Boring Tuesday

The second day of camp is really a disaster as I guess is due to poor planing and the lack of activity really make it really boring and some of them went back to sleep after breakfast.

Play some inter class captain ball and then after some prize giving ceremony,it was "break camp".Our class manage to win the overall best class and I must say everyone really put in a lot off effort.

Went home after that because I really do not want to carry the heavy bag to CCA in the evening.Mange to rest a bit at home before heading back to school.Initially I wanted to skip CCA as I was tired but I still manage to drag myself to CCA.

Did some really physical training and I ended up creating a puddle of sweat on the floor and I really was surprise that I really sweat a lot.

Daring Monday

Wake up early to go to the course camp at school. Initially I wanted to go to the camp with the intention to bond with the class,so I was enthuse at first but in the morning,I see that there is a distinct groups within the class and I am afraid to suddenly bend in to the different group and my enthusiasm suddenly disappear and went to emoing.

But during the afternoon,some of the classmate approach me and really try to talk to me and that really make me feel better but I guess that there is this invisible gap,perhaps is because of gender issue and the different view of different classmates.I want to talk to them but i don know what to talk about.

Sneak out of school to get dinner at the nearby Mac as I was too hungry and by the time I went back to school and bath,some classmate ask me if I want to go out and eat.I was kind of bored,so i just tagged along

Did not want to sleep at night so end up playing poker with some of them till morning 5am+ and took a short nap of 1 hour plus.

Somehow this camp was a bit bored for me perharp of certain reasons.

impromptu Sunday

Rotting at home playing maple from afternoon till evening,since there is really nothing much to do,except doing the FOA scrip for phase test and those books that I never read.Really become lazy during holiday as there is no activity that I can do cos I really don know who to ask.

During evening receive an impromptu message from ex-classmate for dinner.Initially did not want to but suddenly got a feel for satay and beer.So end up having the dinner at amk central S11.

Somehow I miss having lessons,so much time and yet nothing much to do.Wanting to do some sports but i am broke.Really miss those day doing kayaking,ice skating,inline skating,archery and etc.

Really need to change my eating habit,I realize that I have been eating to much fry food and I guess my body fat is too high that I have no stamina.Really need to change my diet habit,planing to bring salad to school each day when school reopen.

Mundane Saturday

Holiday are here and I really have nothing plan for this holiday except for plaing to get a part time job.Guess I will be rotting at home.Hopefully can get a part time job to get some pocket money as I am down to $200.Mom told me she had deposit some money in my account in case I need some cash.

Went to swimming with bros at hougang swimming complex in the afternoon.Did manage to did some laps around the pool and went to have dinner together.Time fly as now,some of them are in NS and soon,I will be my turn.And to be honest,I am really scare of NS and idk why and my physical is really to weak.

Change Friday

I was really not prepare for this changing journey,I never thought of the things I need to sacrifice and when I look back now,there will still be a "bitter sad feeling".Having a different attitude toward life and the actions you do,trying to take additional responsibility and fighting temptations and negative  each day.

I really wish I can play like I used to,but I really don have time and the clock is ticking each moment In people's eyes I may be acting weird,but truth be told is that I really want to concentrate during lesson and play after lesson,but some lessons are really boring and it really cause most of the students to do their own stuffs.I really get distracted by people easily,so I try to distance myself from the class by trying to sit and the back of the class and away from the rest and trying to occupy 2 seats,so as to minimize distractions.

When I distance myself from the sub group,I really find it hard to fit in after lessons with them.As time goes,I guess some are annoy by my attitude towards them.I really feel like I am not part of them anymore.This is when I made a decision to go solo because I will not change what I am doing now so as to fit in with them and not because I don treasure the friendship .

And now,when I see them playing around in lesson,therewill be this unknowingly jealousies feeling in my heart.Not because of the feeling for someone,but because I used to thought that the friendship was much stronger but it turn out not as I thought it will be.

Someone once tried to talk to me but that that moment I really don know how to say it.Now I have finally say it all out.

This will be my last post about the sub group and after that I will just be normal again.I made the decision and I have to accept the consequence 

Relaxing Thursday

Waking up late in bed really is the most luxurious thing one can have in this world.Able to sleep with no stress and sleep so soundly till you want to wake up and "nua" on bed till you really need to get up to go toilet.That the life i want,something simple with a family is just enough.But in this world,a simple life does not come cheap,hard work is needed.

Did nothing much today till the evening and my friend called me out for a swim cos we did not went yesterday.Sometime i really regret wearing contact lens in the past because my eye seem to be much more sensitive to chlorine now as part of my eyes turn red after few laps of swimming.did 7 laps and we decided to call it a day as we are going swimming again on Saturday.

Went back to have dinner with my mom and we did something which is darm embarrassing today.We forget to pay the bill when we left and my mom only remember this when we went home.I thought she have already pay and she thought i have already pay so we left the place. Luckily the place is near my house,so i had to walk back to pay.But still it really darm embarrassing.Need to find a hole and hide now.

