Inspiring Saturday

Went to the warehouse with my friend early afternoon to get some stuff,as I had some order to settle.

Then we went to one of my business accociate wedding at St Matthew church at tiong bahru.Had a hard time finding the place cos the google map show us a different place and my friend and I end up walking around 20 minutes and our shirt was literally soaking wet when we reach the church,as we are both wearing long sleeve shirt.I really like the design of the church,especially the worship hall.

During the wedding matrimony,the vicar share two verse from "Genesis"  and "proverbs"which really "enlighten"me.Had to rush of after the ceremony to deliver the order to my another friend at kovan.

Had buffet dinner at heartland mall,the shop staffs is annoying,but the manager is friendly. Then end up at one of my friend house to play dota 2 for a while.Really have not really play LAN game like I used to during my secondary school days.

*photo taken from Google search.

Excited Friday

After yesterday and today quiet thinking,I think I 想通了很多东西.

1.)我没有想像中那么喜欢你,因为我不可能是你喜欢的人而我不可能因为你而改变.

2.)你和他应该patch back.

3.)我不需要很多朋友,有几个就够了.

4.)我要的是兄弟不是朋友因为友情可散,兄弟情难散.

5.)If people laugh at my mistake,laugh with them as well because no point get sad or hurt,live life like a joke and enjoy life.

6.)想懂的自己的未来想要的目标.

7.)God give what you need and not what you want.You will get what you want if you are ready.

8.)I am really very excited about my entrepreneur project.

"Mugging" Thursday

Favorite day of the week,no classes today,get a chance to sleep more.

Went to my favorite hideout to study.Somehow,I just cannot study at home.All the distractions from my beds,tv and etc just make me feel like sleeping.

On the way to hideout,another businesses idea suddenly pop out in my mind and I really got the urge to really take actions because I am quite broke now and there is an ITE entrepreneur fund which I intend to apply cos for every $1 I fork out the school will give me $5 and I don need to return anything to school.But the catch is that the idea must last for 6 months.Thought of some people that I think can help me in this project.

Did some study note and some quiet thinking.hopefully can do more study note on the next study day.

Realization Wednesday

Perhaps each beautiful mistake,will have to end one day.

It time for me to move on in life.The harder I fall the stronger I become.

Shall end this post by a quote ""God give what you need and not what you want,guess I am not ready yet."

*photo taken from Google search.

Training Tuesday

Gonna be a short post today.

Days still seem mundane.Just feel like a waste of time going to school.

Did all the NAFA test except 2.4.fail my pull ups.really need to train or going for extra training in NS.

Went for takewondo training for the first time,did some basic kicks and learn how to "bounce".Quite a good way to train the lower part of your legs,but went home limping.

*Photo taken from Google search

Sickish monday

Somehow I should really go see a doctor soon.The cough and flu seem to be getting strong and I am getting weak and sweating profusely.

I am not use to not having the "dominance" and "eagerness to win everything" and the "fear of losing" nature.It like I have become more and more laid-back each day till the point of really not  really giving a darm about anything.Everything i do seem so wrong even though it was right.

Looking back,it hard not to admit that we have to live by the bad decisions we made ,things might be hard to continue,but the only road is to just keep move forward.

*Photo taken from Google search.

kindda fck up my life really good

Even if my life is quite fck up now,i am still glad i am still surviving.Learning thought the hard way is the only way i can learn to be tough fast.It not easy,but i am still trying.

Just picked up a habit few months back,which i learn when i was in my primary school CCA,which is to "give thanks" for the first meal i eat each day even though i am not a 100% percent christian.Reason for doing this is that sometime as time goes by we forget to be humble and grateful for the things that we have and experiences in life,be it good or bad.

 I realize that the reason why my life is fck up is because of my character and personality.I am not the person that will stick with people who i cannot accept their personality,i will just simply walk away,but even if i had to stick with that person,i will not really talk or have fun with them.I know that i have not right to comment about people,but sometime i just feel that it really tiring compromising especially when there is a group of peoples.

I am a introvert person.When i am in a new surrounding,i prefer people who approach me and start a conversation because i believe that if people are "open" to you and start a conversation with you,it easier to continue the conversation.Another reason for me not to take the initiative to talk to people is that i have poor social skills and i tend to get nervous when meeting new people  :(.

Shall end my post now...

*photo taken from Google search.

The right things at the wrong moment

Had lots of fun yesterday with the team.Went to place that I never though of going.Places like keppel island and sentosa cove,where only the rich can afford to stay there.Even though I don even have any money to afford anything,I found something that motivate me to keep working hard in my business is that even the most expensive estate in Singapore,about 70% of the people that live there are not around in the afternoon.So what does it mean??The answer is simple,people who can afford it,have no time to live it.

In my opinion,people's these day have only focus too much on earning money that they forget that they actually have no time to spend it.Perharp it's the influence of parent that keep asking children to study hard and get a good job.Here is the fact,what do you mean by having a good job??Earn lot of money then have no time to spend it??

People really need to be more open minded.I am not asking people to join my business,but be open minded and look at thing from another point of view.Things that are there now,does not mean it will be there 5 years from now..

History have told about countless dynasties that fall because they are not open to new ideas,innovation and techonogy.I know people are comfortable with their lifestyle and having major change in life is the last thing that they would do/risk.but what if there is a opportunitity that can change your lifestyle and there are super low risk,are people willing to try out??

By the way,I know my English is bad so please pardon my tenses and grammar.

tired day

Things haven been going so well today.Keep having this weird feeling in my chest and keep feeling sleepy despite having 7 hours of seep the previous day.It definitelynot fun having this"one step forward,two step backward things"in my business.But still i am still positive that good day will be appearing soon.Just have to endure this tough time and i will be a better person.haha

This week is quite pack with activity and exam are around the corner.Still have a lot of things that i need to study and refresh on.Hope to get 3 "A" in this semester modues,in hope of pushing my GPA to 3.5 then i might have hope in appealing for poly.

Though this 2 year in ITE,many things has happen and a lot of lessons have been learn.If time could rewind,i would still have chosen to go ITE,not because of the course,but because the things that happen during this 2 years.

Shall end here so that i can get at lease 7 hours of sleep..i know i am a pig.haha.

P.s...I look like a need with the new haircut.

BOS today

Keep having this tired feeling everyday that really make me really don feel like doing anything.But still manage to drag myself to BOS at yishun safra today.Learn quite a lot of stuff and I realise that most of the stuff they share are quite new to me and very hard for me to apply because of my business history.

I know I really have to do something for my business and there are new people in my team. I really want to retire in less that 2 years time because I really want to get out of the "rat race cycle" and I definitely love myself more that I love my job(not intending to have a job anyway).

People may laugh at me so what.Look around you and look how many people are sacrificing time for money.Given the choice,I would want to have time with my family and have time to find a soulmate.haha...Ask yourself this.."time","money","liability" and "luxury" do you have all 4??

Shall end here.Busy week coming up and exam are around the corner.shall still blog everyday because I want to record my "dream chasing journey" and what are the important events that is going to change my life.

