No holiday mood lei.

Went to some cafe with "F1,2013 stewarding ppl" on Thursday after school so i just let the picture describe everything.

For me i would say that the food fusion was worth a try and i would give a 3/5.The ambiance was really an interesting concept but i did not take any picture so if you want to know,you can visit the restaurant yourself.

Restaurant info :La Marelle Cafe @ 25 Baghdad Street

Just a short explanation of the photo above.Saw this "garfield" outside one of the cafe and i am not kidding,the size of the cat is really quite big.Not wanting to disturb it,so i decided to take this photo from a distance.

So after dinner,we are looking for a place for dessert but most of the cafe are full and we ended up walk to Bugis plus and have waffle ice-cream from MarbleSlab.


1 May (labor Day)

Dad say he would bring me to Malaysia today but he did not.So I ended up going Malaysia alone at 7pm.Spent $30 RM on McDonald for dinner because I did not really eat much in the afternoon and i decided to have my 3 in 1 meal (lunch+ dinner + supper) so I order a quarter pounder meal plus 20 pieces nuggets and the lady also give me.I have no idea why she give me this,so i check the receipt and it say it was some kind of promotion item,so i just take it.Intending to sell it away cos it will accumulate dust in my house only.

2 May

Went for the Oikos with the zone people which i initial wanted to skip because i kinda wanted to just stay at home and sleep or play Dota,but eventually decided that i need to exercise so i kinda drag myself to go.Played captain ball,frisbee and volleyball and i kinda had muscle cramp after like playing for 10 minutes but i just decided to just play on.

Dinner with dad after that with my stinky smell from my sweat that dry up on the shirt.

Overview of my SATM

SATM= Status at the moment :).

School

Kinda started school for a week now and i kinda "hate it" at the moment.Class was not those "enthusiastic" kind and was kinda "sabo" to the the class rep because I was the oldest in class. Not really talking to the classmate because i was kinda shy and i tend to sweat a lot in school because the weather is so darm hot and to make matter worst,when my sweat dry up in aircon,it tend to smell.

School schedule was kinda fck up because i still don know how to use the "complicated multiple online platform" and was kinda hard to actually find the up to date timetable.Lots of holiday are coming up soon and guess what??I have to go back school on a Saturday for make up lesson.

Just hoping and praying that school might become better in time to come because once i can settle my school stuff,i can move on to planning my "entrepreneur stuff".Always wanted to challenge myself to become an "all rounder student and a bit more" because i know how hash the world can be and school will be the last place "where we can make mistake and get no consequences"

Weekends

So on Saturday was the BEACH MANIA event which i was part of planing but guess what??It was sunny on the morning when we are setting up and in the afternoon,when we was about to start,it rain and we have to "abort the event" and went to play captain ball in some multi purpose void deck area.Was kinda surprise i did not even have any cramps because i really cannot remember when was the last time i exercise already.

Dessert after dinner was kinda embarrassing because 2 person from our group was queuing for LLAO LLAO and when it their turn we kinda "cut queen" and order 9 cups and i can felt that people are cursing and swearing at us and to make it more embarrassing,all of us are wear yellow t-shit.

What next??

I am also not sure what is next in myself. But.But i would say i would want to put my faith in God again.Because i know through challenges i would learn and bring "force" out of my comfort zone each time.But stay tune guys,will update soon.

Mixed feeling on Back To School

Yup like what the title say.MIXED FEELING...

(Negative feeling)

• Got into TP which was my 3 and last choice when i apply for school.Reasons being it far from my home and from what i hear from other RP seem to be a more "relax" poly compare to other poly in SG. But since i am already in TP,i guess i just have to get over with it as school is starting on MONDAY!!

• As what i expect,i am the oldest in class or perhaps the entire business school students while most of them are 17&18.Hopefully there will not be much "generation gap". 

• During orientation,the lecture say that if we were to late for 3 time,we will only get borderline pass only,so kinda scare i will be late.Taxi fare from my house to school is about $14++ and if on peak hour,most properly is about $20++

• As i haven being official being matriculated into the student database yet,i cannot access to any of the school portal and to make matter worse,everything information can only be search on the student portal.I don really like to say this but "F*** MY LIFE SERIOUSLY"

• Kinda stuck between if i want to be a very "siao on" or a "very relax student", because i kinda wanting to join 2 "Interest group/IG" as both are kinda related to my course and hopefully can get to know more people from there.

• Might not get used to poly as somehow the thing that i learn in ITE might be very different form poly and one example would be presentation skills.One trick that i learn from ITE was to put keyword in the PowerPoint and based on that we can use our own word to present,which i always manage to "smoke my way through".

(Positive feeling)

• AFTER SO LONG,I FINALLY GET INTO POLY. WOOOOOOO

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If people were to ask me if i regret not studying hard in sec 5,my answer would kinda be a YES & NO. Back then in sec 5 i was really clueless and afraid about my future.

It was only in ITE, i found out what i really want and i was even more afraid about my future because i dare to dream bigger, learned not to blindly follow the crowd and was given chance to go oversea to Canada  and that was really something that was the "key changing point".To summarize the trip it would be

 "stepping out of my comfort zone and experience the "ever-changing world" 

So i am kinda curious what would poly be like for me??

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Back Again.(Hopefully can still keep that motivation)

Current status update

.Working (PT/FT)?? --Ended internship about 1 month back and might consider getting a PT job.