Celebration Wednesday

Went to school for 2 hours only.Lecture go through some tips for the upcoming phase test and after that we just did our own stuff.


When lesson end,i hear some classmate are planing to go eat buffet but i did not really want to join them,so i went to have buffet alone.I tried to call some friends but it really impromptu and none of them can make it.
I also want to have something nice as to celebrate my first checkpoint in my changing journey.

After knowing what you want in life and setting small goals and working toward it,boring lessons seem to be much more interesting and i really like to pack my own timetable with lots of things,even if i am tired,i will still pull myself to do.Even if you did not achieve all you goals,but at least you did try to something and not nothing.

Hopefully during my next checkpoint dinner,i hope that i can ask more people out for the dinner,people that have set some goals and trying to achieve it.Proving to yourself that you can do what you think you cannot achieve.Celebrating hard work with good food and friends give momentum to achieve the next goals.Work hard,play hard,eat hard,for what we achieve is ours to keep.

Well-spent Tuesday

I am so going to flunk the so called "easiest module".Really need to work on my time managing skills.

Finally all 3 tests are over.Know my weakness for the modules.So that means I need to work harder for the upcoming test and exams.Must get 4.0 GPA.

Went to the attachment briefing and found it to be a waste of time.The teacher was just joking around.

After that,I went to the hotel visit to Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel.It really a beautiful hotel,the conference rooms,the rooms and the hotel interior is really one the best among the hotel i see so far.The staff share information about their sister's properties hotel which i think it really capitalize on the new trend in industry,which is compact rooms with lots of facility in room and bright white room wall colour.After that we went to tour around the hotel and view the different types of rooms.We ended the session with a tea break and a Q&A session.Went back to school after the tour.

Since it was still early for my CCA,went to gym for a while before going to jog with my ex-lecture and classmate for about 15 mins before going to CCA.

I guess hard-work finally pay off as i am able to kick better that the previous few sessions.I feel like doing some extreme exercise to try to loosen my muscle around the tight area and hopeful i can do splits.But next week seem pack and i don want to walk around limping. CCA are ending later and later and we were suppose to be release by 9pm but was drag till 9.30pm and i still need to stay back to do some payment for my first grading test.Left school at around 9.50pm and reach home at around 11.20pm,but i guess having CCA is better that staying at home and do nothing.

Heartfelt Monday

When I first begin in my 1 year changing,I was aiming to be an all rounder student,excel in different area,pushing myself to achieve more.But along the way,some stuffs happen.Lot of emotion turmoils each day,going to school each day with a heavy heart and pretending nothing have happen.

I just wish that my entrepreneur project could fast start,training hard for my CCA grading test,so that I could find something,anything, to kill time and numb all this emotion turmoils.

Today during the Section head class talk,problems were raise up.To me,the solutions was to change the attitude of how we treat the lecture.Back in those secondary one days,I was very rebellious,I remember the class don like this particular Chinese teacher that a few classmate and I suggested that we should rally the whole class to piss off this teacher.We try lots of funny ideas,from putting chalk powder in his chair and table,disrupt his lesson,pissing him off,talk back to him,the whole group of guys sleeping during his lesson and till one day,things got out of hand that a fight broke out between the lecturer and one of my classmate and none of us stop the fight but we continue to cheer on .Punishments were dealt out to those who were involve.

Then during sec 3, the same Chinese teacher teach me again.This time,I decided to try to change my attitude toward this particular teacher,then something amazing happen,I suddenly begin to like Chinese and me and this teacher suddenly become like friend.

Lessons learn through this incident was that if we try to fight with a higher authority,students will definitely lose,and we have to accept the consequences of our actions.I got to agree that some teacher will have a bit of attitude problem,but if we try to take the first step to be humble and see what the teacher can teach us.If they are really "useless" that try to talk to a even higher authority.But don be surprise that beneath the teacher spiky exterior,they have a beautiful interior.

Receive a surprise text from someone ask me why am I acting weird in class.I was really touch by this text but at the same time,this create another emotion turmoils in my mind again.I wanted to tell everything but at the same time,but how many people can really accept the cold hard truth.

Fatigue Sunday

Woke up early to go to toa payoh CC for the volunteer work for the 2014 Toa payoh central vertical marathon.Reach the cc at around 7.30am and was deploy immediately to the pet station for the pets race as paramedic with my brother.Well in fact I was just there to do nothing as I was not really train,but my brother was a certify first aider,so I was basically tagging around with my brother. 

Was excited days before the events as we were inform that there are about 15 to 20 dogs and a rabbit.but was a bit disappointed when the rabbit was not really able to hop for the whole race and the owner was carrying the rabbit to complete the race,but I must say the rabbit was really darm cute and shy.And some of the dogs were really cute especially those small one.