Life of a coyote

I just sucks as being a human:(. This year have gone badly for me.Lots of problems and datelines. At times I thought I was already in the deepest shit possible and the next day,more problems keep coming and all I can do is keep smiling and try to overcome it.

Keep trying to motivate myself to keep having the positive attitude to move on because this is part of the growing up process."Suvive this shit,and there will not be anything that can hit you so hard except death". Is something that from today onward I will practice and preach.

Recently there are some major adjustment in my business.Although this is not really what I like,but this does not mean I cannot change it.

Dreams is what I learn in my almost 2 years in this business.May people critise the company that I am partnering with.But I choses to continue on because I don know other way to make stable passive income.I know that when I started my business,I know it not easy,challenges are alway there for me to overcome.What really make me have such conviction is that "I want to earn money and I never will let money earn my life and time".

I am sure that I will reach my goal before 8 July 2015.By then I will have a income that is enough for me to do what I want and I will have a "legend team" that is made of Gen y that have youths that are retired at a young age.

Some people are out there looking for something opportunity.If you are looking for it,I will find you and show you what I have to offer.

"All humans will die,but how many have really live??People want to go heaven,but who dare to die.See you in your dreams".

Back to blogging again.

Time flies so fast and till now,I still have the feeling that I am in sec 4&5.Those days were the days that we can talk rubbish all day long and keeping going LAN and play and yet I don really have stress until "N" & "O" are around the corner,then I will really be a good student and study and smoke to de-stress.(Not trying to show off anything,but during the time when exam are around the corner,I will go to the school toilet behind the canteen and sit on the bench to smoke and stare in the blank).Weird me      right??

Most of my past classmate are in poly and I am stuck in ITE.But I cannot blame any one right.人一旦做错,就不能回头.Haiz,shall 看开吧..

On the bright side,going Canada on 1 June to 22 June for a student exchange program with 11 student  that I don really know...the feeling is like OMG i am going to die cos I am not really good with socializing with people.i prefer people to talk to me first...but then still feel kinda excited cos I get to go somewhere far using government money(edusave) to pay..and after deducting the cost for the trip,my edusave left 300+ if I not wrong.

Shall edit this post later on..with pic I guess cos it look darn plain..

Kindness

Sometime it not worth to be kind to people as not all people really appreciate it.Sometime people take it for granted.I tried be as tolerant to people who take my kindness for granted.Or it is that I am a busybody that help someone that does not need help??A Remember this sentence "will the earth be a better place if everyone would care more about each other"?this is the sentence that alway motivate me to care and do more for people,but what I get in return is people don appreciate my kindness.So from now,I will only help those that are in need,I will not help those people that take things for granted.I have my own problems and yet I still believe that "giving is better that receiving".I hope that one day people would cherish what they have and help people that are in need.

Sometime,I really think I don really belong here in my course.I have many feeling after each incident have happen.Some time,I just wish that this two year can just pass without any problems,but only less that 2 months and lot of things have happen.i just don know what to say now.

Reflction of me

First thing first,i am not going to blog everyday liao because i am really very tired already.Both physical and mentally.I really need a break from this hectic reality world,like a one month break :)...But i think it is impossible cos i still need to go school.....Hais.

i will not blog on saterday and sunday as it will be my personal time.Shall do a short post today.School was a bit sian today.Kept copying note.Only during wine lesson we did some practical stuff.Time check 11.02pm,shall go sleep now.

Friday friday.TGIF (UPDATED)

Two classmate was late today and our CA decided to punish them by asking them to stand at the piazza(this is like a small parade square in college west),and the class is punish by standing at the four floor.It like so embarrassing.Schoolmate walking here and there and it so rare to see class being punish at the school.

During the punishment,i felt that if one classmate is punish,the whole class should be punish together.For me,this is call unity and this can also have peer pressure on the classmate that did the wrong thing,so that the person can change because people believe in them and willing to take the punishment together.i always believe this "we rise as one,we fall as one,no one get left behind".

Next thing was the "meet the lecturer" which is after school,mom came at 7.30+pm then i bring her to the class,then the lecturer give a short speech,then a short tour,then the class did a short performance,then the "parent and lecturer talk"lucky the CA did not talk bad things about me.Left home around 9pm++.

Third day liao.wow..

Did the dry run for the phase test,and I did very badly.hais..But I will improve on it because I have to pass the test.I am the only one that take very long time in the preparation,so I will need to improve the timing.I believe I can do it.

During care session,some classmate spoke their mind and thought.I agree with Eric thought,he have the same thought as me.During my time as class rep,I tried to shout at my group members to keep quiet,but some will not want to listen.How I wish they know how to AUTOMATIC behave themselves.Eric did many time,told the class to automatic behave the self,but not everyone want to listen.I really hope after today care session,my classmate really understand what Eric is trying to tell the class from the start.I really respect and support Eric for his sharing today.Ms Caroline also ask if anyone was unhappy with her.i wanted to raise my hand,but I did not.It not that I am being coward or what,is just that those minor things I am unhappy with her,is really not suitable to tell everyone in the class.I really want to be transparent to the whole class,but there also some sensitive issue that I am not ready to tell the class yet.I will definitely write down all my unhappiness with ms Caroline on the piece of the reflection paper.

Life skills class start a bit late,and I was late for lesson.Then mrs seeto ask us to do the individual file project,but I did not bring my thumb drive,so I just watch anime for like 30 mins++ And then mrs seeto dismiss the class early.When to wushu after that.I realise that my muscle is very stiff and I really need to train liao.i want to have 8 PAC,not a 8 in one fats. Signing off now.Night night.

back to blogging day 2

Late for school today,as usual Wednesday i will always late because i don feel like wake up at 6am.Lifeskill was fun,cos i did not really pay attention to teacher because i was chatting with dolphin and we were doing the tweeter thingy.Then the next half lesson teacher ask us to do the group project,then i change place and i have fun joking with other classmate.

After that was a 30 mins break,then it was BRS lesson.we did some practical which was quite easy for me as i have done it before when i was working with CDCS,but i never show off,i pretend i know nothing.

Then was P.E.I did the sit and reach,i fail i guess.But is because tall people very hard to bend lei:(.Then went to play badminton,volley ball and floorball.After PE,i smell like a rubbish bin,cos i darm sweaty and my shirt is totally wet.

Went back home after PE,then at MRT something happen.I don want to talk about.

I don know why everyday after school,i will be darm tired.Maybe beacause our lesson start very early and end very late....hais.I love my bed more that the chair in the classroom.How i wish i can bring my big boloster to school and sleep...

Shall end here.Bye bye.

Back.

Back to blogging.Been in ITE for a month liao.Suddenly got so many feelings and unhappiness,but no where to vent out,so I decided to write it out here.

First week was ok.I did not really feel embarrassed that I am in ITE,cos for me it like a second chance to prove to people and also train myself.I don care if people look down on me a not,as long as I don look down on myself can already.i don live my life for people to look down on me.I want to be successful in life,I have big dreams and I will work towards it.