(A photo of internship place and my job scope is basically reservation staff, operator, receptionist, kopi kia.)






.Whats next (Poly/NS)??-- Hopefully can defer NS but my poly still haven sent me my enroll pack :(

(Not really the course i wanted and my deferment is still pending )

.Doing what now?? Slacking and lazying around at home and play Maplestory. (yar i know it lame)

(Yar i know its a lame game but i still find the characters cute and there are also new jobs and skills)











.Travel to anywhere during holiday?? Nope,just been to Malaysia twice with my bother and his friends and with my mom and her friends.

7 April
(Impromptu went to Malaysia with my brother and his friend after their dental appointment and by coincident i met a lady that never thought i would meet again.In fact this is not the first time i met her after so long.I still remember i once meet her on an MRT and she was playing with her phone so i guess she never saw me. But somehow whenever I met her again,i would want to go up and apologize to her but then i don have the guts to do what i suppose to done a long time back.

9 April
(Took this photo while having ba ku teh lunch near Malaysia,Sentosa plaza. This was kinda memorable because the last time i  been to the restaurant,something happen and somehow, i regretted a bit.)


So ya those are the few update since i last post.So wanted to restart blogging back after internship but then i have always been lazy and i cannot continue what i started.

Somehow this weekend have been kinda "weird" for me.For those who don know,i have now been to church more often then i used to. Not wanting to say anything to religious here by somehow i believe God have answer my prayer in some part of my life problems and reminding me of some stuffs that i might have "forgotten".

Sometimes i really wonder if I have put up so many "fake masks" that i am beginning to forget who i really am and it kinda felt that i am have some "identity crisis" problems.I am not trying to get attention or sympathy but honestly some part of me want to be like "famous influencer" , " teenage entrepreneur", "excelling in sports", "awesome drummer" and much  much more.

Have to admit i will feel jealous when people can do the things that i want do.I don really want the "fame and glamour" because when you are famous,you don really know who are your really friends and who are just trying to take advantage of you. I admit that i have low self stem and i need something to fill that empty void.

Will update again.so stay tune. 

Disclamer !! Photo are taken from Google!!

Fun & sick week

When I intent to restart blogging,I say that I would want to post everyday,but now,I have been posting weekly only.I must say I have become more and more lazy as time goes by and along the way I really lost a lot "stuffs" like the motivation and the positive attitude to start an entrepreneur project,the discipline to at least read a chapter each day,lost the interest to go to the bookstore to buy a self help book weekly.

Not going to give excuses such as I have no time because of attachment work or etc because really need to be honest with my self and start planing for my life ahead.In a few month time,I am going to hit "20" and I am still not done with my study and NS.

During this week in my workplace,it become more obvious that I am not really suitable in the hotel industry or more specifically the "front office".My personality and interest is more of doing those "back support stuffs" because I can be really shy and I sometime find it hard to get my message across to people and i don't like to deal with lots of guests unless needed,because I have been in "service industry" long enough to see the flaws and beauty of it.And the most valuable lesson I learn is

 "your best cannot please all guest,but you cannot stop trying your best to please the guests"

To be honest I don really care if guest recognize my name or give me tips(unless it a 3 digits tips,I might consider take my words back),but to me what I really want is that satisfaction of guest and letting them leave happy from my workplace,be it a random act of kindness or a "wow" moment for them.

Then again there will alway be those "cheapo" or "nasty" guest that will really spoilt your mood and day with their nonsense.

Ok shall not continue talking about my job for now.

On a happy note,Sunday church outing was fun but we lose the game.haha...but we definitely give our best in trying to beat the other teams despite being outnumber.

Sick week

Finally the 2 week of orientations plus training is finally over.And tomorrow will be the day i officially start my attachment with live guest.Though i have been there to do part time,but somehow i will still feel excited and nervous.

Despite having "work" till 6 pm from Monday to Friday, still i am happy that i can still can fill my day with meeting people and doing stuffs.

But i am kind of happy for the meet up on Monday with some people.Been through lots of things with them during the secondary school years.Guess it was when we went to different path after secondary school,things began to change i guess.To be honest,i did really want to let this friendship drift away at first because of stuffs that happen during the past 2 years and even deleting them from my social media.Then suddenly your called for a meetup and i decided to just turn up.

Yup,i still keep all those letters and picture.During the meetup,those feeling was different from when we were all in secondary school.Somehow i feel so distance from your,even if there was lots of laughter from our conversation.When your talk about the topic of "social media",somehow i just blabber out that i delete your from social media,in hoping that we can really have a heart to heart talk together but then,the more i talk,the more distance i feel from your.Don't ask me why i feel like that because i myself have no idea.

On a lighter note,Saturday church service was awesome i would say.Been to about 4 different church for some time in 11 years and yet ,i am still not wanting to be a christian.Somehow this seen to be the fourth calling and yet,my answer still remain the same.

Been having headaches,flu and ulcer for the whole week and i guess it because of the weather...hais

Guidence week

Yup,lots of outings and stuffs happen this 2 week.

Getting to know new people through a friend of my and somehow I would say it not a coincident that all this happen when I need a new directions.

Somehow during the sharing on the topic of self forgiveness,I somehow felt happy that I manage to have some time to think about past events and really ponder on those past events.Even though it all in the past,to be honest I never really let myself go after all these time.Pretending to not really care but deep down,some of those events and memories are still so clear in my mind.