Next we we're deploy to help out with the ultimate race where contestant need to run up and down 5 block of 40 story.If I am not wrong,I think there were more participants last years.

Running around the area of about 5 hours without breakfast is really no joke,as I really dislike having breakfast in the morning,so I did not eat the breakfast bento box that they give me in the morning.Was a lot of pretty lady at the event.haha...

Had lunch at around 12pm and we basically did nothing much after our lunch and we just went to the cc exhibition across the road in front of the toa payoh library and after than went back to the cc for the debrief.

Went home after that and on the bus,the fatigue begin,really feel to tired to move but then,still have to move in order to go home.After bathing,I just nua on the bed typing the blog post that I miss out on.

Hopefully tomorrow I got the time to join my ex-lecture for the swim as I really need to work on my cardio as I realize from today event,that my body is getting weak and my stamina was not as good as before as I was panting just by climbing 13 floors of stairs.Last year I was able to climb around 20 floor of stair before panting.Really need to train before NS as I am aiming to go to OCS.

Mudane Saturday

Did nothing much today just nua at home playing iPad. And went to sleep early to prepare for tomorrow events

Awesome Friday

It has been quite sometime since I  play till very tired and a bit wild in school.Went to school early to do some last min projects work.So I woke up at 6am and reach school by 8am.

Housekeeping practical was next,for the first time,I have to clean and check so many toilets in a day.But I guess is the lecturer expectation that really make the job more tired as he is a very meticulous and I like it as it train me to be better than before.

After than,went to the hotel club orientation BBQ.Did manage to play with other classmate plus disturbing some other people.Was not really a good plan event though.And I was wanting to contribute to this CCA and become part of the exco,but because of my upcoming attachment,I was not really able to join the exco I guess.But still,I hope to contribute as much as possible to this CCA.

Left halfway to went to jog with my ex-lecturer and classmate.I has been quite some time since I jog.and after 4 km of jogging,my classmate and I went to gym for about 45 mins and went home after that.

Relaxing Thursday

Yesterday form teacher called to ask me about my attendance and she say the second warning letter will be sent to me soon.It can be annoying being in the sub group,when there is alway problem with the attendance as we are joining with other class and no one take attendance for us then suddenly you just receive letter for not attending class when you in fact did attend lesson.

I don like to lie but when CA ask about how I am getting along with the students in the sub group,I really don know how to explain to her,so I just say I am ok.

Sleep late last night,because I reactivity my old FB account and I saw to many old picture and really bring back to much memory.

Finally get a chance to wake up late today also.But this will soon become a privilege that I have to give up for another 11 months.But it definitely with it.

Attended the vertical marathon briefing and I am super excited for the Sunday event,because the last year one was a joke but I also have lots of fun during the event climbing up and down in different block.Hopefully thing will turn up well this year.Pray hard there will not be rain.

Irrational Wednesday

FOA test just ended and I think I will not score that well,my mind suddenly cannot remember those thing that I study when I was doing the short answer questions.But at least I know my weakness,so I can improve on.

2 papers down and left one more to go.Hopefully the last one can be easy.My brain memory is running low already.Luckily holiday is coming.A short break from the studying.

Dragging to go to school each day,which explain why I am always late for school.I really wish there are more students in this sub group,but there is really nothing much I can do about it.Hopefully I can be really wild during the upcoming course camp and really bond with other classmates.

Really find it hard fitting in to the current class sub group.

I am glad that that I found the courage to really express my feeling,getting to know who are those people who can accept/cannot my flaws. If people cannot accept my flaws,then I should just walk always instead of trying to mixing in with those who cannot accept my flaws.If I change myself to pleases other,that what is the different between me and a clown.

Guess this is my retribution for what I did to someone...What come around goes around.

Hopefully things will turn out better soon.

Not going to gym this week.hopefully can resume my normal gym schedule soon.shall do some other stuffs to train my body.

Enlighten Tuesday

Almost been a month(4 may 2014) since I started this changing process.Really sacrifice quite a lot of things but sometime I really have doubt if I  can really make it thought this rest of the 11 months.

IA is starting in October and will end around April,which will be a even harder period of the journey,juggling work,business,CCA and etc.Really wondering how am I going to survive the period.Hopefully can find like minded people who can help me out.

Guess I was lucky that I have been on the "brink of death" literally,because how many people,like me, can walk alway with serious injuries after getting knock down by a van traveling at 50km/hour or even faster.Not trying to boast anything but,the moment when the van hit me,I can really feel like the time really stop for a moment and my mind really have a lot of flashback.

People at their teenage should have fun,I agree.But after that incident,I realize that life can be quite fragile and short.I want to achieve something in life anything.I don want to just study 15 years,just to get a job for the rest of my life.Life should be more than than,in my own opinion.

Almost been living on earth for almost 19.5 years and I have been an under-achiever all this while,for once I really want to challenge myself to excel.