During my time as group rep,I see a different side of the lecturers.It really scary,you really need to be in your best form ,so that you won get aim by them.It really not my style to alway be like a model student.I want to have colour hairs,I don like to tuck in my shirt after school,I like to fold up my sleeve after school because I tend to sweat a lot.But when I am a group rep,I cannot act the way I want.I Feel like a actor in front of them.So now after I step down as a group rep,I can do whatever things I want after school.

Our class advisor was a nice lady and mother to everyone of us.I saw some of my "lifesaver mentor characteristic" in her.I must say she is really a strong lady,as she have been though a lot and survive it.i really salute her,but there are also a few minor things that I am not happy with her.I did not want to tell her what are the few minor things because I want to prove to her that I am correct.I never believe in argument and debating with people of higher rank than me,I prefer showing to the person the facts. From today onward,I will blog everyday,because I want to train my discipline because if I had discipline during my "O" level,I might not be in ITE.


I also realise that i might have a crush on two of my classmate.I am not a flirt ok!!The horoscope say Sagittarius guy will tend to like two or more people.But once they met someone that he like,he will only focus on that person.But for now,i don really expect much because of my other work commitment outside school,i really have no time for this BGR thing right now.

Shall stop here.Bye bye.

not blogging anymore.sorry

28 day race

Today stay back in school till 4.30pm+, to study maths and i realise that there are still a lot of things that i don know...hais..how to get A2 for maths sia...

Chemistry also need to study tons of things and i really don't have motivation to study anymore.So many things to study in 28 days.I really wish someone can motivate me to study.

Shall end today short post.And i wonder what my tuition teacher reaction if he know that i fail my maths badly....

And ok i figure out how to do nice blog post liao.Shall end today post short because i really very tired.

22/9/2011 (late post) 29 days race

Sorry for the late post. I know this should be posted yesterday but I am to tired yesterday.Did not stay back yesterday in school for the "Homerun project",because I went to Nex to buy F&N ten year series,but I am 1000% sure I cannot do finish all the papers inside.

Got back my maths paper. I thought I can pass paper 1 but I was wrong I get 20+/80 I think and I fail paper 2.I really need to improve my maths cos I want to go poly and study business course,so I cannot fail maths.

I did not stay back yesterday in school,but I got went home and do maths ten year series,because I desperately need to get A2 for maths because that is what my tuition want me to get so I must really practice,practice and practice for maths...hais..A2 for maths...is like MISSION IMPOSSIBLE.But I will not give up.

Side track a bit.I am going to blog some of my personal life.cos I think no one will read my blog so I think I can release my personal secret.Today I did talk to someone I did not really talk for quite sometime and got some unexpected people to wish me good luck for my "O" level.So it is kind of a good day for me I guesses.

No photo for today because I don like to take a lot of random picture because I am still trying to remember how to unload a lot of picture in blog post and i am still trying to edit my blog code thingy.

30 Days race (Updated)

30 days to "O" level,so I decided to start blogging each days till "O" level start.By doing this i will have pressure and motivation to study and not procrastinate.

"pressure pressure make things do faster!!"

So the school started this "homerun program" which we can stay back in school till night to study on our own.I did try to stay back today with my friend but we only study until 4.30 then we left,cos the weather is making us very sleepy,but i manage to revise something today. hais.... anyway I am staying alone tomorrow at school to study. kinda emo right??

Got back some of the prelims paper,most was boarder line pass except for F&N which I fail badly. I was quite surprise then I manage to pass my Chinese composition,which I only write half way and most of it don't make sense.Physic mark was also quite unexpected also.cos I did badly for the practical and i got 5/15.

And my brother is back from Australia today.From the pass 6 days,my bed have 4 pillows and 2 bolster and is darm comfortable sleeping with so many things on the bed.

Why isit that all unhappy thing come so sudden and leave so much pain.

This holiday so many thing happen."N" level result,work,friends.

I was not quite happy although i qualify for sec 5 but i was not aiming for sec 5 but higher NITEC.but because of my maths i could not apply for nitec.i am not trying to show of anything but seriously i know the different between "N" and "O" and i am always to lazy to study at home.take "O" level to me is like asking me to giving up the old habit of watching tv and play computer at home,which is my biggest challenge in 2011.

Currently i have completely no interest in working in my current company.Although they can just fire me and hired people who are better than me.but seriously this company image have completely tarnish.i went to work in a event and i heard people saying,"is this company that recently have the food poisoning one".then when i heard them saying that i really feel a bit embarrass but that there is nothing i can do.and i don like the way they arrange the staff for their event.is like people paying, 1 person $20 dollar X 127 person which mean is like $2000+ for the event and the service they provide is very bad.

but i found another job which is setting up event stall but it very tiring cos people that work there are all 30 year old++ uncle which is very strong and i am only like 16.

Friends are the most importain people to me.but people said "friend come and go" maybe it quite true.cos most 4c boy are going ite.i am really going to miss some of them because:

i use to hang out with alloy and last year holiday we use to work together at the same factory and wake up darm early and take mrt to boon lay from amk.

i will miss LT beacuse i use to go to his house and fix gundam with alloysius and i still remember that when farhan got into trouble that time he did not run alway and help me.

i will miss ian beacuse we use to go ice skating with kc,faris this holiday.

i will miss farhan although i sometime ignored his when he talk to me.and some time pang sei him during recess.

But no matter where your go next year,i will alway remember your as my friend and i will remember that when friend or i was in trouble,your did not run away and your help me.

yesterday.mnet concert was fun.

wake up at 5am yesterday.then cab down to hougang to meet christabel then together go MBS.Quite shock sia.about 200+ people was already there.then waited a while for jas and co.Then queue up to get the colour tag.Then a random uncle ask me this in Chinese "what are your queueing for"that i told him to watch concert then he said something like this "then now line up up to eat ar?".then queue up until 8am+ the MBS people ask us to go inside the expo hall to queue.then at 9am+ all tag haven been given out and we take the stamp thing instead.

then together we went to marina square to eat then went suntect food court to take away thing to go there and eat.cos we need to queue up at 1.30pm(as told by the launch ent. staff)and wait till 5pm+ at the holding area.but we reach the holding area at 12pm+ and there are already people inside the holding area queueing up.then we join the queue.

at the holding area,something happen which i thing is very funny.because there were more female than male there,the female toilet queue was very long then some group of girl decide to use the male toilet then after like 1 hour later a MBS staff shout this in a funny tone."girl pls don't use the male toilet!!"than everyone was like laughing.then they change the male toilet into a female toilet and so,the female got 10 cubicles i think,then the boy have to queue to to use the handicap toilet.then when i was queuing up,a guy behind me said "this is ridiculous!!"i think most boys at there might think the same because in Singapore,boy don't actually really need to queue up to go toilet.but i experience this in Malaysia so i don really mind.

then at around 5pm+ we were slowly moving to the expo hall E from the holding area.then there was a bag cheek counter outside the hall.and i was told to throw away the food which i have take away at suntect because no food was allow at the hall.then she throw away my food and we went in.

the concert was really fun.and a lot of thing happen in the concert.