Call me stupid or what,why bother remember stuffs that can hurt you so much...

Few days back I was at a place and receive an unexpected call from someone.I never really hear what was the call about and I was kinda waiting for the SMS but it never came and I was really to afraid to call back.

Industry attachment was kinda alright as the first week was training.Lots of notes to do but I really gain a lot from the training.hopefully the next week training will be more fun

Wonder-less Friday

Somehow, i loss the excitement of working part time already. Perhaps i know that what i want in my life,is more that having a stable jobs and live a mediocre life. Not saying mediocre life is bad or looking down at people who wish to have a mediocre life. I guess,it because i am still young and i want to try different jobs and wish i can be find something that i really interested in and try to start a business in that area.To be honest,i am interested in quite a number of stuffs and i really want to try all of them.

I have personally have some working experience and meet people who are in their jobs for more that a few decade.When i hear that they stay in their jobs is because of passion and i never quite agree with that statement.Personally i believe that that so-called "Passion" is only something that lass for 5 years at most.Most likely after 5 years,people tend to get bored of what they are doing and stay on because on the money.

Example, When a chef have been cooking for more than 10 years,won't they want to open they own restaurant rather than working for others who are making money off their cooking skills?

Sometime we often chose to "self-denial" the facts and regret later in life why we did not take the opportunities when we are young.Sometimes we are so afraid of what we can achieve because of our surrounding and background.

Guess the reason why i like to take risk is because i have nothing to lose except for my life and i can really give my best shot at the things i want to achieve if i want to and ignoring those that believe i will fail.Rather than say i am unrealistic,i guess i am more of wanting to prove myself to others.Or should i say i am a "好高骛远(  Chinese idiom that describe someone who bite off more than one can chew)" person.

One of my goals in life is to one day be one stage and give talks about the economic and the future.I really get excited when successful people are invited to give a talk about the economic and the future. I am amaze at how some people can have so much visions for the future.Found this video yesterday and watch it and i really like some of the answer that they reply.

Or even better,speaking to thousands of people about your experiences and the journey to success.

This few week,i have been wondering around the towns area alone and kinda have lots of thoughts about lots of stuffs as usual.I am not the kind of person that will plan outings and ask people along because i hate it when a group cannot compromise on a certain things and in the end,no one end up happy.I rather spend time along being carefree and do as i like.But at times,i got to admit,it can be quite bored and lonely.

Personal sharing post.

Kinda want to do post about personal sharing about myself.100% facts.I am challenging myself to face my problems head on.

"READ IT AT YOUR OWN RISK"

Keep wondering what is wrong with me.One moment,i can be very highly motivated and the next moment,i can be very down and depress.To be honest,i am a guy that have really low esteem and self confidence.

I am really afraid of "taking the first step" to talk to people.Reasons being i like to "joke" or "play" without limits and sometime people can be angry at me because of it and i don really like to talk to people who keep swearing things about people parents.To me it kind of a taboo because it just show that you don respect your elders and yourself.I have to admit i rarely do it unless i am really really pissed off by that person and the words just "fly out" from my mouth. 

I seldom acknowledge people as my friends because i think that the word "Friends" kinda lose it original meaning nowadays.I prefer to called those "hi, bye people" as acquaintance.People nowadays call someone their "friends" when they only just met the other person for a few time.Guess everyone definition of "friends" are different.

To me,personally,a "friends" is someone who you can comfortably  have a very personal chat with,people who you are willing to help them when they need help and you can just show your true personally in front of them,friendship that can last even without years of not seeing each other.That's the reasons why i don really have much people or almost non, I called "friends" because people tend to "come and go" and when conflicts tend to arise,I can confidently say that I have already tried to compromise and when i see there is no meaning to  haggle anymore,i will just walked away from that friendship because if that friendship is still worth something,the person will then come and try to salvage it.No point try to salvage the friendship alone when the opposite party don't even care anymore right??    

I always have this dream to start my own entrepreneur business,but then i know that i cannot do it alone.I did try to get people to help but i always get turned down.No mater how hard I tried to stay possitive,it's really very demoralizing when you are faced with rejection every time.But i always have this favorite phase that i say to myself which is "But no one say it's going to be easy"

People say i have no fashion sense and i agree.To me i like to wear oversize jeans and shirt.I don't like to wear tight and uncomfortable,just to look good.I don really have any expensive shirt, pants, watch and etc.The most expensive item that i normally wear is my baby G watch which i bought at $150.I always dream that one day,i am so successful that i can just wear my oversize jeans and shirt and travel around the world looking like a broke guy.

Always wanted to get into a relationship,but then which girl in the right mind will like a guy with no look, no money, no talents, unable to sweet talk, super stubborn and low self confident?Kinda stuck when talking about this topic.I just think if any girl were to get into a relationship with me,i will definitely be a burden and embarrassment to her.I mean i am kinda shock and jealous when people around me are in a relationship and i am "forever alone".Not saying i am finding a person to feel "less lonely" but then i just really want to find a soul mate.

Hard to believe right??My confidence level is so low that i often have serious sweaty palm and legs problems.Can you believe that all my flip flop actually turn partially black because of my foot sweat?Yup that how bad my sweaty foot is... ;(.

Shall end here.(photos used in this blog are taken from Google Search and are not mine.) :).