Someone once told me that,when you are experiencing tough time,take a few minutes to think about your goals,then you will have motivation to take small step toward your goal.No one can achieve anything big overnight,only persistent and consistent action can.

Tomorrow there is a test and I am really not really prepare.So lots of mugging to do later at one of my favorite past hideout.Hopefully can upload some photo later on.

At time I really wish my holiday can be filled with lot of camp,because it has been sometime since I participate one.

Saw this on Instagram which really relate and express to what i am feeling and doing.

Bleak Monday

At times,I just wish to have someone who have the same thinking of trying to pushing ourself to achieve something.Having healthy competition to motivate each other to carry on when things are tough.After all,what we achieve is our to keep.Having fun along the way.Being an all-rounder student that can excel in study,sports and etc.

I don really care what other people think about me."nerd","anti-social","weird" and etc. I don really want to mix with people who think they cannot achieve anything and laugh at people's goals or achievement. What I am trying to say is that everyone have an equal opportunities to achieve,but it is a matter of are "WE" willing to do so.

I am aiming to go poly and I wish that I can pay my own school fee by then.How many people in Singapore can proudly say that they paid for their poly school fee by themselves??

As much as I try to stay positive,the surrounding alway drain my energy away,I really don know how much longer I can continue.I really feel helpless that I cannot change my surrounding,having no real friends that I can really depend on.

I guess I am just a weak human after all,whining about problems.

Tired Sunday

To be honest I wish I could have a group of people I could really called friends,but let just say I have a weird attitude.haha.

I believe that as a group we could do more,having heated discussions because we all want the best for the group,friendship become stronger through conflicts,but I don like to be in a group just for the sake of it,doing nothing for the group.

At time I want to fight for some friendship but I guess things don go well.I believe in free will,I don like to force people to accept me if they don want.

Nobody like the feeling of loneliness,but I don want to be fake just because I want to be in the "group".

I really wish one day when I die,I can see who will be the one that really still remember me.

Bored Saturday

Really nothing to do except for studying for the 2 upcoming test but I really cannot study at home.Really need to find a study buddy soon.

Ended up watching movie and tv the whole day.

Realisation Friday

For once i am begining to wonder if it was the right choice to come into the course that i am studying now.Only 6 people in the same class literally.

Sometime i just don feel like going with the group and there are so many thoughts running in my mind,it not that they are not good,i guess the problems lie with me.I just feel like having a heart to heart talk with them,but i already know what would happen if i did that.I guess not all words are meant to be spoken.And i just feel that is pointless anyway.

I think i might not get good mark for my test today as it was really a hard paper,so that means i have to try harder for the rest for my test and exam.

Check my bank balance yesterday and it was not really that good.I am only left with a few hundreds bucks.I have not been taking any money from my parents since last year November and i have been using my work attachment as my allowance.The feeling of not having to have a single cent from my parent was awesome,having to work like mad and tolerate nonsense from your work place,just to have extra money in your pocket.Working is tough but when you get your pay,it worth it,i guess.

Heartfelt Thursday

Wondering Wednesday

Excited Tuesday

Test are around the corner and I still haven finish studying.

It really no joke having 6 hours of physical activity.(PE for 2 hours,Gym for 1 hour,Taekwondo for 3 hours).Having muscle ache for the next few days.But i must say it fun though.Train my body to be fit before NS.

But today Taekwondo end darm late.Left school at almost 10pm,because the coach ask us to see the senior pattern for the upcoming competition.

Hopefully i can participate in the next upcoming competition.

Normal Monday

Sometime I would wonder if giving up my old personality is it a right choice.

-The childish attitude that alway like to have fun even if I ended up seriously hurt.
-The dominance control over the group.
-The lack back attitude toward everything.
-The ability to start a "riot" in school.
-The ability to get away from consequences when shit happen.
-Having the "connection" to solve problems.

But after seeing so much incidents that happen within this few years,I am "force" to grow up and take responsibility of my life.Changing is a painful journey,making sacrifice along the way,not able to play till very wild.

Will the reward be worth after all that i have done,I always wonder

Mundane Sunday

My etp project have come to a stop as I need to wait till my proposal get approve and fund to be release to me before I can really start,so currently I have to focus on my upcoming test that I starting next week.

 Week to bishan library to study instead of going to hideout as my mom have cook dinner and I have to go back to eat dinner,so I don want to rush so I go to the nearest place that I can think of

My mind seem to be to flooded with thought that I cannot focus and after 1.5 hours,I leave the library and went to V-land to play.

Went home around 8pm to have dinner and watch tv the whole night.  

Anticipated Saturday

Wake up early just to prepare for the Hilton hotel trips.But reach school about 5 mins late.

The events was great I would say,get to learn things thought the short workshops conducted.Also get to view their back of house and their presidential suit.did get to talk to some classmate that I normally don get a chance to talk to and we even took a group pic.The whole thing ended around 3pm.Something that I thought was lacking was the opportunities to talk to the panel and the panel discussion was so short and did not really hear much as he speaker was really soft.