1.when the concert was starting,a girl was beside me.the half way in the concert,the girl that was beside me is like 2 meter in front of me cos the concert was free standing and "fangirls" keep surging in front the i was push back.

2.i don know why when MBLAQ performing,i don know why i keep staring at one of them,then he suddenly squat down and look at my direction.i don know if it was part of their performance.

3.i did not expect i would go to this k-pop concert.2 year ago,i don know why girl are so obsese with k-pop.but after going to the concert,i know the reason liao.

4.part of the reason for going to k-pop concert,is to learn event management and crowd control use by event company and MBS.i know i sound funny to your lar.but if your got read my intro in my blog,you should know that i am mad.haha..


after the event,went to MBS hotel lobby to get and drink with christabel and jas.then after that christabel uncle came and fetch her.and i and jas walk to mandarin oriental hotel to take a cab.

yesterday after school darm fun sia.stay back and

-decorate the class
-maths remedial
-playing poker after remedial
-play true or dare
-kana distube by people
-eat chicken rice
-got a new nick


today was quite fun also.first period physic.mrs ee revise with us then wa maths.halfway we went to take photo.i actually want wear spec one but i left my spec in my file which is in the class.then after than was CE,i was pasting the yog thing and hero distube me.the was recess.after recess was maths and yi ping and westly come distube me.then was ss.ms lam scold the class.then after school went amk hub with bel,chun chuan and shi min.then went to buy my red shirt.christabel help me pick a shirt.then went to buy something to eat then jasmi came and find us then chun chuan need to go somewhere.then went to ah mei cafe to eat prata.i feel kana cheated sia.i order a bomb prata.i thought the prata got chilli,but in the end,bomb prata is actually kaya prata.then after eating we went home.

today woke up at 8am then play dota till 12pm then took a bus to amk to buy breakfast then go Leon house.but i took a wrong bus i was supposed to take bus 73,but i took 76 then i have to walk from bowen sec there to leon house.i thought i am late but i was the first to reach leon house.then alloy and ian came over.we was supposed to go meet kc at 1pm at his house but,they play computer till 2pm.then we have to cab down to IKEA to buy something.then at IKEA we had our lunch before shopping for stuff,then we spent $40 on the food.then after we bought our stuff,we went to bedok,because kc need to collect some stuff,then ian and leon and me were late because we have some appointment.then we took a cab together but we stop at different place,ian alight first,follow by me then leon.

then i rush home to get agness cake.then i immediately took bus 133 to seragoon bus interchange.i am supposed to be in the interchage at 6.30pm but,i was 20 mins late.then at bus interchage i meet with christabel,qui min and qui hui.then we took bus 317 to serangoon circus.then at there we meet up with jasmi.then we went to a car park to put candle on the cake then went the cake is done,i called chun chun to ask him bring agness come out.then christabel,jasmi,qui min,qui hui and me was hiding behind a van,then went agneess and chun chuan came out,christabel hold the cake and we begin to sing happy b'day song to agness.then we find a place to eat the cake.then we went to chomp chomp to eat dinner.

then at chomp chomp,christabel suggested to spilt up to find table because all table was taken.then christabel and agness suggest we should spilt into 3 group.christabel,qui min and qui hui.then agness with chun chuan.the christabel and agness suggested me and jasmi together go find,we don want because of something then don know who go push jasmi toward me then i almost fall.then we went to bagawasole,jasmi bought a cake,and i bought a drink.then we was sitting down there to eat then christabel call said they found a place liao.then we walk back to chomp chomp.then we order food.i think we spent about $60 on food.then i eat until halfway,then i went home to take the macdonal uniform because i decided to quit,then i took bus 136 back to serangoon mac then i went to mac to return.

then after returning,i took bus 73 back to amk hub to meet agness,christabel and chun chuan.then we went arcade for a while.then we went to macdonal which is below the arcade.but christabel want to go hougang point mac.then chun chuan cannot go because he lazy and agness also cannot because she want go home.then i follow christabel to hougang point mac.then she take away fries.then i sent her to her block down there and i take bus 88 home.i reach home about 11.40pm.but today was very fun.


i want to clarify something.

-i and her is only friend only,so can your don distube us.

-i sent people back is because,it aready to late.so people please do not any how think.

people ask me how life?i would reply balance.because there is good thing and bad thing in life.we must learn to treat the bad thing in life as a experience and move on,we should not think those bad thing as a obstacle in life because we have only one life.we should not waste precious thing that have already happen,but think of ways to move on.

it only July 12,and already to much things have happen.maybe i over estimate myself and handle a lot of thing that i cannot handle.

-the fight that happen last Wednesday.both are my friends.

.friend 1
i still remember when i was in the school field trip in Malaysia.i was suppose to be sleeping with other boys but you and ct let me go to your room to sleep.and you,me and someone did something in the hotel room.

.friend 2
i can only said that he is my friend.

when your fight,i pull your apart,friend 1 could just push me away and continue to fight with friend 2 but friend one did not.then at recess,some group of people help me and friend 2,then i heard someone threaten the people who helped me and friend 2.i really don want this thing escalated to a class war.maybe i am to over worried



-last Friday leon invited me to his chalet.the chalet was quite fun.i and kah chun went to swim then went to the sauna.the sauna darm smoky sia.the after we dry ourself,we went to arcade to play.then after playing acarde,ian went back to the chalet to get a pant,then we went back to swim again.then after swimming we went to sauna again.then after then we went to play pool.then after playing pool,we went back to the chalet and eat.then after eating,we went to the room to talk about the "KILLER CEREAL BOX".then at 2am+ father came to fetch me.


today i was very tired in the mornning because i was working in sat from 9am to 11pm then reach home about 12am then i go home sleep for 7 hours then sunday i went to work from 9am to 10pm.so today i was quiet tired and i sleep during english and pe lesson.and NAFA was on thursday.omg i have prepare.then after school went to eat with bel,jasmi and shimin.then after that i went home.

today CE-period a fight broke up.between ______ and ________.then something even bigger happen during recess.i thought i was supposed to happen after school one.but somehow i was wrong.


PEOPLE I KNOW I LAST TIME MIGHT HAVE SIA LAN YOUR OR HAVE ANY CONFLICT WITH YOUR.BUT YOUR PROVE TO ME I USED TO BE A BASTARD OR WHAT.EVEN I HAVE CONFLICT WITH YOUR,YOUR STILL HELP ME AND HIM.I REALISE THAN I WAS 1000% WRONG ABOUT YOUR.I KNOW WHO HAVE DIRECTLY OR INDIRECTLY HELP US.I OWN YOUR A BIG FLAVOUR.IF NEXT TIME ANYTHING TO YOUR JUST CALL MY NUMBER 83832930 I WILL TRY MY BEST TO HELP YOUR.THANKS FOR THE HELP TODAY.


people ask me this why i alway help him.the reason is i saw him like i was in the pass.i use to be bully during primary school,but no one helped me.i don't wish this type of thing to happen to anyone.and the most importainly i know he was my good friend although sometime we might have a small quarrel but have your ask yourself who are the real friend around you?who will help you when you need them?who will give you good advice when you need??