Rainy Friday

Time now is 12.56am and i am still not sleep because IT HOLIDAY. WOOT..

Basically did nothing much for the past 1 week.except the Sunday and Tuesday dinner and Wednesday movie.

Sunday dinner was at Swee Choon. The food was awesome or perhaps i was too hungry that day,as i eat the most i guess.After dinner,we went to "subway" and it was bored and awkward.The rest went back at around 10.30pm.I was kind of bored and i really need to have some quiet time,so i went to took the MRT and went down to Marina Bay Sand.

To me MBS is a special place.It kinda evoke different emotions in me. Excited, sad, happy, angry, relive, naive, childish and a lots more.I guess it also a hideout place for me when i need some quiet time and inspiration.Somehow i find it hard to really describe my love and hate for this place also.

Tuesday dinner was also not really that nice though.The food really take quite a while to cook and i was already staving when i was waiting for the rest.After the dinner,went to McDonald for ice cream and did some "crap talking" with the rest.

To be honest,when we was about to go home,i kinda hesitate for a while because i don want to take the long MRT route home but then i also don want to cause unnecessary trouble so i kinda took the bus back.Then also along the journey,i passed by a bus stop which kinda brought back some memories of my previous business associate,where we used to catch the last bus home after the Friday business meeting and we used to talk about lots of stuffs about dreams and etc.

Wednesday movie was kinda an improtu one."Maze runner" was really a nice show.Dinner after that with dad at chomp chomp.

Kinda excited for no reasons for the upcoming  GEP trip.Hopefully everything can go smoothly.haha

Freedom Finally

Feel so relive that the exam are over.One week before the exam,i was so stress up because i only study last minutes and i still aiming to get A for the 3 subjects.

After the exam,i don think that i will get A's but more to getting B's and C' because of careless mistake.Gosh...But still i am glad that i have a aim before the exam as i really get motivate to study and not giving up..

Still i am still happy as i did give my best shot for this course exam.And hopefully the upcoming industry attachment will pass very fast.

No mood to work part time during this 1 month break.1 year back at around this timing,i was doing stewarding for the F1 event with one of my classmate and i must say it was a really a fun and unique experience.But this year the hotel that i used to work for decided not to re-contract for the F1 again.  

Hopefully i can find stuffs to do during the holiday.I really hate boredom.

Will be back to blogging on Friday.stay tune reader.

Finally my blog reach 3k view in like after 6 years.Pathetic right??plus I still haven minus away the "view" by me.

"disillusioned" week

Kinda have lots of stuffs to blog about but did not really have much time to really write it down because exam are next week and I am trying my best to revise.

Time now is 7.27pm and I am now on the train,going home.

Time really past really fast and soon it will be another 6 months of dreaded industrial attachment and I am kinda afraid to be honest.

I am kinda excited and I am also having second thoughts about the upcoming trip.

After reading a fews book about businesses and mindset,I am really make me more excited and motivated by the idea of becoming a entrepreneur. Terms like "financial freedom", "rats-race" "401k" and etc.,really broaden my view about certain stuffs that normally people of my ages would not want to think about.Not bragging anything but all I can say is that when you really understand the "value of money",your thinking will start to change.

For me,I had a goal this year which was to set up a small entrepreneur project to fund my upcoming poly fee,but along the way,things does not go according to what I planned and I kinda lose the initial motivation to really start the whole project.Up till recently,when my mom told me about the stuffs that I bought from Malaysia,I kinda regain some of the initial excitement and maybe after my exam,I would really want to try to set up this project.

School seem to be much of a burden as for this few week,I only have to go to school for 1 lesson only.Want to skip the lesson but,the lectures is giving important tips on the exam.So I ended slacking with some classmate after school having lunch,talk craps and stuff.

Sometime,one harmless and unintentional action could mean a different thing to different people.Guess I am kinda sensitive when people talk this "topic" to me because I really wonder what are some of the stuff that people talk about me behind my back? "I am not really concern what my classmate talk about me but I am more curious what are the stuffs the people I call "friends" talk about when I am not around.I mean we have "different sides" I front of different people but I am really curious those friends that I have are showing me their "true side" or "fake side" in front of me.

Why I am suddenly talking about this topic is because today when I went back to my ex-secondary school.The school did not change much.Some of those teacher that though me have left.Somehow I got a weird chilling feeling in my heart.Walk past those corridor and memory of those secondary school just seem like yesterday.Those "bros" and "friends" that I used to play,joke,disturb,goes to recess,smoke,go LAN and stuffs,seem like they have vanish now.

I can still remember the bros that help me out during the sec 4 toilet incident,the friend that always went to esplanade library to study with.The once close clique in sec 4.

Perhaps is because I don normally show my feeling or tell anyone my intension that make people feel that I don really treasure the friendship.But trust me I really treasure it.

Or should I say "或许友情是要经过时间的考验才能知道那东西的价值"

Why my emotion is like a never ending roller coster??Why is it when it reach a high point,it will definitely drop to a bottomless pit??

To me now I am really afraid of interacting with new people.I don want to feel happy and then sad the next moment.I have to admit I am weaker than other guys because i am alway emotional.

"Circles" week (25 to 28 August)

Kinda lost the excitement in blogging already.When i first start blogging again few months back,i want to keep a dairy of what are the events and stuffs that happen within this one year.And most importantly to remind me of the goals that i have set,"4.0 GPA".

