today also.But this will soon become a privilege that I have to give up for another 11 months.But it definitely with it.
Attended the vertical marathon briefing and I am super excited for the Sunday event,because the last year one was a joke but I also have lots of fun during the event climbing up and down in different block.Hopefully thing will turn up well this year.Pray hard there will not be rain.
I don like to lie but when CA ask about how I am getting along with the students in the sub group,I really don know how to explain to her,so I just say I am ok.
Sleep late last night,because I reactivity my old FB account and I saw to many old picture and really bring back to much memory.
Finally get a chance to wake up late today also.But this will soon become a privilege that I have to give up for another 11 months.But it definitely with it.
Attended the vertical marathon briefing and I am super excited for the Sunday event,because the last year one was a joke but I also have lots of fun during the event climbing up and down in different block.Hopefully thing will turn up well this year.Pray hard there will not be rain.
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
Irrational Wednesday
FOA test just ended and I think I will not score that well,my mind suddenly cannot remember those thing that I study when I was doing the short answer questions.But at least I know my weakness,so I can improve on.
2 papers down and left one more to go.Hopefully the last one can be easy.My brain memory is running low already.Luckily holiday is coming.A short break from the studying.
Dragging to go to school each day,which explain why I am always late for school.I really wish there are more students in this sub group,but there is really nothing much I can do about it.Hopefully I can be really wild during the upcoming course camp and really bond with other classmates.
Really find it hard fitting in to the current class sub group.
I am glad that that I found the courage to really express my feeling,getting to know who are those people who can accept/cannot my flaws. If people cannot accept my flaws,then I should just walk always instead of trying to mixing in with those who cannot accept my flaws.If I change myself to pleases other,that what is the different between me and a clown.
Guess this is my retribution for what I did to someone...What come around goes around.
Hopefully things will turn out better soon.
Not going to gym this week.hopefully can resume my normal gym schedule soon.shall do some other stuffs to train my body.
Not going to gym this week.hopefully can resume my normal gym schedule soon.shall do some other stuffs to train my body.
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Enlighten Tuesday
Almost been a month(4 may 2014) since I started this changing process.Really sacrifice quite a lot of things but sometime I really have doubt if I can really make it thought this rest of the 11 months.
IA is starting in October and will end around April,which will be a even harder period of the journey,juggling work,business,CCA and etc.Really wondering how am I going to survive the period.Hopefully can find like minded people who can help me out.
Guess I was lucky that I have been on the "brink of death" literally,because how many people,like me, can walk alway with serious injuries after getting knock down by a van traveling at 50km/hour or even faster.Not trying to boast anything but,the moment when the van hit me,I can really feel like the time really stop for a moment and my mind really have a lot of flashback.
People at their teenage should have fun,I agree.But after that incident,I realize that life can be quite fragile and short.I want to achieve something in life anything.I don want to just study 15 years,just to get a job for the rest of my life.Life should be more than than,in my own opinion.
Almost been living on earth for almost 19.5 years and I have been an under-achiever all this while,for once I really want to challenge myself to excel.
Someone once told me that,when you are experiencing tough time,take a few minutes to think about your goals,then you will have motivation to take small step toward your goal.No one can achieve anything big overnight,only persistent and consistent action can.
Tomorrow there is a test and I am really not really prepare.So lots of mugging to do later at one of my favorite past hideout.Hopefully can upload some photo later on.
At time I really wish my holiday can be filled with lot of camp,because it has been sometime since I participate one.
Saw this on Instagram which really relate and express to what i am feeling and doing.
IA is starting in October and will end around April,which will be a even harder period of the journey,juggling work,business,CCA and etc.Really wondering how am I going to survive the period.Hopefully can find like minded people who can help me out.
Guess I was lucky that I have been on the "brink of death" literally,because how many people,like me, can walk alway with serious injuries after getting knock down by a van traveling at 50km/hour or even faster.Not trying to boast anything but,the moment when the van hit me,I can really feel like the time really stop for a moment and my mind really have a lot of flashback.
People at their teenage should have fun,I agree.But after that incident,I realize that life can be quite fragile and short.I want to achieve something in life anything.I don want to just study 15 years,just to get a job for the rest of my life.Life should be more than than,in my own opinion.
Almost been living on earth for almost 19.5 years and I have been an under-achiever all this while,for once I really want to challenge myself to excel.
Someone once told me that,when you are experiencing tough time,take a few minutes to think about your goals,then you will have motivation to take small step toward your goal.No one can achieve anything big overnight,only persistent and consistent action can.
Tomorrow there is a test and I am really not really prepare.So lots of mugging to do later at one of my favorite past hideout.Hopefully can upload some photo later on.
At time I really wish my holiday can be filled with lot of camp,because it has been sometime since I participate one.
Saw this on Instagram which really relate and express to what i am feeling and doing.
Monday, June 2, 2014
Bleak Monday
At times,I just wish to have someone who have the same thinking of trying to pushing ourself to achieve something.Having healthy competition to motivate each other to carry on when things are tough.After all,what we achieve is our to keep.Having fun along the way.Being an all-rounder student that can excel in study,sports and etc.
I don really care what other people think about me."nerd","anti-social","weird" and etc. I don really want to mix with people who think they cannot achieve anything and laugh at people's goals or achievement. What I am trying to say is that everyone have an equal opportunities to achieve,but it is a matter of are "WE" willing to do so.
I am aiming to go poly and I wish that I can pay my own school fee by then.How many people in Singapore can proudly say that they paid for their poly school fee by themselves??
As much as I try to stay positive,the surrounding alway drain my energy away,I really don know how much longer I can continue.I really feel helpless that I cannot change my surrounding,having no real friends that I can really depend on.
I guess I am just a weak human after all,whining about problems.
I don really care what other people think about me."nerd","anti-social","weird" and etc. I don really want to mix with people who think they cannot achieve anything and laugh at people's goals or achievement. What I am trying to say is that everyone have an equal opportunities to achieve,but it is a matter of are "WE" willing to do so.
I am aiming to go poly and I wish that I can pay my own school fee by then.How many people in Singapore can proudly say that they paid for their poly school fee by themselves??
As much as I try to stay positive,the surrounding alway drain my energy away,I really don know how much longer I can continue.I really feel helpless that I cannot change my surrounding,having no real friends that I can really depend on.
I guess I am just a weak human after all,whining about problems.
Sunday, June 1, 2014
Tired Sunday
To be honest I wish I could have a group of people I could really called friends,but let just say I have a weird attitude.haha.
I believe that as a group we could do more,having heated discussions because we all want the best for the group,friendship become stronger through conflicts,but I don like to be in a group just for the sake of it,doing nothing for the group.
At time I want to fight for some friendship but I guess things don go well.I believe in free will,I don like to force people to accept me if they don want.
Nobody like the feeling of loneliness,but I don want to be fake just because I want to be in the "group".
I really wish one day when I die,I can see who will be the one that really still remember me.
I believe that as a group we could do more,having heated discussions because we all want the best for the group,friendship become stronger through conflicts,but I don like to be in a group just for the sake of it,doing nothing for the group.
At time I want to fight for some friendship but I guess things don go well.I believe in free will,I don like to force people to accept me if they don want.
Nobody like the feeling of loneliness,but I don want to be fake just because I want to be in the "group".
I really wish one day when I die,I can see who will be the one that really still remember me.
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