"only when thing happen,then you will see who are your real friends".

yesterday was fun especially the night class.i wish everyday from now till N level got night class.yesterday after school went alone and play for 3 hour till 4.30 then took bus 315 back to school.then wait like a idiot in school for like a hour then 5.50pm i saw komati son outside the staffroom then mdm davi open the class and we go in.but i did not really pay attension to what mdm devi was talking.then after lesson,i go eat mac with quimin,quihui and christabel till 10 pm.then i sent someone to her house bus stop there then took 88 back to amk central to buy thing.then took bus 136 back home.reach home around 11pm.


today lesson was like so so,i keep sleeping in class except maths lesson because mr ho use the electronic board then then got a lot of jokes happen.then after school went to eat then i Saw christabel and shi min and bus stop and i sms shimin then she ask me if i want go hougang mall.then after eating i go hougang mall find them.they was at comic connection look for stuff and i went popular to buy a book.then later we went food court.then i put my book on the table and i went to buy drink and "SOMEONE" put the book inside her bag.then i come back i found than book was lost so i ask them and someone acting skill A+ sia.keep saying she don know.then we pass by watson and christabel say watson got sell sweet then i don believe so i bet with her if got sell,i treat her 2 stick of mentos then we walk in and watson really got sell then i buy two mentos than i pass to her.then after that went to cotton on.i bought a hat.then outside cotton on SOMEONE return me back my book.then went to hougang mall outside the shelter area and sit down then 4pm+ i bus back to school.then wait till 6pm for night class to start.then today teacher was ms tan.she teach very good sia.she would ask us to read out and correct us.and she even ask us to read 1 to 1 and she would tell us what is our mistake and tell us to improve in what area.

Just a short post.wed went to home team academic to work with alloy,qui min and agness.darm fun sia.i get paid while i take a nap during work time and the event thing super slack and fast.earn $48.then at bus qui min ask me 20 June is what day.then i was thinking very long and she said is her b'day and she said i "fu xin han".maybe i am really a fu xin han??.then i was like shit how can i forget it her b'day.then i make a note on my phone.then just now at 12am+ 20 june i sent her a b'day massage.then 19 june went to watch karate kid with family.hope jadan smith did not get serious injury while making the movie,he get beat up quite badly in the movie.



somehow i got a feeling something is going to happen during the coming week and a lot of mixed feeling toward different thing in life.somehow i still keep thinking of what happen during 4 june.



when your starting your prank i actually did not belive it first because you have been making quite a lot of mini prank on me.than your asked someone about my CCA thingy then i started to belive 100% and after that i sometime will avoid you in school cos i thought people might start to anyhow think and someone might get jelous or what.in school some people keep disturbing us.and i still remember someone once ask me this 'oi,where your girlfriend?' at school then i was like huh who is my girlfriend.i don want to write down what the person said cos i will ps one. .then during june remedial,fj keep disiao me again then you told me everything was fake.then i was like wth,your did not _____.but actually your make a great ______,seriously no lie.then after remedial you said you got something want tell me then you ask me to ask qm.but qm did not tell me anything.although your told me it was a prank.maybe i am to suspicious or what lar.cos i think there might be other thing related to the prank,but since your don want to said,then i don want ask anymore.i learn that somwthing not know thing is better then know the truth and your heart sink.

when i told you i like you,i really really mean it.when i told you i like you,i am in a semi drunk state.people said drunk people won tell lie because it brain cannot think properly so almost everything they said is real.i know i am not the guy you like.i know people keep said i like who is all 100% fake one,i just play along with them only.i don want to tell them i like you because i scared people might disturb you or me.someone ask me recently if i still like you,i reply yes.but i my mind,i keep think of 3 girls the first one is you.the second one is someone who share her secrets with me,but sometime i accidentaly say out her secret to people and cause her trouble.then last one is someone which is almost the same,i just bring her unwanted trouble.it seem like girl who i might talk to ,i will bring them some trouble.i don want to bring trouble to you also.i am not a playboy.my heart can only and forever hold one person and now the person is you.

today someone one told me something.i cannot believe i actually believe it,and there are 8 more people who are also involve.and i don know what happen to my right eye,got red red thing,but i hope it will become normal again.then today i stay at school till 2pm+ then i go lan with westly.i cannot believe i can win a 2v1 dota match,but actually i cheated i backdoor them(ps,only people who play dota know what am i talking).then after then i go home.then reach home watch tv till 6pm then i fell asleep on my father bed.

People it does not mean i walk with a girl does not mean i want hong her want chio her or what.i really don want to cause a lot of misunderstanding and make thing very award for us.it have been quite some time people keep asking me i interested in her or what.it quite irritating sia.i said no then your would said i am lying,then i don say anything,your thought is truth.serious can your be fair to us.

it have been a while since i blog.so i just update for fun.get back report book 1 subject fail,2 subject mc,the rest pass,but borderline only.but if i never get mc for 2 subject,i might have fail 3 subject.but i know N level is coming in September and i need study SUPER hard if i want to go sec 5 and continue with something.only the first week of holiday and i am already starting to rot and home liao.then this week need go back school for maths and f%n remedial.f&n coursework is so bored lar minimum 28+pages of words.but at school com lab,i was listening to music and play games and not doing my coursework.tomorrow is the last day of remedial,so tomorrow i will be staying in school till quite late because i only do about 15+ pages only.


when i make the bet with you at that shop,i fold the recipe and keep it in my wallet.i found out some thing on Tuesday,actually i was a little bit sad a first,but after a while i was happy.although you said the bet have a 2 year dateline but now i feel i am a bastard.this type of thing should not be a bet in a first place as people might not be friend after they know this bet.but the bet is also quite sweet lar.i now really don care the bet now,because i know what i want to do in life,the the bet will always be a memory in my mind forever.

this 2 weeks,many things happen.only a few know,but only 2 people know the whole stories.i now really don know what love??can someone explain for me.