Right now,to be honest,I still want to start that entrepreneur idea that i have thought of but i don really have that finance right now.Wanted to lent from mum but she already lent me some money for the upcoming trip and she kinda not wanting me to go on this trip also.And also when my attachment start,i might not be able to handle both task at the same time.Did find some people to join me,but was rejected immediately.But still i will not give up on this idea,for i will definitely work some things out.

Keep having this thought that i am a "stubborn" person with a tendency on making "rash" decisions and end up making the "wrong" choice.Perhaps being an "emotional" person is my weakness.I am always affect by other people feelings and my own feelings that when it come to making a choice or a decisions,i am blinding by emotions that i cannot make a logical decisions or actions.

About 2 week till the final 2 exam paper and it will be the end of the 6 months school lesson and the start of 6 months attachment program.Still a bit nerve wracking about it.Hopefully this attachment would pass very fast.I guess perhaps i would miss the class a bit.Did not really bond with them much but there are times which i really had a lots of fun with them.Will miss a few of them when i leave.

Not to sure what i am going to do during the upcoming holiday...haha...Not intending to work part time but i am low on cash.What to do??

Somehow this is how i am feeling now.

Guess one day i will find my own happiness,but till then i will patiently wait for her to come into my life.

Moody week (18 to 24 Aug)

Guess I have been numbing myself by trying to keep a busy schedule except Sunday.But I am kinda  tired by the busy schedule.Even after work,I would find some activities,so that I will not start to "over-think" some issues.

Don really have the initial motivation to study already and I am forcing myself to study.Lesson now are all about revision and I really cannot answer most of the questions.

To be honest I used to think I have passion in the service industry but as time goes by,I am being to doubt myself.I really like the "human interactions" and creating the "wow factors" for guests but I really get stress up when things don go according to plan.Perhaps the "f&b"  and the "hotels" industry is not really suitable for me.I always have lots of funny and weird ideas that I want to try out but I am not really in any position to try it out.

Shows like "hotel hell" and "undercover boss" always inspire me to become a entrepreneur in the service industry.Competitions from well known brands kinda make it hard to start a business and compete with them,but I beg to differ.There is a saying "the bigger it is the easier it fall".

Just want to get good grade for my current course so that I can go to "events management course" in poly and hopefully after NS I have the capital to start my own business venture.

But right now I am kinda afraid of the upcoming industry attachment.I have no idea why also.

Sleepy Sunday

As usual,i will definitely sleep like a pig on Sunday because i have no where to go...Wanted to do some revision but then i am so sleepy.Really need a study partner so that i can really revise for the upcoming exam.Kinda lose the enthusiasm about studying.But then i really want to do well for this course because i want to go poly before NS.

Got to go now...My bed is calling me again..

Sick Saturday

Kinda learn quite a lot at work today and i made quite a lot of mistake today as well.But then it all part of the learning process,especially if you are working in a place where there is no "SOP" and you just have to learn everything the hard way.

For no reason when i was bathing after my work,my nose suddenly bleed and i don know why.It has been quite a while since my nose bleed.

Wanted to meet with some classmate for dinner because i am darm hungry but then i end work too late and they are already about to go back.So end up having Burger king for dinner..

Tired Friday

Not much happen today in school.Guess i am too tired.

Work Thurday

Beginning to think if the place i chose for attachment is the right place a not.Somehow the "Cons" outweigh the "pros".But then again sometime you have to be place in an uncomfortable place so that you are challenging yourself to do better.

Some incident happen at work today and i was kinda pissed off by some people but then i was kinda at fault also.Hais..Just got to endure the upcoming attachment...

"Sometime the more i seek,the more i felt lost in this unforgiving world"

Irritated Wednesday

Just hope to finish the Entrepreneur module project.I really feel like ranting things about the project, but then i remember something that i read about.It about Abraham Lincoln life story and here is a part of that story from the book "How to win friends and influence people".

"In the autumn of 1842 he ridiculed a vain, pugnacious politician by the name of James Shields. Lincoln lampooned him through an anonymous letter published in the Springfield Journal. The town roared with laughter. Shields, sensitive and proud, boiled with indignation. He found out who wrote the letter, leaped on his horse, started after Lincoln, and challenged him to fight a duel. Lincoln didn't want to fight. He was opposed to dueling, but he couldn't get out of it and save his honor. He was given the choice of weapons. Since he had very long arms, he chose cavalry broadswords and took lessons in sword fighting from a West Point graduate; and, on the appointed day, he and Shields met on a sandbar in the Mississippi River, prepared to fight to the death; but, at the last minute, their seconds interrupted and stopped the duel.

That was the most lurid personal incident in Lincoln's life. It taught him an invaluable lesson in the art of dealing with people. Never again did he write an insulting letter. Never again did he ridicule anyone. And from that time on, he almost never criticized anybody for anything. "

Perhaps sometime we are so blinded with emotions that we go tell everyone about it or rant everything on the internet.But then i realize something,somethings are really not worth my time and be upset the whole day.In group projects,there will definitely be the "doer" and the "slacker",and you just have to deal with it.

Gosh exam are coming and i really need to do something about it.ARRRRRRRRRRR

Tiring Tuesday

All the module lecture are trying to clear all the chapter by this week and I realizes  that I seem to lost motivating to study.

