Disappointed Monday

Kinda excited that school is starting today.But somehow all the things look unfamiliar to me.Those classmates and lecture.Perhaps I am did not really socialize with them during he first term and after a long holiday,and now when I see everyone,they looks very unfamiliar.

I really want to try socializing with them but,I would say they have their own group and I am not very comfortable in showing my "true self" to them.Something might be funny to me,but to some of them,they might not like it.

I am like a wondering soul in the class,unless someone come over to talk to me,I will not really take the initiative to talk to them.Rather that saying I am a loner,I would think myself as a carefree person looking for like mind people whom we can really "play,joke and work hard in study together". I mean life is about the way you live.Play harder,work smarter.

Lost the motivation to go for gym and etc.Perhaps my body still need time for adjustment.Phase test is nearby and haven really revise anything during the holiday.

I really feel happy when the lecture announce the I have the highest score among my class group,but I was disappointed that I cannot get the highest in class.Not saying I am greedy but I really want to get a good GPA for this course and I want to try to score the highest each time.Because of this aim and challenge,it motivate me to go to school and pay attention in class,if not I will be just going to class each day to waste time.

I really love challenge and I am that kind of person that alway like to win and wanting to push myself each time.I alway have this idea of push my body and mind to its limit and just collapse(fainting).