Went home after that as it family day.Did try to study but my bed and tv prove to be to much temptation that I end up watching tv the whole night.

Wonderful friday

Housekeeping lesson was still the same,teach kept give examples and the test in on next Friday and she still haven teach finish the chapter.

Next was housekeeping practical,did some arrangement of the storeroom and practice our bed making skill.Was glad that extra practice help me to the the fastest time between my classmate,but the bed and not really presentable as I use the wrong side of the bed sheet to cover the bed and the pillow was darm ugly.So that mean I am going to practice more.My target was actually 7mins flat with the bed presentable.

After lesson,I went to the gym for an hour as I am really hungry and I need to get an haircut.

Kind of excited for tomorrow hilton hotel trips.

Fail Thurday

Was suppose to be my study day but there is this project that we need to do,so i have to meet up with my classmate to do the project.

After we have finish the project,i was intending to go back to study after that but one of my friend ask me if i want to go watch movie.Since it still early so i agree to go.The movie X-Men day of future past was really awesome.Movie end around 8pm so i went home after that.

Saw my mom with my grandmother when i was on my way to takeaway some food and my mom suggest we should eat at the kopitiam,so i have no choice but to eat at kopitiam.We we finish eating,it was already 10pm.

Intended to study today for the test next week,but end up not study anything Really have to chiong during weekend liao.

Graduating wednesday

Woot finally complete my NITEC F&B course.Two years seem to pass in a flash and now i am graduating already.Learn a lot and experience different things during this two years.

 
Had lunch with some classmate but have some disagreement during the lunch.

We to lessons after that lunch and again i manage to interact with other different classmate in class.

Skip the normal routine gym session today as i was to tired because of insomnia.

Tiring Tuesday

Reach school at around 8.20am,which is darm rare as I am alway late for the first class of the day.But that give me a chance to interact with the other classmate.

Had a quick lunch outside school,as I hate to go to the school cafeteria during lunch time as it so hard to find a place and it darm noisy.

Did 2.4 running today and I was surprise to pass.Thankfully I don have to retake again..went to gym after that for 1.5 hours before having a quick meal and went for CCA.

Did the basic kick and it got to say my leg muscle are too stiff.got to train even harder as i want to get double promotion during the upcoming grading.

Bored Monday

Start to pay more attention during classes after having target goals.

Though I have to say it really challenging to pay attension in class as some lesson are bound to be noisy.

Considering to change my gym scheduling because today gym was totally crowded as there were two CCA groups using the gym at the same timing and did not really train much today I would say.

Peacefull Saturday

Just want to relax today,but ended up walking around town to look for some idea to earn money.My saving is going to deplete soon,so I really have to do something about it.

Somehow after months of surveying, the only way entrepreneur can make money in Singapore,is to be in f&b or retail industry.The other industry are almost monopolize by big TNC or MNC company.So the only way to really make some money in the competitive market is really by creativity and the stubborn gut of the entrepreneur.

Everything I need for my first project is nearly done and the only things I need now is the funds that the school is offering.But still I still have to come out with $600 and the school will "give" me $3000 to play with.Not a bad deal though...

Hopefully the school the faster approve my proposal,so I can start my project..

Adventurous Sunday

Went to wild wild wet with some ex -F1 stewarding friends,but not all are free to go so ended up only 2 person plus me went.

Perhaps  after reading the two books,I am much more confident in stepping out of my conform zone and I really become much more sociable.

Went at the wrong time as when we wanted to go into the pool,it begin to rain for 1 hour plus.Manage to try the new slide "torpedo",it was really scary and fun.Scary in the sense you know when they will drop you as there is a speaker that will do the countdown and you cannot backout so the fun begin as the drop was really fast and you really cannot see anything as the water was splashing all around in the tube.Saw some pretty Taiwan babes at the tsunami pool and my friend went to hold one of the babe hand when the "tsunami"came

Went to tampines to had dinner at Penang culture.

Energetic Friday

"Attitude determine your altitude".i did not understand the meaning then,but now I do...

Most lesson was cancel and the only lesson start at 2pm.so went to gym around 12pm.Somehow despite going to gym more frequently,I still feel very weak,so that mean I need to go some more,hopefully I can get into form for my final NAFA test.

Housekeeping practical was a bit more relaxing as the boys only need to move stuffs around the block and we don need to do the cleaning of the room.

Was so engross with the book "I am gifted,so are you" that I went to the library after lesson to read,rather than going home and read.Initial plan to stay till 9pm,but there is this group of roundly students that spoilt my plans,so went back at around 7pm.

On the way back,saw two classmate which I did not really interact in class and somehow,I took the challenge of trying to continue the conversation till we reach our destination and I manage to did it.I like to interact with people,but at the same time I am shy. So I guess god make us imperfect for a reason,which is to outdo ourself to be a greater self...