Finally went to gym for a short while after so long and I think I am gain quite a lot of weight.

CCA  was really a full physical training and also the grading result was out...felt abit disappointed but at the same time I know what my weakness was.

Suckish Monday

As alway monday is alway so bored and suckish.All 3 lesson are a total waste of time.I try to be possitive every monday,but it not working.Really need to do lots of revision from now on.

I seriously hate to do group projects.Reason being I really hate people who talk and throw the "shits" to people and  people that just don care about the project.Not saying that the other people are not contributing but i really hate the fact that when i was doing the projects stuff,people are just doing stuff to annoy you like asking when can they go home.Do you think i like staying back to do all those.I have so much stuffs to do rather that staying in school to all those??

1)I have tons of revisons to do
2)Books to read
3)Go to gym
4)Trying to reseach and remember my part time work stuffs.
5)Errands to do

and much more.

After school went down to The Cathay to buy some stuff but was told to come back on friday as there are no stocks.

MRT back to AMK hub and went to buy a new wallet as my mom is nagging at me for alway losing my ez-link card.

Wanted to do a new student ez-link card as i broke my card and now i am using an adult ez-link card and it is really "burning money fast".

是我太笨,过于关心不值得的东西.或许这是我致命的弱点.

Ending the day and post with a stupid picture of me.haha..

4 to 10 August 2014

Awesome week spend.Almost reach home at 9pm for the whole week,but I can i enjoy each day except Monday and Thursday.

Monday kinda start on a bad note.The first lesson was cancel and the "sub group" was not informed.so wasted 2 hours in school doing nothing.The second lesson was also kinda bored as there are some fault in the system.So basically did almost nothing in school today.

Tuesday and Wednesday was the most awesome as we get to skip lesson and help the seniors with the haunted house.It really bring back memories when I participate in the Sentosa haunted house event 2 years back.Some students reaction are epic and funny.I guess that mean that the haunted house was really a success.Did manage to really bond a lot with the rest of the class when I begin to talk a lot.Dinner with them for the both day and talk lots of craps.

Thursday was not really fun I would say.Went to work from 10am to 8pm and when to meet some people for dinner.Did not really enjoy the dinner though.I hate it when people don inform me who is coming and when i reach there,people i don know pop out of nowhere.I don really like to drink with people i don know because you don know them well.

Friday was kinda hectic.Went for the captain ball events in the morning.Did not really play much of the games though and I am the only one that turn up for the housekeeping practical as the rest have some stuff to do.Luckily that there is help from some senior and some lecturer.Meet some classmate for dinner at lot 1.

Saturday was good I guess.work from 10am to 8pm.and then have steamboat dinner went the sub group classmate at bugis. Kinda like the idea of having "part 2" after work.But then I guess it the people who you spend the night with that make it worth it,unlike the Thursday dinner....

Sunday was kinda drowsy.Plan to study but ended up watch tv and taking long naps...

Hope each week will be fun like this.

School seem much more interesting each day when I begin to show my "mischief and childlike side".

Relive Sunday

Finally CCA grading test are over.My mind totally went blank when I was doing my test and I guess I did not did so well as my kicks are kind of low.But anyway I am glad all the school test and CCA test are over.

Was kind of bored so I just took a bus to Toa Payoh and halfway,someone called and ask me out for a movie.

Watch guardian of the galaxy and like most people I find that groot is so funny and cute.

Went to LAN to play with the group and I have to admit computer games are not something I am good at.I do play those online game but I am really noob at it.haha...

Some of them left after the Lan games around 8pm,while the remaining few and I continue to play pool.Did not expect to lost all the games...hais...

Had a quick dinner before heading home.

insightful Saturday

Part time job was good except for the fact that a manager decided to be a a**hole and it kinda dampen my mood a bit.I guess it good that I get to know some stuff about the hotel before my attachment start is not a bad idea.

I never understand the "concept ideas of new trends and downfall of corporations" when I was first expose to that.But as I increase my working experience in big company,I slowly begin to understand bit and pieces of that concept.Perhaps the saying of "those who don't change with the tides,will get smash dead on the shore".

Went to meet with some classmates after work and had dinner.And went to slack at the fast food outlets.

I kind of like the idea of having "part 2" everyday.having fun with different people at different place.But I reliase that it am be quite tiring,especially if you need to wake up early the next day.But I kind of miss those day when I was still with my "ex-business accociatse",having late discussion and impromtu supper.

I guess sometime we just need to enjoy those fun moment because we don know when it will last until.

Uncertain Friday

Lessons seem weird today due to some reasons.

Was a bit hyper in school and one of the lecturer say I was like a total different person because she alway though that I was a quiet kid.I guess to many people are very confuse.Why sometime and I am quiet and anti-social then all of a sudden,I become very hyper and friendly.To be honest,I really don know myself either.I guess my actions and are depend on the current mood of the day.

Glad that school tests are all over except for the CCA test on Sunday.

Days seem to pass so fast nowadays,not really sure if it a good thing or a bad thing.Good in the sense that I am a day closer to graduating the course which I don really like or have any passion in it,just study for the sake of going poly.Bad in a sense that I am always wasting the days by not doing any productive things

Not really sure if  I am ready to take on the responsibility of a young adult.Kinda miss those day when people would call me 小弟弟(little boy).Guess along the journey of growing up,we will defiantly lose something and gain something.

