I should have do my hotel hopping today to find a suitable place for my attachment but i postponed it because i thought your will make it for today swim.
Feel darm irritated that i decided to go to swim alone.So after lunch with my dad,I ask him to drive me to Sengkang Swimming Complex and when i reach there,it was close on Monday.+-$#@$%@#%$#%#$$@. But still i decided to go to the Ba Ku Teh at jalan kyu because I really miss the stir fry Ba Ku Teh.
And guess what,i freaking order the wrong one.Really not my day.haiz.
After that went to Bishan Swiming Complex and swim for 2 hours.Was quite suprise that the pool was quite pack.I kinda of relax to swim alone as you can keep swimming without distractions,keep trying to push myself to swim when i really feel tired.But after the swim,i feel very refresh.Wanted to go NTUC to buy some salad for dinner so walk from the swiming complex to amk hub.
Kinda have this mix feeling that I really want to get rid of.of. Initially I thought that giving up was the right choice,but now,i really feel that giving up was really a really bad mistake.I hate myself for not trying before giving up and how i really don know what to do.
I feel like I am acting like a crybaby for your attention and being a constant irritation to you but i really don know what to do.To be honest,I really force myself to let go and try to push you away but it only turn into more mix emotions in me.
Sometime i really hate myself for being selfish and being ironic and also having to much confidence in things that i know i cannot achieve and end up like a pathatic and anoying fool and cause so many drama for others.I know that i say that i will not post anything negative in this blog anymore,but i really really don know what to do to end this stupid emotions that i have.
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