Surprise Thursday

I got to admit that sometime I get frighten by the things I do.But I know that the reward at the ending line is worth the fight.

Went to JB central and walk around.Then went I pass by the popular bookstore,I decided to went in to take a look.Ended up buy 2 books which is "Rich dad poop dad" and "Secrets of successful teens".Book there are definitely much more cheap than in Singapore.

After that,i  went to KSL mall.Somehow i was coughing non-stop,so i went to CBTL to have a drink,then i found a nice cushion seat there,so i decided to read the book that i bought.

Wavering Wednesday

The mind is strong,but the temptations is even stronger,especially when you don have a team and everything are your concerns.

Was twisting and turning around in my bed yesterday as i was about to sleep and a though that came to my mind as to why I have this "fck up" personalities.

1.)I hate branded and expensive stuff because I grow up in an environment where adult will always try to show off and competing with each and other and for no reason,the kids also get involve.

2.)I understand the value of money at a young age.Here is the story.10 year ago,there was this men who was quite rich and to him,if you were to ask him for $1000 each day,he would just give without any questions.8 years later,that men lost his fortune due to this fail business and $1000 seem like a big amount which could feed the family for the whole month.

 3.)I dislike people who are fake.Trying to be someone you are not,really make me feel disgusted,especially people who just follow the crowd in order not to get "aim" by them.

4.)I like to be alone most of the time because I like to reflect on my life,I never want my life to be a  mediocre one.I want to think of ways to push myself to greater height and I don want to be affected by negative people during my thoughts.

5.)I am a introvert person.我会在乎,但是我不会表现出来

6.)I act differently with different person,I can just keep quiet in front of a person or I can literally start  a "riot of  fun" with people I trust.

7.)I will always have a crazy idea,but when I share out,no one would want to be a part of it.

8.)I won go the the flow if I don like it,I will just rebel or walk off

9.)I have been,on a few occasions been on the brink of death,and from that on i really learn that life can be the most fragile thing and i always want to do the thing i fear because i like to overcome rather than hiding

Anyway I am kind of afraid and excited for the JB trip tomorrow.Hopefully I can find the things I want.

*photo taken from Google search.

Holiday Tuesday

Vesak day today,so no school.had already plan to study today,so wake up early afternoon to go to hideout(T3) to study.

As predicted my usual place at T3 was filled with people,so I had to find another place at T3 to study,walked around the 3 terminal and ended up back at T3 again as the airport is so croweded due to holiday.Found a place at B1 and there are lot of people studying there also,so I find a place and begin to study.Manage to study for 2 hours then I intend to rest for for a while,but end up playing at zone x for 2 hours..

After that I went to changi city mall to hunt for food for my dinner.While eating,my mind suddenly have lots of thought running through my mind.then after eating,went to expo and found a suitable place for studying and after an hour of studying,I went home.I would say today study day was still decent one.

Decided to have a weekly time table and decided to really put action to by entrepreneur idea,i know the people that I want in my team will appear along the way,but I have to really start doing something or I will get nothing.Holding the faith that god have everything planned for me.

*photo taken from Google search.

Blues Monday

Manage to wake up on time despite yesterday.School was the same,quite boring and the test are around the corner,and in class I am like only 30% studying in class,30% playing iPad in class,20% sleeping in class and 20% staring at space in class.

Went to gym after school with classmate and I realize that I am still too weak,which mean I still have to train some more.Had dinner at school after gym session as I was too hungry.

Finally I had 想通了 and sent the massage out.but to be honest,I haven 100% 放得下

I got to admit that I can fall for a girl darm easy,but I don really show it and I can say I really 很用心 but then,I would say it alway not the right one.I am a person with lots of flaws and I really don know how to chio someone that I like.But then i cannot blame anyone because I believe 或许在爱情没有谁对谁错,不是时间对不对,而是谁愿意尝试,谁愿意妥协,谁愿意付出.

*photo taken from Google search.

Wild sunday

Went to watch the amazing spider man 2 with classmate at cine.The movie was quite nice,especially the female lead emma stone was quite pretty. Then went to golden mile to have dinner.Walk around golden mile to look around at the Thai disco for a while then went to esplanade to had some beer.

I was still ok after the third bottle.As I was listening to the band that was playing near by,they suddenly play the song "simply the best by Tina Turner",then lot of memory begin flashing through my mind and some memory hit me darm hard,especially those major function in Malaysia memory.Suddenly felt so emotional because those 1 years plus memory with the BWW group was totally amazing and life changing,but someway along the way,I lose my faith in myself and left the group.