23 april 2010

late for school as usually.then first period geo,ms lam teacher the what factor that cause the produtivity for food.then the second period was p.e.i fail my 2.4km run,so next week need run one more time.then something happen.i lazy say.that was chiness,i was talking to jasmi,the the teacher keep distubing me say what i keep talking to the girl,she will misunderstand one.then do the chiness compre.than was recess,cannot go libary because of health check thing,so sit at the locker there and talk to agness,xin tong,westly,jasmi,shi min and cheng tat.than after recess was maths.mr ho give the was statistic test,i got a feeling i will fail.

then after school,i foget today got remedial,then i go lan with 4C people.then play till 2pm+,i took a bus to serangoon,then saw shi min,then we walk to benson house there and took a bus to J8.then we wantted to buy the ticket first,but we cannot buy cos someof us under 16,so we went to eat,while wait for christabel,kimberley and hero.then we buy the tickets for ice kancang puppy love movie.after the movie,we went to the libary,then saw mdn komati,then she ask us something.then later went libary for a while,then we bus down to amk.then i stop half way because i need go home take something.then i went back to amk hub to meet the rest.then later i left,then i go arcard to play,then benson call me,asking me if i want to prawning.then i go bishan park there meet benson and ming yao.then prawn until 11+ then i left.

today was super fun:).mdm komati never come so we go library.do comprehension.then follow by 2 maths lesson.after the first lesson end,Mr ho give us a 5 min break,so i went to the canteen and eat without his permission,then buy one bottle of green tea and go up to class.then mr ho almost scold me for going to the canteen.then recess,went to the library to play card with farhan.then was geo,do the pamphlet thingy that was ss,darm it got 4 over 13 mark for ss.the lowest mark i ever get got ss.i expected i would fail but,did expected to get that low.then do correction.then follow but English again then went to library again.i was talking to jasmi,jovin and shi min,then we sat like the previous lesson.then talk to jovin about thing.then the maths teacher came and ask us to go mdm komati homeroom because ms sae was our relive teacher.then sms somebody about the "f and n thing".then was after school,went to library again,to sleep.super shiok sia.then 2.30 went to f and n remedial,but outside home econ home mrs xavia said then is no remedial for this week.then i went to jasmi house there the coffee shop and eat duck rice,then i was walking toward the bus stop,i saw jami and jia qian.then jia qian bus come then she left,then jami ask me want go back school a not.then she went home to put her bag then we went back to the school.then went to the level 4 com lab,i open the staircase door,i saw ms sae and i saw "hi"then at the very same moment she drop her key.and i say "sorry teacher my fault" then went to the com lab.initially i was to ask mrs fadilah if i can go i com lab to slack.i say cannot then i and jasmi went to library.i did expect to see kimberley and hero there.then jasmi and i each take one book and read.we read until 3+pm then agness they all come find us.then something happen after that.i don want to said.then at library till 5pm then jasmi,qui min,qui hui and i went to MacDonald.then at there we play a game.darm funny sia.then jasmi ask me the thing about the 2012 Apocalypse.we speak in chiness darm funny but my com cannot type Chinese work.so i translate our conversation in English.

jasmi"a you that time said you said you 2012 want use what to bomb the moon"

me"rocket lar"

qui min"why you want to bomb the rocket"

me"i bomb the moon better that the moon crush into earth mar"

qui hui"the moon very poor thing lei,

me"bomb the moon can save chang ei lei"

jasmi"why want save chang ei"

me"cos i want let chang ei come back to the earth one last time before doomsday"

jasmi"i thought you want chang ei to reunite with hou e'

me"hou e die so long liao"

qui min"then you want chang ei to live where on earth

me"my house lar"

qui hui"but chang ei want to live in luxurious place lei"

me"going to die liao,still want live in luxurious place"

jasmi"why want use rocket bomb the moon,why not use atomic bomb"

me"atomic bomb so heavy"

jasmi"then how USA use atomic bomb to bomb japan"

me"USA drop atomic bomb on japan,not fly the atomic bomb to japan lei"

then"why superman can fly above earth,and never become burn by the atmostphere

me"did you see his underwear"

than after that we went home.

yesterday was darm fun.late for school today cos i miss the bus.first period is geo.had test on globalisation.i think i am going to get borderline fail.cos i never study.i should study liao cos this year is n level year.then next period is maths, test again but it was quite easy cos teacher got revise with us before test.then after maths,i don know what the next period then i ask KIMBERLEY TEO,then she tell me is recess,so i so dumb go believe her,then i went down to the canteen and buy thing,then i saw why like no upper sec in canteen so i go to the Chinese class,then went i go in,the Chinese teacher ask me why am i late,i tell her someone told me is recess so i go down canteen.then KIMBELEY TEO was like laughing like hell.then do workbook.then was recess,did go down canteen,i go to the library with shimin and jasmi,then in library i saw westly they all,then play card.then was phy,test again,then class was very noisy,then standing behind me and she shout at the class.i was like shock sia doing test halfway,then tacher shout.then after school went to the canteen with jasmi and shi min cos library was close.then after that we to chem remedial.do revision paper do halfway,i fall asleep and the teacher was kind,cos i am like sleeping in front of her and she did not scold me.then after than jasmi went to get benson textbook form peixuan then after jasmi,shi min and i went to f and b to eat,eat halfway cheng tat sms me,i did know he was eating at the opposite shop with the 4d guy,i don know how to spell his name.then after than went to a void deck and talk.then jasmi ask me pank call timothy.then it rain heavy.then we went to benson house to pass him the book.then went to the 7-11 near benson house to eat instant noodle.then rain stop,we then went home.then play computer till 8-9pm that i twit with KIMBERLEY TEO till midnight,and she say i dumb because of what happen in school.

hais.....

today went late for school cos i miss the bus because my handphone time was not accurate and it a little bit spoilt,i should change the phone after i had money.then went to library for the first period cos i don know which teacher never come.then i take a book and go sit with jasmin,shi min and later jovin and farhan come join us.we was like talking about chucky the ghost doll,then suddenly farhan got f*** up because he saw laser being point at him so he came and tell me.then i know is cheng tat liao cos he the only guy that bring laser around.then i walk to him and ask him to stop.then i walk back to read my book.then suddenly feel like darm thirsty like that so i went out and drink some water.then when i come back,i saw farhan was missing and i ask jovin they all where is farhan,they also don know where he went to.then i saw someone behind the shelf then i walk to ask farhan what happen.then he told me he was being disturb by the BOYS.then i got fuck up and go and ask cheng tat and co to stop.then when i was to take something,then go disturb him again.then ask farhan to go to a corner and read his book.then i saw regu and zaidy right i front of me.like they are going to disturb him again.then i got so f*** up that i took a chair up and walk to where regu and zaidy was standing.at the point of time i have the urge to throw the chair at them.but i was a councilor i know every fight have consequence so i instead of throwing the chair,i took the chair and sit near farhan.



THE PEOPLE WHO ARE INVOLVE ARE JUST A SCHOOL BULLYS.THAT ALL I CAN SAY


then after school went to f and n remedial.do priority list and key related factor.then before the remedial i was trying to pull the pail that is at kimberley table out of the window then she go scratch me,then i pull the pail toward the basin and i on the tap and hero and kimberley try to pour away the water.then aseena walk to the window and talk to kimbeley and she said i very irritating so i let go of the pail and went toilet.then after going to the toilet,i went to the opposite class and find agness then the stupid wei cheng go knee my ass then i fall on the floor,then if i am not wrong aseena was laughing at me and when she try to ask me something about what happen to the library,wei cheng and mattius carry me back to my f and n class.and they put me in front of class near the door,darm ps sia.then remedial start.do the priority list.4+ i and kimberley and hero still have finish then i ask them if they are going to the bus stop behind the school then they said yar and i ask them if they finish they can wait for me.that i finish my priority list and mrs xavia let me bring go home and do the next one then i pack my bag.then i was preparing to leave cos i need get the form for jasmin for tomorrow family day that i forget accompany kimberley and hero to the bus stop.then i was at the door the hero and kimberley said i never wait for them.then i remember i need to accompany kimberley and hero to the bus stop.then after f and n remedial walk to the bus stop with kimberley and hero.then we walk by a row of house the kimberley and hero keep on said the one is they house then reach the bus stop.then i walk to the opposite side cos i need to go find my brother.