22 July to 31 July

A very sincerer apology for not updating this blog for a week plus.Really lose the motivation to update each day.But anyway i don think i have much reader anyway.

Meet up with different ex-classmates a few time during the past week and it really make me realize something.I really need to know who are my acquaintances, friends and bros,so that I can treat them better.I am really tired of always giving my best to help other and always end up in a tired state.Sometime I would drift away from my friends and bros to accompany my new acquaintances.I should be more pro-active in taking the initiative to plan for meet up.Sometime when I give so much to someone and realize you are never a friend to them really make me feel like shit.

Tuesday takwondo make me realize how weak I am especially my arms.Have not been to the gym since school reopen and I guess I have gain some weight due to my unhealthy eating habits.

Had a phase test this Wednesday and I think I might not did well,because other classmate did write informations down during the test,while I did not write anything and when the lecture told me to rub away whatever I wrote on the material,I proudly say "I also never write anything".then I kinda saw his face change abit and I only realize I need to write the necessary information on the material when I got home. -.-

Quite a few of my friends 20 birthday have pass and in a few months,i will be celebrating mine too.Looking back,i cannot say i am a mature kid.I have made bad decision and actions that led to consequences.But i am glad i have learn something through the incident each time.

I really need to be more of a "logical thinker" than a "emotional thinker",when things happen,i tend to lost my logical thinking and let my emotions take control of me.

To be honest,i am afraid of the uncertainty in the upcoming months.I hope i can preserve through,knowing that i need to have the determination and motivation to carry on each day and i might not be able to have regular sleep and i have to juggle with school study,cca and a few more.But what is worth is worth the fighting.

Shall end here now.Will try to update more regularly.Stay tune.

Sleepy Monday

My mood today was really sleepy after the first lesson.I guess i am kind of influence by other easily.

Had a quick breakfast at 10am before heading to the library to do some notes.While doing my own notes alone,I feel a bit more energetic and motivate,perhaps of the less distractions around.

Kinda agree with some of the things in the book I am reading now ."We can change our mood easily by ownself if we want to."

After finishing my notes,there is still some spare time,so I decided to go to the field area for a while,as I intend to take a short nap there as it is quiet.But when I reach there,there is already students around so I just find a empty area and just take a short rest.

Went to entrepreneur module lesson and the lecturer briefly talk about the requirements for project 3.Wanted to go to gym after lesson,but one of my ex-classmate ask me if I want to go back with him.
Had a short dinner and talk some rubbish before take the train home.

Fragile Sunday

Life is really so fragile.One moment the person is still alive,the next moment the person is gone.Perhaps i had been near to the "crossroad of life and death",that why i am always sensitive to this topic.Recent MH17 accident and the "wars" really make me feel that we should treasure each day.

Heard from the module lecture that the entrepreneur fund is still pending and will only know the result next month.So I am consider to just borrow money from my parents and just start the whole project by myself.But i still need to find out more information about some stuffs before making the decision.Not having enough information before start a entrepreneur  project would be like throwing money into a dark hole.

Phase tests,CCA grading test and Course events are around the corner.Really don know how to prioritize those events.

Lots of stuffs is running through my mind now.Somehow I just wish that I have this group of "inner circle people",which is something like a clique,but the only different things is that we are social and business related.People that you can talk all sorts of nonsense and serious things to.

I know people who have their own personal inner circle group,and when it come to serious talk,they can really camp at someone house and chat until morning and rest a while before heading to work later.This kind of commitment and bond is something that I will never see in school.I guess the reason why they have this kind of bond and trust is that they have a common financial goal that they need to work together to achieve it.

But the problem is I don like to smile and shy when meet new people and I tend to keep quiet when I feel shy and my actions to other seem like I am a anti-social or proud person.My actions kind of limit me from know potential people who I might want to include in my inner circle.Guess I need to change.

Pondering Saturday

Was suppose to meet with some classmate for dinner at 6pm,but i took a nap and woke up at 6.10pm.had to cab down and i was about one hour late.Had some food at Watami before heading to texas chicken for part 2 dinner and then marble slab.Only one of them had ice cream because some of us was already to full.

Did some chatting and i was really surprise to know things that i did not know.

I wonder what is the definition of "friends" now??looking back I help so many people when they are still a underdog,and when they had new friends and become more popular,I am always the first one to be left out.It then struck me hard,why putting myself out there to help people knowing that I will be the first one that they will forget when they have new friends.

If your have been reading my post,I often address people as classmate but not friends.Reason being I am not afraid to say this but I just feel that we are only together for the sake of it and not really have the intention to really contact each other outside school.Everyone have their own clique and etc.

Sometime we are so blinded by our emotions that we do stuffs that we regret.But life still have to move on.

Wanted to have some drink/dessert but most of the shop are about to close,go I walk to holland villiage,hoping to get some cheap ice cream from the fast food outlets there.But when I reach there,I am still quite full and decided to take mrt home instead.Wanting to walk around the bar area,but was to lazy and tired.

Kinda have this feeling of going to drink every fortnight.Sometime I just need to take a break from everything and just get drunk so that I can sleep properly and stop thinking about so many things.

T.G.I.F

Was early for the project presentation but that some group member was late.Got a bit piss off by someone remark,but still i mange to control my self from flaring up.But overall the presentation was ok i guess.Saw the lecture keep nodding her head and the question she pose to us is quite easy.