Then as I having my fourth bottle,the vomiting feeling suddenly appear,then I immediately rush to the toilet,but it was too late.On my way to the toilet I vomited at an area near the escalator.Super embarrassing then faster rush to the toilet,but end up vomiting again outside the toilet and the toilet aunty was kind enough not to scold me and block the toilet and not let anyone go in.Vomit for like a few minutes before my classmate came in the toilet and check on me.My shirt was totally gone case and had to throw away.luckly I brought my jacket out today.Went back to the bar after cleaning up and had some water and rest a while before taking a bus home.

Missing the last bus at the interchange,so had to walk home.

*photo taken from Google search.

Inspiring Saturday

Went to the warehouse with my friend early afternoon to get some stuff,as I had some order to settle.

Then we went to one of my business accociate wedding at St Matthew church at tiong bahru.Had a hard time finding the place cos the google map show us a different place and my friend and I end up walking around 20 minutes and our shirt was literally soaking wet when we reach the church,as we are both wearing long sleeve shirt.I really like the design of the church,especially the worship hall.

During the wedding matrimony,the vicar share two verse from "Genesis"  and "proverbs"which really "enlighten"me.Had to rush of after the ceremony to deliver the order to my another friend at kovan.

Had buffet dinner at heartland mall,the shop staffs is annoying,but the manager is friendly. Then end up at one of my friend house to play dota 2 for a while.Really have not really play LAN game like I used to during my secondary school days.

*photo taken from Google search.

Excited Friday

After yesterday and today quiet thinking,I think I 想通了很多东西.

1.)我没有想像中那么喜欢你,因为我不可能是你喜欢的人而我不可能因为你而改变.

2.)你和他应该patch back.

3.)我不需要很多朋友,有几个就够了.

4.)我要的是兄弟不是朋友因为友情可散,兄弟情难散.

5.)If people laugh at my mistake,laugh with them as well because no point get sad or hurt,live life like a joke and enjoy life.

6.)想懂的自己的未来想要的目标.

7.)God give what you need and not what you want.You will get what you want if you are ready.

8.)I am really very excited about my entrepreneur project.

"Mugging" Thursday

Favorite day of the week,no classes today,get a chance to sleep more.

Went to my favorite hideout to study.Somehow,I just cannot study at home.All the distractions from my beds,tv and etc just make me feel like sleeping.

On the way to hideout,another businesses idea suddenly pop out in my mind and I really got the urge to really take actions because I am quite broke now and there is an ITE entrepreneur fund which I intend to apply cos for every $1 I fork out the school will give me $5 and I don need to return anything to school.But the catch is that the idea must last for 6 months.Thought of some people that I think can help me in this project.

Did some study note and some quiet thinking.hopefully can do more study note on the next study day.

Realization Wednesday

Perhaps each beautiful mistake,will have to end one day.

It time for me to move on in life.The harder I fall the stronger I become.

Shall end this post by a quote ""God give what you need and not what you want,guess I am not ready yet."

*photo taken from Google search.

Training Tuesday

Gonna be a short post today.

Days still seem mundane.Just feel like a waste of time going to school.

Did all the NAFA test except 2.4.fail my pull ups.really need to train or going for extra training in NS.

Went for takewondo training for the first time,did some basic kicks and learn how to "bounce".Quite a good way to train the lower part of your legs,but went home limping.

*Photo taken from Google search

Sickish monday

Somehow I should really go see a doctor soon.The cough and flu seem to be getting strong and I am getting weak and sweating profusely.

I am not use to not having the "dominance" and "eagerness to win everything" and the "fear of losing" nature.It like I have become more and more laid-back each day till the point of really not  really giving a darm about anything.Everything i do seem so wrong even though it was right.

Looking back,it hard not to admit that we have to live by the bad decisions we made ,things might be hard to continue,but the only road is to just keep move forward.

*Photo taken from Google search.

kindda fck up my life really good

Even if my life is quite fck up now,i am still glad i am still surviving.Learning thought the hard way is the only way i can learn to be tough fast.It not easy,but i am still trying.

Just picked up a habit few months back,which i learn when i was in my primary school CCA,which is to "give thanks" for the first meal i eat each day even though i am not a 100% percent christian.Reason for doing this is that sometime as time goes by we forget to be humble and grateful for the things that we have and experiences in life,be it good or bad.

 I realize that the reason why my life is fck up is because of my character and personality.I am not the person that will stick with people who i cannot accept their personality,i will just simply walk away,but even if i had to stick with that person,i will not really talk or have fun with them.I know that i have not right to comment about people,but sometime i just feel that it really tiring compromising especially when there is a group of peoples.

I am a introvert person.When i am in a new surrounding,i prefer people who approach me and start a conversation because i believe that if people are "open" to you and start a conversation with you,it easier to continue the conversation.Another reason for me not to take the initiative to talk to people is that i have poor social skills and i tend to get nervous when meeting new people  :(.

Shall end my post now...

*photo taken from Google search.