.PROMISS.

i had been almost 2 year since the start the the thing.but now i think it the time to end.i should have been fair to you in the first place and instead.......I promiss i will end the whole thing and today will be the end.

HIRERING NOTICE

Currently,the company that i am working lack of manpower.They need service staff,which is waiter/waitress.the job is quite fun fun as you can go to places that normal Singaporean cannot access like army camps,different schools,and some place of interest.this job need do things like

1)setting up for event like carrying thing and decorating the table.
2)waiter/waitress
3)clearing after the event end

That is mostly everything.1 hour pay is $5 or $5.50.This job is like an odd job,which mean that is there is a event,then you will be called,if there is no event,there mean there will be no job.this job have a inregular time,which mean that you might work form moring to midnight,or sometime it can be as short as 4 hour.but please don worry taxi fare can be claim is you are work till very late or very early.

This is my company website
ISS CATERING PTE LTE

the paid is given every 2 week and sometime there might be a delay of paid due to public holiday.

Please call me if you want to try out for this job you can contact me by my phone.my phone numbber is 83832930.or you can msn me.my msn is saga_dragon@hotmail.com.

What happen to me

why?why?why the felling came back.i should be gone when i make that promiss to you.but why haven is making fun of me.what can i do.the more i want to avoid,the more...........hais.

Study is more impotant than work.

time really fly,3 weeks just past like this.Sometime i really wish to go back to kindergarten,life was carefree,nap after breakfast.Now after recess still need go back class to study.since 4 jan i was busy with a lot of thing,mostly is regarding personal relationship problem and working cos there is a shortage of people,then bo bian i have to cover the shortage of worker,till 18 Jan cos company got some minor problem.Now are day peoples tell me study is more important that work,but i think i can make a balance between study and work.from last week,i have been runing all around jurong to work,then tomorrow and Friday got remedial and work,i also think time quite tight for me and my N'level is this year.thought of going higher NITEC or gamble with O'level result,hoping can go polytechnic.but need wait until my N level is finish and the result is out then can decide.

2010 here i come.

64 holiday pass so fast sia.i haven have enough fun.

18Dec09
so sian sia morning wake up 6am+.then go meet alloy and cheng tat the mrt down to boon lay.then 8pm start work at factory.i was supposed to leave at 4pm cos i at 7pm need go harbour front to board a cruise because my grandmother want to early celebrate Christmas with us.but there is a lot of work to do in the factory then we do until 6pm+.then cab down to harbour front almost miss the cruise sia.then went to eat at the cruise.then went back to the cabin and sleep to the next morning

19Dec09
went to eat Chinese buffet for morning and went around the cruise to do thing.i and my brother also try to smuggle to the casino but we were caught by the guard then we were told to go out.darm embarrass sia.then at 3pm went to the theater to watch g force with my mother and my brother.then at night we went to eat western food,we need to wear collar shirt in order to get in.after we eat finish,we went around the Cruise.at 11pm we went to watch the acrobat performance.quite nice.then after the show,we went back to sleep

20Dec09
went to eat breakfast then went back to room to pack up,cos we are going back to Singapore.then 12pm we were queuing to get down the Cruise.then cab back home then sleep till the next day.i know i like a pig sia keep on sleeping cos from Monday i haven been work from 8am to 4,5,6pm everyday.

21Dec09 to 18Dec09
went to factory to work with alloy from 8am to 5pm.

31Dec09
went to eat dinner with my cousin and grandmother then my cousin and i went to bishan park to play candle till 11pm then i went to my cousin house to see the countdown show.then went back home to sleep

2Jan10
went to the new school.quite different from the old school,but the d and t block like never change only the colour of the block change only

6Jan10
Darn f up sia.kana cut hair like a nerd like that all because the Mr leong lar.keep on saying my hair cannot.think he need wear spec liao.my back only a little long the ask the stupid c**** women to cut my whole hair and she was like screaming at me when i say can liao.

8Jan10
today time like quite fast.Geo learn the food thingy then maths learn the algebra,mt learn new words and copy thing.fu quan was like disturbing the teacher the whole lesson.the last period physic.i was like quite tired because i don know why every time i smell until flowery smell i will tent to sleep.then before physiche was this girl that got the flowery smell walk pass me then physics lesson almost felt asleep,then the catering auntie call me and ask me go work.then after school buy cig form *** ** cos i need to smell something to wake me up cos i was darn sleepy and i need to carry food which was quite heavy.7pm then the work end,bus back home.

YesTerDay

using point form again cos laszy type sentence.

^wake up at 9am+ am
^go to amk hub with my brother at 10am to meet cheng tat.
^take mrt all the way to boon lay.
^when to buy bread at breadtalk in jurong point.
^then take bus to pasir laba camp.
^start work in camp at 1pm.
^cheng tat keep looking at Chio Bu.
^our work is waiter.
^6pm+ event started
^my brother and cheng tat serve the guest with 30 another waiter and 8aunty
^i serve the vip with 1aunty and 2 waiter and 1 manager.
^event end around 9pm+
^do clearing up.
^take bus to lakeside mrt
^in mrt cheng tat keep on saying the emcee for the event darm Chio.
^12am+ father friend come fetch my brother and i to jalan bersa there
^my father was late for about 10 min+
^eat supper then when to pool centre
^play till 4am+ then go home
^eat mac for breakfast
^bath then sleep.

a good/bad holiday ??

it has been quite a while since i post liao so i here to update.pls kindle leave a tag 1000 thanks

2-8 Nov i was in Cambodia. this is the time plan.

First day.(2 Nov)
went to school with pe attire and track pant.at school there darm pai sei.everyone was wear black shirt,and i am the only one wearing p.e attire.then mark attendance then took bus the school book for us and off we go to changi airport.then teacher give us time to walk around airport.then went to mac and eat with cheng tat.then we board the airplane.cheng tat sit at my right side and ms tan sit on my left side.the halfway in the flight cheng tat want play card then i press a yellow button at the air con there,and the women ask me what i want then i say can take a packet card then she ask me wait awhile.then she pass me a pack of new card.then the people behind me follow press the button to take the card.the ms tan say she darm pai sai sitting with us.the Naomi keep disturb me.then sleep a while then wake up and play card with cheng tat.then we reach Cambodia,quite shock cos quite different from Singapore airport.









this toilets is use from us for 5 days.no water heater and hose only pail to take the water.and it freaking cold and a few day the weather is already very cold and we still use cold water for shower.

