Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Motivated Tuesday

Despite having 2 disappointed day in a row,today was actually quite a peaceful one."nua" on bed till I feel like waking up and play laptop till afternoon and went to lunch with dad before heading to school for CCA.Holiday kinda drain my motivation as there is no actual plan and the only way to pass time is to play maplestory.

Really wish that there is someone who can really accompany me to do tons of stuffs during this holiday but it seem like I don know who to call.Wanted to started on my etp project but I am afraid my proposal might not get approve and I cannot get  reimburse for the stuff that I bought and I really need to find someone who is mad enough to help me kickstart this project.

My hotel hoping activity was suppose to on Monday but have to postpone due to some unforeseen things.Since I am free tomorrow,I shall do it tomorrow.I wonder if I can go to more to 30 hotel to take a look and hopefully I can make a better decision for my IAP.After my recent IAP,I am much conscious of choosing my IAP place,as it will be for 6 months and I really need a good grade for this.We can hear lots of good things about the place but when we are at that organizations,things are not that nice,especially when you really feel cheated by that organizations.


Saw this post on Facebook and decided to check out this guy.I would say all his post i can really relate to what his is trying to say and this is one of my favorite.I guess deep down inside everyone,we will definitely have the desire for recognition by other.


This post can be a short summary of what happen to me now.My low self-esteem really put me in a awkward spot.I want to take the first move to start a conversation,but i really don know how.I want to tell you how i really feel but given the current situation,it is impossible.

Lets put it in a simple way.I assume i know how it will end.I am too afraid of losing the friendship.I am afraid of what will happen .I know it hurt,but it seem impossible to let go not matter how hard i try.I know I can never be the guy you like.I hope that miracle would happen,but i know this is not a fairy-tail.

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