The right things at the wrong moment

Had lots of fun yesterday with the team.Went to place that I never though of going.Places like keppel island and sentosa cove,where only the rich can afford to stay there.Even though I don even have any money to afford anything,I found something that motivate me to keep working hard in my business is that even the most expensive estate in Singapore,about 70% of the people that live there are not around in the afternoon.So what does it mean??The answer is simple,people who can afford it,have no time to live it.

In my opinion,people's these day have only focus too much on earning money that they forget that they actually have no time to spend it.Perharp it's the influence of parent that keep asking children to study hard and get a good job.Here is the fact,what do you mean by having a good job??Earn lot of money then have no time to spend it??

People really need to be more open minded.I am not asking people to join my business,but be open minded and look at thing from another point of view.Things that are there now,does not mean it will be there 5 years from now..

History have told about countless dynasties that fall because they are not open to new ideas,innovation and techonogy.I know people are comfortable with their lifestyle and having major change in life is the last thing that they would do/risk.but what if there is a opportunitity that can change your lifestyle and there are super low risk,are people willing to try out??

By the way,I know my English is bad so please pardon my tenses and grammar.

tired day

Things haven been going so well today.Keep having this weird feeling in my chest and keep feeling sleepy despite having 7 hours of seep the previous day.It definitelynot fun having this"one step forward,two step backward things"in my business.But still i am still positive that good day will be appearing soon.Just have to endure this tough time and i will be a better person.haha

This week is quite pack with activity and exam are around the corner.Still have a lot of things that i need to study and refresh on.Hope to get 3 "A" in this semester modues,in hope of pushing my GPA to 3.5 then i might have hope in appealing for poly.

Though this 2 year in ITE,many things has happen and a lot of lessons have been learn.If time could rewind,i would still have chosen to go ITE,not because of the course,but because the things that happen during this 2 years.

Shall end here so that i can get at lease 7 hours of sleep..i know i am a pig.haha.

P.s...I look like a need with the new haircut.

BOS today

Keep having this tired feeling everyday that really make me really don feel like doing anything.But still manage to drag myself to BOS at yishun safra today.Learn quite a lot of stuff and I realise that most of the stuff they share are quite new to me and very hard for me to apply because of my business history.

I know I really have to do something for my business and there are new people in my team. I really want to retire in less that 2 years time because I really want to get out of the "rat race cycle" and I definitely love myself more that I love my job(not intending to have a job anyway).

People may laugh at me so what.Look around you and look how many people are sacrificing time for money.Given the choice,I would want to have time with my family and have time to find a soulmate.haha...Ask yourself this.."time","money","liability" and "luxury" do you have all 4??

Shall end here.Busy week coming up and exam are around the corner.shall still blog everyday because I want to record my "dream chasing journey" and what are the important events that is going to change my life.

Life of a coyote

I just sucks as being a human:(. This year have gone badly for me.Lots of problems and datelines. At times I thought I was already in the deepest shit possible and the next day,more problems keep coming and all I can do is keep smiling and try to overcome it.

Keep trying to motivate myself to keep having the positive attitude to move on because this is part of the growing up process."Suvive this shit,and there will not be anything that can hit you so hard except death". Is something that from today onward I will practice and preach.

Recently there are some major adjustment in my business.Although this is not really what I like,but this does not mean I cannot change it.

Dreams is what I learn in my almost 2 years in this business.May people critise the company that I am partnering with.But I choses to continue on because I don know other way to make stable passive income.I know that when I started my business,I know it not easy,challenges are alway there for me to overcome.What really make me have such conviction is that "I want to earn money and I never will let money earn my life and time".

I am sure that I will reach my goal before 8 July 2015.By then I will have a income that is enough for me to do what I want and I will have a "legend team" that is made of Gen y that have youths that are retired at a young age.

Some people are out there looking for something opportunity.If you are looking for it,I will find you and show you what I have to offer.

"All humans will die,but how many have really live??People want to go heaven,but who dare to die.See you in your dreams".

Back to blogging again.

Time flies so fast and till now,I still have the feeling that I am in sec 4&5.Those days were the days that we can talk rubbish all day long and keeping going LAN and play and yet I don really have stress until "N" & "O" are around the corner,then I will really be a good student and study and smoke to de-stress.(Not trying to show off anything,but during the time when exam are around the corner,I will go to the school toilet behind the canteen and sit on the bench to smoke and stare in the blank).Weird me      right??

Most of my past classmate are in poly and I am stuck in ITE.But I cannot blame any one right.人一旦做错,就不能回头.Haiz,shall 看开吧..

On the bright side,going Canada on 1 June to 22 June for a student exchange program with 11 student  that I don really know...the feeling is like OMG i am going to die cos I am not really good with socializing with people.i prefer people to talk to me first...but then still feel kinda excited cos I get to go somewhere far using government money(edusave) to pay..and after deducting the cost for the trip,my edusave left 300+ if I not wrong.

Shall edit this post later on..with pic I guess cos it look darn plain..