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Second day(3Nov)
in the morning,the weather is quite cold and it like going to rain.then after breakfast went to the work site school,which was quite near our home stay.and behind the school,there is a temple.



we were groups because we need to teach 1 day and build thing for 4 day.

the first problem is teacher bought 8-9 new box of colour pencil,but the colour pencil was not sharpen.then we manage to find only one sharpener.then we use axe to sharpen the colour pencil.

then some of us need to help the local to built a hut for the local.the local started by measuring the log and digging 4 big and narrow hole but half way through it drizzle.we were told to wear the poncho and we continue to dig hole.then we stop and went back to home stay for lunch.than after lunch we went back to the school.and we do thing till noon and went back to home stay



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third day(4Nov)
it almost same like the second day.breakfast,school,luch,school.it almost same like the second day.breakfast,school,luch,school.the the afternoon,at the school. we play merry go around with the local.super fun.i was pull in almost every round.
but at night we where brought to a local night market.



fourth day(6Nov)
it almost same like the second day.breakfast,school,luch,school.but at night.but the hut is slowly coming together.



then at night,we have a campfire at the local school.but in the middle of the camp fire,i did not know what the local was trying to do they hold some of us and walk in circle and we was walking super near to the fire.then after than we go back to our home stay.some of us was crying when we were leaving and some of us take photo with the local.this can show than all of us know the local and develop a bond with the local even though we were there for only 5 days.then at home stay,we have a whole group reflection.

fifth day(7Nov)
we did not go to the school already.we went to take a bummer boat to see the river half way a lady from another boat came onto our boat to sell during i want to try the local beer and i bought a can.quite different from Singapore beer.and the tour guild saw what i was drink and tell Mr lau and my drink was kana confiscated then we went to a crocodile farm.later on we went to angkor wat and a land mine museum.

sixth day(8 Nov)
leave out home stay and went to the city phnom pehn.a good meal after five day of egg meal.we went to a local halal restaurant and eat.after lunch,we to a ex-detention centre during the country civil war and now a museum.there is disgusting photo there.then after than went to the palace.quite grand and big and there is a lot of valuable in the palace.next we went a ex killing field,which is use during the civil war to kill people about 3 billion people were kill during the civil war.after than went to a hotel restaurant to have our dinner.then we went to the local parsa malam.and when we reach there,it started drizzle.and went we go back,aseena find her phone was lost.we then went back to the bus to find if the phone might have drop in the bus but it not in the bus.the we head to the local biggest shopping centre.i and cheng tat bought a wallet.and after that we went to the supermarket.i want to buy beer but i warn not to buy any more beer after i was caught on the fifth day.but rayson bought 3bottle.i and cheng tat ta pao swenson ice cream to go back hotel.when we were about to go ms tan ask me look into her eye and she ask me if i bought something i was not suppose to buy then i say no the we went to the hotel.on the way back rayson was caught because the bottle was to big for the bag.and one guy said'teacher rayson kana detention ar?" then mr lau said "what detention?is excicution ar."then i was like laughing like mad.then at lobby mr lau come di siao me say want cheek if i bought any thing i was not suppose to but.but luckly i never buy.then an night cheng tat they all want taunt in a sec 2 room.then after bath we went to the room and rayson bring in the 2 bottle of beer.then he bottle cap very hard to open the zhen rong so pull the bottle cap with the toilet metal lock and the some of it spill.then we shared the beer.the 1 hour+,later ms tan suddenly press the door bell and we hid the beer.then ms tan came in smell the beer because the toilet no one wash after some of the beer spill in the toilet while oppening.then ms tan came in for a while and then go back to her room then i 3am when back to sleep cos Darn tired.

seventh day(Nov)
eat breakfast and took a plane back to Singapore and at Singapore airport we took a bus back to the school.and i took a cab with jac and ms sae we bought mac before going back home.

If you read my blog for more than a year,you might know what happen on last year 8 October 2008,and today is 8 of October 2009.

i really took a year to think about what had cause us to be like a "total stranger" in school and we hardly talk unless it important.By doing this i know i am selfish and not fair to you.All i can say i really don know what 'love' is.but now i do.

Love is to be always be willingly to give up everything to the person you love and want nothing back.If you love someone you will always be by their side,when he/she is sad you will try to cheer he/she up,when they are happy, he/she will want you to be by their side to share he/her joy with you.And no matter what happen you will be there for he/she.And the most important thing is to always tell the truth to him/her and trust him/her no matter what happen and accept all his/her flaw as no one is perfect.

Last year what i say to you in 100% real,yes i know i am not handsome and etc but what i say to you on 8 of october is real, if i lie to you,may god stuck me dead,but now it not important to you and me.i have promise you something on 21 September and i have done it.Maybe you will meet someone to love you more than i do and more handsome than me and i hope he can give you happness.

Using My Smile To Cover My Unhappness.

i will be using point form to post cos i lazy,and i know even no one want to read my blog.

^things in my family is better than last time

^there are a lot of thing to be solve

^quit smoking after my last packet of cigarette is finish

^this Saturday will be a busy day got a job testing at zoo kfc.and Saturday morning still need go mac and work.so Saturday i might no answer people phone call.i am here to said sorry i advance.

^there are still problem that i don know how to solve.

^i plan to go private school after this year if i get 1 in class for overall result(it seem impossible) but i haven tell my parent about it.

that is almost all i am thinking now.

today was quite nice.in school i am always caught by teacher for reading book.and surprisingly all teacher that caught me reading the book have read the book before.then maths lesson do filing then recess.then after recess was f and n.the fcking yi ping keep di siao me then i du lan than don talk to him.then was Chinese lesson,don know got the thought of quiting school cos this few day a lot of thing happen,and i started to smoke(i am not trying to act like smoking is very cool like that hor)cos i think it help me relive some of my stress.then after school yi ping say sorry to me then i go out to smoke with some friend.then after that go home and take badminton racket then bus down to meet benson and yi ping and their friend the we started to play badminton.then 5+pm we go to 7-11 to buy drink then benson and yi ping sent me to the bus stop and i bus home.and just now don know why all the blogskin i chose all say what bandwide exceed then what upgrade,then i change the blog skin to this.

i promise not to bug you anymore,but i am not sure i can forget you a not.

vental tears

i thought about maybe letting go of you is the best way to end but until now i still love you.i never treasure you you when we were together on 8 of October 2008,even it was just a day,or even it is less that 24 hours.the feeling is always there when i see you,and i am guilty of not by your side when you was sad or loney,because everytime now,i was afraid i talk sometime wrong and you will get angry at my nonsense,and because i know you never like me anymore.maybe this might be my excuse for me to feel better.i admit i am not a handsome guy.but now saying this is pointless because we have reach a stage were we don even talk to each other.and another 50 days is 8 of October,maybe i am to in love in you to a point i don have the courage to let go of you and move on.

Wish you,all the best of end of year.