The job was to distribute and keep the small drums for a event.It was the most simple and relax job that I have done and our job liase person which which thought was a guy was in fact a young pretty lady.
Wanted to go to the trick eye museum today,but the job end to late at 5.00pm at expo so I guess i will go on Sunday instead.
Currently writing this post from my favorite hideout.Time check 6.40pm.I thought I have already done enough thinking when I was at the chalet,but I guess life was not easy not me because I am too introvert and I don really like to share my soft side with other but I would like to find somewhere quiet and do some quiet thinking by myself.
I am alway mislead by my own expectation of other,I alway though it was natural for other to take the first step to salvage the friendship and I was being an asshole for alway being the first to walk out when things happens.But I have lost the ability to trust my own actions,I really don know what are worth fighting and what are not worth keeping,I don know if people are asking because they care or asking for the sake of asking.To be honest I have no ideas what I am doing most of my time.I am glad that sometime people would try to salvage the friendship but most of the time,people would just leave.
I guess the reason why I seem so anti social is because I hope people can accept me first for who I am before I can really open up and go do some crazy stuff with them.I am really tired because sometime the friendship that I really put in a lot of effort and I don mind doing things for the friendship,which I thought was the strongest turn out to be the weakest.And acting like I don care or give a darm on the outside,but I was like a broken soul on the inside.
Sometime those that look the strongest on the outside and broken souls on the inside.
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