Had plan to go back to secondary school with my ex-classmate/bros because i saw the timetable wrongly and miss a lesson.

Went back to secondary school and it really bring back lots of memory.To bad lots of teacher have left and there are lots of new young teacher around.Talk to some teacher and slack around in the school for a while before taking a cab back to ITE.

Housekeeping was tired but kinda expected that there is lots of rooms to clean cos i saw a group of exchange student leaving the campus in the morning.But what i did not expected is that all of the room have a "roll-away-bed".I kinda have a RAB phobia because the last time i work at a hotel,the RAB is long,heavy and hard to control,but the school RAB was not that bad.Still it is still tiring to clear away the RAB and the extra pillow and etc alone.

Had lunch with classmate and did some chatting and left school at around 6.30pm.

Lethargic Thursday

No school today,but there is also nothing to do today.My home has really become a place where it really make me feel sleepy even after 8 hours of sleep.Really need to go out everyday,if not I will be like sleeping the whole day,where I wake up to bath and then I will feel sleepy and go back to sleep again.

Went to esplanade library to study but after less than 1 hour,my mind was too distracted and I cannot focus so went to the nearby shopping center and have lunch.

Went home after that and watch tv all the way to 11pm.Really need to do stuffs that benefit me in the long run,rather that doing useless stuff and wasting time.Really need to change my lifestyle after this week.My dateline is closer and closer each day but i still haven done anything much yet and there are still a lot of things that need to be done and I haven started doing yet.

Looking for a study buddy to "chiong study with me for 3 months",test result is not that good so i have to work double hard from now onwards.

Having expectation of myself is not to stress myself but rather,it motivate me to try harder each time and achieve my goals.After all,why getting average when you can achieve the best??

Reminiscent Wednesday

Finally get my contract sign with iblis.Kinda afraid cos I will be alone with no classmate  in the same hotel.The front office manager seem friendly but I am not sure how will she be like if  I were to make a mistake.Pray hard this attachment will be good,but I am abit uncomfortable with this attachment because I will be doing front office for 6 months and i need to do daily grooming like shaving my mustache and gel my hair everyday which I hate to do.

But on the bright side,I don have to clean rooms and toilet.The uniform is quite comfortable and casual looking.As there is no staff canteen,which means I can eat different food eat day as there is a hawker centre behind the hotel,rather that eating the same canteen food each day.Seem like the pros outweighs the cons.I guess it's time for me to be more independent rather than alway depend on people.

Manage to skip school because of this.haha.But decided to go to the hotel visit to Fullerton hotel in the afternoon.The hotel visit was quite good,but the presentation slide really make people sleepy because to the font,number of slides and the informations.Did not went to visit the rooms due to the occupancy rate,but when to visit the f&b outlets instead.along the way they want to take a photo at a outdoor area,but after taking 1 photo,I really cannot take the heat and started sweating heavily and run to the indoor,but some of the classmate saw me and ask me what happen and ask me to go out to take another photo.Kinda reluctant because of heat,but still went out to take that group photo.

Been quite some time visiting this area.Used to walk around Fullerton area to MBS and work at Fullerton hotel staff canteen before.Wonder how much this area have change since I has been here last time,so I decided to walk around the area again as I don want to take the trains during the peak hour.

Sat down at benches along the Singapore river and just relax and let time pass.Felt a bit better after the rest.Then went to MBS to clean myself up a bit as I am quite sweaty before heading back home.

Really need to control my spending,as I spend quite a lot today and I still don have a part time job yet.

Shall upload some picture later on,

Exhausted tuesday

Was not really have a good sleep last night, flipping and turning around in my bed and I just cannot fall asleep.Wake up feeling tired,especially knowing that Tuesday will alway be a long day.

Lessons resume today and I realize I have been answering lots of questions in class today,so from now onward I will keep my mouth shut and only open when I got questions.

Had lunch alone,but halfway some classmate saw me and they decided to join me.But did not really talk much to them as I don really know of any common topic and i am too shy i guess.

Sometime I wonder if my decision or choices I made are right??Never expect myself  would be a "low key underdog"Karma i guess,for bullying people in the past.But I learn to see the "problems" and "situation" when I start to shut up and listen.Finally understand why there is a saying "words are deadly that guns and the wise listen,while the fool argue."

Kinda like the current PE lecturer.The things that he share with us is some of my favorite topic,eg his experience with different people.

It really make me feel bless that the things I learn during in Amway really help me a lot in life.Life skills and financial intelligent informations that school will never teach.In my opinion,school only teach us to be a better "worker" and live on the safe side.Not saying this is bad but rather,it kind of limit our belief and guts to try/start new things.I don want to have regrets of not trying to break out of the "life rat race" when I am older.I rather live on the dangerous side and fight for options in life.

"Somethings in life are worth fighting"

CCA was tiring today,did more PT than usual and it was my first time wearing a dobok which belong to my brother and instead of the usual white color my brother dobok top was white with obvious faint pink color and the coach call me "pinky" :((. Don know what my brother did to the top,but who care what people call me,the top is unique and awesome.End late than usual and reach home at 11.30pm.

But anyway,I got to adjust my body clock today because I get to sleep till 9am,while the rest of my classmate start school at 8am because of some talks.woot.Shall sleep now,TIMECHECK 12am.